Crimson‘s Journey to Self-Love

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kratjeuh
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Thu Mar 09, 2023 3:03 pm

You’re fighting the strongest demon in self improvement which is self acceptance and self love. I’m proud of you to take steps out of the comfort zone and talk about it with other people. You will come stronger out of this.

When you overcome this challenge in the future, you will look back on it and admire of what you were capable of conquering.
Crimson wrote:
Sun Mar 05, 2023 6:38 pm
I’ve been holding everything in for so long. Now I feel all alone. I see everyone around me getting ahead and it feels like I’m left behind. I don’t see an end to the pain I’m feeling. I just want it all to end.
Comparison is unnecessary.

There are some guys who’ve been doing this for 10+ years relentlessly. Ofcourse they are ahead in some way.

We are here to support you in your journey. Be proud of all the good things you’ve already done and remember that everyone makes his own story.
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Sun Mar 12, 2023 5:25 pm

MakingAComeback wrote:
Thu Mar 09, 2023 12:58 pm
Crimson wrote:
Thu Mar 09, 2023 9:41 am
Update post

On Monday I had that group therapy session about depression. Other participants are min. 12 years older than me, but it was still good to know that there are people out there who struggle with the same thing.

I’m currently doing an apprenticeship in kindergarten that started last week Tuesday. I only went that day and then I quit. My parents think I’m still going, but I’m really just in the library. Told my teacher I’m quitting and we met yesterday.

They asked why, I told them I’m suicidal. They were really understanding and seem like they really want to help me. They asked wether I ever considered hospitalization, but I’m not to keen on that because it would mean that I have to repeat this semester.

So my teacher told me to make another appointment with my doctor and be insistent on finding a way to get a therapy spot quicker. Also got another meeting with my Teachers on Friday where we’ll discuss what to do about my mental health and academic future.

I also loaned out the book about CBT again, currently reading that.


TAKE ACTION

Crimson
Just focus on you and your healing bro

Do you understand much about healing itself?

The Mind & Body are interlinked. They support each other.

There are many ways to heal, and in healing, you'll accomplish everything else.

Key is to be well.

Again, I sound like a broken record, but I still have 12 years of research and deep experience in healing and saved myself from the depths.

The basics matter a lot.

Watch the sunrise

Practice earthing

Consume DHA daily (very important for mental health, sick brains often are inflamed)

Cold exposure

The Mind: Meditation, therapy, visualisation, reading, inner work and inquiry

SLEEP: You must be in bed at 10pm if you're in need of healing dude.

Keep working...........Keep attending therapy, also, start reading Letting Go, in fact, just read through Andy's book reccomendations

I watch & read a lot of Andy's content. I consider this medicine for the mind. It keeps me healthy and supports my healing. 2 hours of watching Andy, on a healing journey, is time well spent.

It's not all TAKE ACTION BRO. It's also, mental and emotional health dude.

There are many paths up the mountain, happiness is the foundation of true life success.

Goals achieved in misery are in fact failure

R
Right, I hear you, thanks.
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Sun Mar 12, 2023 5:26 pm

kratjeuh wrote:
Thu Mar 09, 2023 3:03 pm
You’re fighting the strongest demon in self improvement which is self acceptance and self love. I’m proud of you to take steps out of the comfort zone and talk about it with other people. You will come stronger out of this.

When you overcome this challenge in the future, you will look back on it and admire of what you were capable of conquering.
Crimson wrote:
Sun Mar 05, 2023 6:38 pm
I’ve been holding everything in for so long. Now I feel all alone. I see everyone around me getting ahead and it feels like I’m left behind. I don’t see an end to the pain I’m feeling. I just want it all to end.
Comparison is unnecessary.

There are some guys who’ve been doing this for 10+ years relentlessly. Ofcourse they are ahead in some way.

We are here to support you in your journey. Be proud of all the good things you’ve already done and remember that everyone makes his own story.
Thank you for your encouragement, it means a lot.
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Sun Mar 12, 2023 5:40 pm

The therapist gave me sheets of paper where I can right down the activity and the mood (from 1-10, 1 meaning feeling super shitty) that I currently have for every hour of the day.

For example:

7-8 A.M.: Woke up, 4

Or 6 P.M.: Gym, 6





I’ve kept track for a week now. Most of the time my mood was a 4,5. The highest was 6 and the only time I felt like that was when I was doing some sort of physical activity (sports, running, gym, home workout). Makes sense, since exercise is heavily advised for treatment of depression.

Yesterday I played basketball again for the first time in like 4 weeks. Also did some song writing and drawing.
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Mon Mar 13, 2023 7:15 am

Good

Exercise is great

Self work is great

Meditation, visualisation, all fantastic things

YOU CAN HEAL 100% AND BE GREATER THAN YOU EVER IMAGINED

I was a fucking train wreck for a lot of my life dude

I became MAC at 29

Now, Greatness is inevitable............
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Sat Mar 25, 2023 4:47 pm

What’s up, I just recorded a song I made. It’s about my struggles with self-harm, so I thought it would fit in my log.

I added the link to my YouTube Channel in the signature, you can check the song out on there if you want to.
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Crimson wrote:
Sat Mar 25, 2023 4:47 pm
What’s up, I just recorded a song I made. It’s about my struggles with self-harm, so I thought it would fit in my log.

I added the link to my YouTube Channel in the signature, you can check the song out on there if you want to.
I love it dude. This is a good start.

Do you look at music as a different language for you to express yourself? Do you plan to keep making more or was this a one-time experiment for you?

I also am working to make music in the future for self-expression, especially of my emotions. Keep it up dude!!
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Mon Mar 27, 2023 1:24 pm

komeback_kile wrote:
Sun Mar 26, 2023 7:09 pm
Crimson wrote:
Sat Mar 25, 2023 4:47 pm
What’s up, I just recorded a song I made. It’s about my struggles with self-harm, so I thought it would fit in my log.

I added the link to my YouTube Channel in the signature, you can check the song out on there if you want to.
I love it dude. This is a good start.

Do you look at music as a different language for you to express yourself? Do you plan to keep making more or was this a one-time experiment for you?

I also am working to make music in the future for self-expression, especially of my emotions. Keep it up dude!!
Thanks a lot! Felt self-conscious about posting it but good to know that somebody likes it.

Music is definitely a form of expression to me, same with drawing and storywriting. I would say music allows me to express the emotions that I may not be able to articulate as easily. And I can just generally express anything I want in a more creative way.

Definitely planning on making more, I’m always writing songs, just gotta work on actually finishing them, haha.

Thanks again, looking forward to hearing your music as well!
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Mon Feb 26, 2024 7:15 pm

Haven’t posted in this log for a while. Still taking antidepressants, making me feel a bit better. Asked an old friend if he wanted to hang out and an other old friend recently hit me up.

I want to make some friends again :)
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