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Wed Aug 19, 2020 4:23 pm

Sin Silver wrote:
Tue Aug 18, 2020 10:25 am
Yeah, I'm stuck facing a major decision.

I've already been identified several times as the guy who keeps asking the time in my small town. If I keep doing this I risk developing a rep as the weird guy who asks for the time and asks where I can get the Beiber haircut. The later ones, the one that actually require you too call girls 'cute' is gonna be very hard, as I can only find maybe 6 to 8 attractive girls in my town that I can approach in maybe an hour. If I have to call 100+ girls cute, then I'm going to end up speaking to the same people again and again.

I can travel to other towns, but adding an 1 to 2 hours of driving to every lesson is going to limit me to doing this once or twice every other week.

I need to consider how I'm going to approach this moving forward.
That's insane that you're developing a rep already. If I were you, I'd be careful.
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Sat Aug 22, 2020 2:47 pm

So this is a venting post of my sheer frustration.

I have two bumble dates lined up this weekend that I was really looming forward too. I should be getting pumped and hyped for them, but Instead I’m lying in the couch with a pulled muscle in my leg.

I’ve been working out and running all week without a problem, even went for a jog this morning without a problem. I decide to go for a walk earlier today, and suddenly it felt like something had smacked into the back of my leg. I limped home, and now have my leg raised and on ice.

I am probably gonna have to cancel tonights date, but I’m crossing my fingers I can still attend tomorrows.
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Sun Aug 23, 2020 6:32 am

@Sin Silver there's a reason girls find guys with scars sexy. Try what Andy said.
Aspiring Digital Nomad

Follow my lifestyle journey log

Fitness:
-) Cut to 56 kg, then bulk after

Sex Enhancement:
-) Bathmate & Kegels

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-) 10 books
-) more note-taking & reviewing of past materials

^^Lifestyle habit tracker can be monitored here.

Learning Chinese Mandarin:
-) Mandarin 365 Project, monitor here.

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-) US$3k/ mo nomad income
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Sin Silver
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Mon Aug 31, 2020 4:01 pm

So after tearing my chillies last week I can finally walks round unassisted. I finally decided to risk an upper body session at the gym today. I decided to use the upper body work out machines to help isolate those muscles and prevent me from engaging my legs just to be safe. Not as good as using free weights, but I don't want to risk any further complications.

I did however have a great full day date yesterday. After cancelling all my dates last weekend, I managed to go to one that I rescheduled and was really look forward. I have my online dating profile set to match within 30 miles, however, their is a large town that's a good 70 miles drive. It's only 30 miles away as the crow files, but due to the awkward Welsh geography, it's a good 70 mile drive. I normally don't both matching with anyone that far away, but she was a stunner, and rather than the usual 'hey' she confidently opened with how she liked my smile. We clicked instantly so I decide it was worth the drive.

I met her at the beach at around 11AM for a full day date. I felt really tense at first, something I wasn't expecting. We talked about a lot of boring stuff, and it was worried I wasn't going to be able to escalate. Thankfully, after about two hours, I managed to grab her hand as we were walking around and we both held on tight. I felt much better from then on. It felt like I'd broken the ice and the wall of formality and had opened us both emotionally.

Later, we drove to a beach, and found a quite bench to cuddle up on and watch the sun set. We kissed for a bit and I started to escalate the best you can in a public place. Once the sun went down, I recommended we should go back to hers, but as my instincts were anticipated, she said that wasn't possible. I decide not to push it further, and as it was starting to get dark, I recommend we went and warmed up in her car. We then spent a good two hours making out in her car. She was great talker and really affectionate, but she wasn't comfortable escalating beyond kissing and rubbing.

I really enjoyed my day with her, but I'm not sure what my next step is going to be. I'm definitely interested in seeing again, but the 70 mile drive limits the spontaneous of our relationship.

Also, she said she need time before she was read for anything physically further. I held my tongue and avoided asking her why she needed time, but I assume it's due to her mental state rather than me. Any advice on what to do would be appreciated.

My goal for this week is to arrange a second date with her. I'm going to keep chatting to girls online to keep frosty, and try to arrange something more casually locally. I also haven't had a chance to continue the AA program since I smashed the big stone wall of day 17, so I'm gonna try and sneak a day of that in my schedule.
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Sun May 02, 2021 5:41 pm

Hi everyone,

I found this community at the beginning of last year after reading one of Andy’s inspiring posts on reddit. I loved the people, the drive and positivity of the community, which drove me into the dating scene hard. I learnt a lot from you all, and made major progress in my personal development, however, towards the end of August, the signs of the UK enter another lockdown beckoned, and I had to put the whole dating focus on the back burner.
Since then, I’ve been focusing on my personal development elsewhere. With work, I’m now of the future leader’s course, helping me setting plans and goals to really drive my career further. Following the advice of an inspirational friend, I started journaling everyday which has helped me manage my emotions significantly. I’ve managed to pin down an incredibly strict sleeping schedule which helps me wake up energised every day.
I’ve also started a continuous professional development framework, which has allowed me to take all the self-improvement I’ve been doing the last couple of years and really organise and structure it.

With lockdown coming to an end in June, outdoor gathers will soon be allowed and I’ll be able to start dating and working on my social and dating skills again.

I’m having to with strain myself from writing a thousand words about what I’ve been doing and have planned, but I wanted to drop a post saying reintroducing myself to the group.

I have hundred posts and other news to catch up, I look forward to working with you all again.
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Sun May 09, 2021 5:57 pm

Working on my social life is still on hold until June when everything opens, but I'm getting ready in the meantime.

Gyms have opened recently for the first time this year, and after being inspired by one of Andy's post, I got myself a personal trainer for the first time.
I had my first session with him last Wednesday, and by gods my legs are still killing me. I've been doing HITT to stay in shape throughout lockdown, making sure to include a lot squats and lunges to work on those lower body, they did not prepare me for what I experienced. I normally work on a 5 rep, 3 sets ratio, but he made me work at 15 x 3 at a lot lower weight. Even with the lower weight, my muscles were screaming at the end.
Still, I’m feeling very good. I am under 90kg for the first time since I started recording, and since I’ve changed my diet and had a major cut out of junk food(Two weeks and counting!), I am rapidly dropping weight. I’ve hada few comments on how lean I’m looking already, and I’m hoping to hit that 15% body fat soon

For the last month, I’ve been focusing on the lessons from “The seven habits of highly effective people” by Steven Covey. I gave the book a good once through a few weeks ago, and have since been going through the lessons one at a time, a ‘seven weeks of seven habits if you will’.

The first week was the focus on proactivity. This was mostly focusing on your own internal monologue and learning to take responsibility for things that are within your controls. I had to switch my mind set from ‘I need to go to bed on time’ to ‘I want to go to bed on time so I can smash work tomorrow’ which helped me feel a lot more in control when I was pushing myself to diet and remained disciplines in other areas of my life.

This week has been the principles of personal leadership. If habit one is climbing the ladder of success, and habit two is ensuring that ladder is propped up against the right wall. In order too do this, the book recommends taking time out to reflect and plan on what you’re doing. It also highly recommends writing a ‘personal missions statement’ that works as your personal constitute to which everything you do and decide can be compared and evaluated against.

The third week, which I plan on starting after post this, is the habit of personal time management. We are guilty of being lazy, playing to many video games, watching Netflix, but this lesson goes into a bit more than that. Not only does it teach planning for the long term, but it also emphasis focusing on the ‘important, but not urgent’ tasks. These are the activities that are not necessarily pressing or urgent but are still important all the same. Making sure your cloths are clean the night before you go out socialising is good time management, making sure your car is well maintained rather than having to fix it by the side of the road is good time management. Essentially, you want to be focusing your time on fire prevention, rather than putting out fires.

Speaking of time management, I need to hurry up writing this post! I’ve still got a good 90 minutes of reading to do tonight, and I need to get ready for work tomorrow! I’ll catch up with you all later!
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Sun May 16, 2021 12:27 pm

So this has a been a strange week.

I've very motivated and focused at work, smashing it at the gym and kickboxing afterwards and I had my first Covid shot, but I haven't really had the time for the rest and reflection that I wanted.

My main aim for this week was to introduce a more effective time management system following the third habit of Sean Covey, but I didn't get a chance to fully absorb the lesson the weekend before. I am going to smash out that chapter before the end of the day, and use it to plan next week more effectively than this week.

Following some of Andy's earliest advice, I've started working with a personal trainer at my local gym. The first two lessons helpped me really improve my technique (You got to SQUEEZEEEEE!), and not I have booked him for a 1 week diety plan and 3 month work out plan. My aim is to get down to 10% body fat first, which frustratingly means getting onto calore deficiently. I've heard this can make people really tired, so I'm going to love how that feels.

I'm also THREE weeks free of junk food, and I'm finding it a lot easier than I thought I would. I no longer have the urge to nibble it when I see it around the house, but I still have those urges whenever I see a ASDA or Tesco to pop in and reward myself for whatever I had one lately.

My current weight is at 14st and 3.6 lbs. My PT recommends dropping 2 lb(1kg) a week, so I'll be aiming to hit that next week.
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Sat May 22, 2021 2:02 pm

I've been smashing it at the gym this week and have been very strict with my diet. I'm down to 87.6kg from 89kg a week ago! It is a great seeing my discipline and hard work pay off. I wan tot keep this routine going, and keep a close eye on my gain progress for this month and see how things are go.

In other news, I've been working hard on the third habit of the 7 habits, the habit of time management. I set myself a weekly schedule on Monday, and managed to keep to it pretty tightly. Once things like the gym and my evening classes are in the schedule, I don't find myself trying to make excuses not to go in my head, which has really helped motivate me. I also don't find myself worry about what I should be doing, as I have already identified my proprieties for the week, and have set aside sufficient time for them.

I've also started hunting around for trinkets and accessories. Necklaces and rings, that can bring my style together. I have also started exploring how I'm styling my hair, but I'm going to explore that in a separate post.
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Sat May 22, 2021 7:45 pm

Sin Silver wrote:
Sat May 22, 2021 2:02 pm
I've been smashing it at the gym this week and have been very strict with my diet. I'm down to 87.6kg from 89kg a week ago! It is a great seeing my discipline and hard work pay off. I wan tot keep this routine going, and keep a close eye on my gain progress for this month and see how things are go.

In other news, I've been working hard on the third habit of the 7 habits, the habit of time management. I set myself a weekly schedule on Monday, and managed to keep to it pretty tightly. Once things like the gym and my evening classes are in the schedule, I don't find myself trying to make excuses not to go in my head, which has really helped motivate me. I also don't find myself worry about what I should be doing, as I have already identified my proprieties for the week, and have set aside sufficient time for them.

I've also started hunting around for trinkets and accessories. Necklaces and rings, that can bring my style together. I have also started exploring how I'm styling my hair, but I'm going to explore that in a separate post.
Hey Man

Good work on the Gym progress - also been hitting it myself this week.

Best of luck on your journey 8-)

Regards,

S.
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Sun May 23, 2021 7:56 am

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Sat May 22, 2021 7:45 pm
Hey Man

Good work on the Gym progress - also been hitting it myself this week.

Best of luck on your journey

Regards,

S.
Thanks, I've been hitting the gym hard in the past, but this is the first time I've done it with a PT and a good diet plan. I'm shocked how much of a difference it is making.

What are your goals with the gym right now?
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Sun May 23, 2021 9:03 am

Sin Silver wrote:
Sun May 23, 2021 7:56 am
TylerDurden1995 wrote:
Sat May 22, 2021 7:45 pm
Hey Man

Good work on the Gym progress - also been hitting it myself this week.

Best of luck on your journey

Regards,

S.
Thanks, I've been hitting the gym hard in the past, but this is the first time I've done it with a PT and a good diet plan. I'm shocked how much of a difference it is making.

What are your goals with the gym right now?
Yeah man the Gym is an investment I didn’t fully make and I was non-committal and had a bad case of ‘Fuck-around-itis’ for the best part of 10 years.

It was Lockdown that got me doing a lot of thinking and I realised I didn’t want to carry on how I was.

So I paid for a PT and bought supplements and bulking food and now I’m hitting it hard and I’m committed. I’m sure I’ll start seeing results soon 8-)

Honestly I just want to bulk up. If you read through my progress logs I’ve talked about how I went on a date a couple weeks back and got called ‘Mr. Scrawny’. I lost a lotta weight due to medical issues and it’s something I’m self-conscious about, so I’m doing something about it.

I’ll get as big as I can and take it from there! I’m gonna weigh myself today and keep track every week. I’ll detail it on my progress logs.

Feel free to have a flick through :arrow_up:

Regards,

S
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Sun May 30, 2021 7:10 pm

This week have been a slow grind, but I've come out on top. I fell sick for the first time in over a year this week, which punched a whole in my gym plans for Friday and Saturday. Thankfully, I am off for the next two weeks, so I'm going to sneak in some cheeky sessions. That being said, weight loss is still going steadily, I'm down 2.2lb from 193.8 to 191.86 lb, and I am starting to notice the difference, my waist size has gone down, and I can start to see my ribs when I've taken a shower. Not quite the same as seeing abs, but milestone's a mile stone.

I can also proudly say that other than one piece of celebratory cake, I've been completely off the junk food for 5 weeks. I use to be a very habitual snacker, finding any excuse to raid the fresh bakery isle at ASDA, so I'm very happy with myself in cutting back.

I booted up Bumble for the first on Thursday(When my cold was at it's worst), and managed to arrange my first date of the season which I went on earlier today. We went for a great walk in the scenic Welsh country side, but unfortunately, it didn't feel like it was going to escalate. She seemed interested in meeting up again, but unfortunately, that's not going to be for a good two weeks. If I'm going wait that long, I am definitely going to take her somewhere to escalate, or not bother.

I won't be able to go dating this week, but I'll be hitting up tindr next weekend.

Goals for this week, continue weight loss, and make plans for restarting approach anxiety course.
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Tue Jun 08, 2021 4:43 pm

Belted update, I was on holiday with my friends this weekend, and I've only just started to recover form the sesh.

I've been dieting for 4 months now, and have already loss 8lb! My PT told me I should aim to loose lb a 2 week, so I'm dead happy about this. I've noticed the difference already, my trousers are looser, and a I swear I'm loosing fat on my face already. The topless selfies doesn't quite do it justice, but the graph does(I'm an physicist, and I love a good graph).

I am still rather unsure as to what my Body fat it, but I want to hit 15%, then go as low as 10% if that's what's needed to get those abs popping. I understand I won't be able to effectively build muscle whilst I'm loosing weight, but that's a question for another post.

I am still on holiday this week, and my plan is to pick up the approach anxiety program again. I original started it over a year ago when lockdown began to lessen in the UK. I really enjoyed it, I learned a lot, and it completely changed my perspective on socializing and cold approach, however, as I was making real progress and getting into the swing of it, the UK’s second lockdown began to loom, and I knew I’d have to cut it short.

I pushed hard, and hit the dreaded ABC’s challenge, which I was honestly quite scared of, but I managed to smash it on my second attempt. With that major milestone down, I felt a good sense of accomplishment, and managed to put it to rest.

Now, over a year later, it’s time for me to revisit the program and my self development. The sun is out, lockdown if lifting, I’m feeling pumped and horney as fuck from my gym gains, and all the girls ware wearing really short summer shorts, it’s time to hit those streets!

However, before I pslap on some deodorant on and go out asking girl’s what the time is, there is some serious practical problems I need to address.

The first is location. I live in a small town for around 20,000 people, most of which are OAP’s. Trying to find girls in the street that I find sexually attractive, or at least worth approaching is pretty hard. When I did this last year, I got a few replies of ‘Hey, didn’t you ask that earlier?’, which kills the approach completely.
The solution to this is to do the AA program elsewhere. I live an hour and a half drive from one of the UK’s largest cities, where there is a lot of young and open minded people I can speak to. I think the best strategy would be to put a few weekends aside, and smash 3 to 4 sessions in one day. I know it’s designed to be done one day at a time, but I might have to bend it a little. Hopefully I won’t need to much time to reflect on each lesson.

This leads to the second problem, time. The AA program recommends going out 2 to 3 times a week. I can only manage every other weekend. Ultimately, if it takes me 4 to 5 times more to do it, then that’s what it will take. I’ll smash, it regardless of what it takes.

I have a total of four weeks off now between now and the end of August, so I might stay over in Manchester and smash it out there.
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Wed Jun 09, 2021 10:59 am

Day [1]

Hi everyone, The name's Sliver and I'm here to smash approach anxiety.

I live in the sunny old UK where we are starting to come out of lockdown, so it's time to have another attack of the approach anxiety program. I previously began it around this time last year, but the UK entered a second lockdown as Autumn approached, so I'll be restarting the program from the beginning to make sure all the lessons are nice and tight.

I really started to enjoy the program last time I began it. My views on socializing and girls radically changed, and I felt so empowered by it. I did manage to get stuck on the ABC's lesson, I felt very anxious about completing it, but I managed to power through in the end, which I'm very proud of.

I do have a few practical road blocks between me and completing this program.

The first is location. I live in a small town for around 20,000 people, most of which are OAP’s. Trying to find girls in the street that I find sexually attractive, or at least worth approaching is pretty hard. When I did this last year, I got a few replies of ‘Hey, didn’t you ask that earlier?’, which kills the approach completely.

The solution to this is to do the AA program elsewhere. I live an hour and a half drive from one of the UK’s largest cities, where there is a lot of young and liberal minded people I can speak to. I think the best strategy would be to put a few weekends aside, and smash 3 to 4 sessions in one day. I know it’s designed to be done one day at a time, but I might have to bend it a little. Hopefully I won’t need to much time to reflect between each lesson.

This leads to the second problem, time. The AA program recommends going out 2 to 3 times a week. I can only manage every other weekend. Ultimately, if it takes me 4 to 5 times more to do it, then that’s what it will take. I’ll smash, it regardless of what it takes.

Despite these road blocks, I am determined to smash approach anxiety, so I can build to sex and social life I want. It does take second base to my career commitments, and maybe shares a priority level with the gym and my weight loss(going for 10% body fat baby), but whether it takes 3 months, 4 months or I have to wait an entire year whilst the UK gov tidies the mess up that is CVD-19, I will smash it!
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Wed Jun 09, 2021 11:08 am

Day [2]
-Signed the anxiety approach program.
-Started posting my Vlog.

Expect alot of updates this week, as I work through all the days I have done before. I am going to work on a few of the session today, as I have a week off, and I want to catch up with where I left off last year. Whilst it will be time consuming, as act of prudence I am going to get into a habit of keeping Vlogs.

Last year, I tried about 10 takes to try and get it perfect, this time, I did it in one, fuck getting it perfect. It's done.

Edit- Video won't upload, I'll try to post it when I can. Anyone know the recommended file type?
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