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Sin Silver
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Mon May 09, 2022 6:56 pm

So, I’m sat here writing my draft of this post in MS word, determined to keep in touch with the KYIL community.
I haven’t been in touch with the self-improvement process as of late in general, not just with KYIL. I don’t mean I haven’t been self-improving, I have still been making big progress at the gym, going out socialising, and saving money to buy my own first house, sticking to my original long term goals.
What I haven’t been doing is thinking about the process itself. I’ve been sticking to the self-improvement routine and plan, without really questioning it or challenging it. This have left me feeling a bit disengaged from the whole process, unmotivated and at a bit of a loss.
To attempt to rectify this in order to stay engaged with the improvement process, and the KYIL community , is to come and post here every Wednesday after work. Previously, I would post once a month, but I found that a hard habit to keep. By moving to every Wednesday after work, it becomes a habit that stacks with the ritual of coming home on a Wednesday, which from my experience will make this much easier to keep up with.
The purpose of these talks will be to track my progress on what I have been doing. I’ll post what’s on my mind, and what I have done recently relating to my goals and self-improvement. I won’t post my gym progress every week, but will post it every four weeks. There’s not quite development within a week to justify a measurement or reflection on how things are going.

Thing I am going to talk about.
• My main aims, goals and objectives in life, and how they drive and steer my self-improvement
• My gym progress, such as my improvements to my PB.
• MY social events that week.
• Any other self improvement activities I have undergone. Meditation, BDSM, habit changes.

I am going to call it hear for this post. I’ve been feeling myself stagnating writing this, but I plan to keep at it after I wrap up this post.
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Wed May 11, 2022 7:43 pm

So, to quote Sean Covey, I am going to ‘Begin with the end in mind’ and talk about personal leadership.

The idea of personal leadership is to ensure that what I do, my goals, targets and dreams, all align with my personal values. My personal values are those values that I hold most important to me. They inform me of my priorities, how I want to live my life, and the sort of person and character I want to be.

By defining my core values, I can ensure that my priorities and the decisions I make align with them. If I am going to be setting myself targets to work towards here at KYIL, it’s important to ensure that they stem from and align with my core values. This is to ensure that the goals I set are something meaningful to me, and set me on down the right path in life.

For example, I value freedom, stability and family, so setting the goal to save money to buy my own house in order to have financial independence, and a place where I can raise a family is extremely important to me. It would be more important to me than saving money to buy an expensive car or go on regular holidays, as that wouldn’t align with my core values

By using the principle of personal leadership, I plant to identify my values (Freedom, stability, family, etc) and from there, identify the long-term goals (buying a house, finding a partner.).

I won’t be discussing interim goals here, an interim goal being a goal between you and your ultimate goal. For example, if your ultimate goal is to find a partner, then you’re the interim goals might be of improving your outfits, loosing weights, whitening your teeth, working on your dating skills etc. Those interim goals are NOT the ultimate goal, they just steppingstones on your way to the ultimate goal.

All I want to discuss is what’s important to me, and what my ultimate goals are.
With what said, let’s begin discussing values.

Family
I care a lot about family. I am very close to my parents and siblings, and the loyalty and love is very important to me.

Integrity
I consider truth and honesty very important. Those who know me know I‘m someone to be trusted to tell the truth do and keep my promise and commitments. My self-image of integrity allows me to trust myself to stick to my promises to myself and others, and a lot of confidence stems from this.

Kindness
I can be faulted as not the most empathetic person, but I hate to see people and suffer and love to see those I care about smile. Those who know me know I only want to best for them. I enter every social engagement wanting the best for everyone involved, whether it’s a present conversation, or a steamy romance.

Adventure
I love exploring new places, new ideas new cultures and meeting new people. Expanding my horizons is one of the most enriching parts of life.


Strength
The world a dangerous, and challenging Having the ability to take hit in, allows you to turn a potential disaster into a minor convince. I can go to bed not worrying, because whatever life throws at me, I am ready to handle it.

And there we have it, Familiy, Integrity, Kindness, Adventure and Strength. These are the core values form which I will draw up some ultimate goals for myself;

Ultimate goals!

Home ownership.
Owning a home is important to my future stability, and prospects of raising a family. Renting a place cost an extortion amount of money, and unlike a mortgage, that’s money you won’t be seeing ever again.
Right now, I live with my parents. I lose a lot of independence by doing so, but it allows me to put away £400-500 a month into a saving account towards this goal. Once I have my own home I’ll have a place means having a place where I can bring girls, entertain guests, rest and when the time is right, settle down to raise kids.

Relationships and sex
When I was younger, I struggled to speak to people and make friends. I also seriously struggled having sex, and was really self-conscious about that. Thankfully, 15 years of self-improvement have gotten me to the stage where I feel confident meeting new people, and I’m quite confident in my sex life. Right now, I want to be focusing on long term relationships, and building more meaningful, deeper connections with people I know. This means not just investing time in people, but developing the skills and character required to stay connected and build proper relationships.

My career
I spend 35+ hours a week at work, and I want to ensure that time is spent meaningfully. I’m a scientist by trade, I blow stuff up with lasers, no joke. It’s a great job full of interesting challenges and puzzles to solve. I’ve recently joined a new team as well, which is showing me the importance of surrounding yourself with people who are as motivated and determined as you are.

Now these might seem bit vague, unspecific, or unactionable, but from them, I will derive my immediate actions. For example, to buy a house, I have to save money. To build a relationship, I must go out and speak to 5 girls a week etc. There are numerous actions that could lead to any of these goals, but they will be a topic for next week.
Now, whist I have thought about this for a whilst, I have just written this log entry in a single afternoon. It’s tempting to just save this draft, and come back another day, but I made a promise between me and myself to commitment to writing here every Wednesday so I will be leaving wrapping this up now. Resisting the urge to submit it later after more re-writes. I will be making a habit of coming back and reviewing my goals and values, as they will inevitably change as I grow and change and develop more self-awareness.
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Wed May 18, 2022 7:57 pm

It’s been year since I started hitting the gym when lockdown lifted. It’s been an incredibly journey, so its worth having a look back at how far I’ve come.

This time last year my personal trainer got me focusing on burning fat first, so I spent the next 6 months on a calorie deficit. I was able to slowly build strength at the gym whilst doing so, and I shredded nearly 27 lb in 6 months. I was around 15% body fat at this point, and it was amazing how different I felt and looked. I had a lot more energy, and it felt empowering to have that level of control over my health and weight.

I realised I wasn’t going to loose much more without a serious effort, and with winter around the corner, I decided to go on the bulk and see how much I could gain. It was great being able to eat more food again, but I kept a lid on the junk food compared to how I was before the diet. I started to see much quicker gains in size and my power at the gym compared to when I was cutting.

I decide to go on a cut one month before a convention, just to see how it would feel, and man, did it hit me hard. I was hungry a lot of the time, my energy levels were a lot lower than they were during my previous cut, and my progress at the gym faulted. It was a great experiment to see if I had that level of control. As much as I enjoyed shedding the fat, I felt much better when I went back onto my previous diet right after.

My current plan is to stay on the bulk until the end of my next holiday on the June 5th, and then go on the cut again for summer. Based on what I did last year, I expect I’ll be able to lose 10lb just time for August , so I’ll be nice and lean for festival season. After that, it will be back on the bulk, until it’s time to cut back for summer again.

It’s amazing how big a part of my life style and identity fitness and going to the gym has now become. Going to the gym after work, or first thing in the morning on my days off has become something I really look forward to. Nothing can quite beat that post-work out glow, or that sense of purpose and satisfaction during reps. I don’t have a plan to compete in strength or body building yet, but we will see where I am next year. I’m incredibly excited to see where I go!

Here are some exciting numbers.

Starting weight -> Minimum weight
90.2kg -> 80.5kg

Total Weight loss
9.7kg

Current Weight
87.7kg

Total work outs this year
157


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My original starting weight in May 2021
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The lowest body weight I reached around October 2021
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My current body weight, May 2022
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A graph of my weight loss.
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Tue May 24, 2022 8:06 pm

I had a rather horrible experience this weekend. I’m trying to capture what happened in a piece of reflective writing whilst the feelings are still raw. I feel I could rewrite and add to this tomorrow, and as the aftermath unfolds, so I’ll be adding to it as the situation develops.
If anyone has any feedback, I would highly appreciate it.

What happened, what did you do?
This weekend I went to stay with a bunch of friends at a holiday home to party. As the guy who invited me was also taking his girlfriend, I decide I would invite an old Friend With Benefits to come with me as well. I’ve known the guy for about ten years since university, and the FWB I’ve known for about ten months.

I’ve been close to the guy for a long time. He’s a lot of fun, but he’s not exactly the best person. He struggles with ADHD and can be very week willed, leading him to being dishonest, angry and emotionally manipulative. Despite these flaws, I have a lot of good memories with him, so I still consider him a friend.

As for the girl, I met her at a festival and we hit it off sexually and emotionally in a big way. She lived far from me, and was in a poly-open relationship, so I never considered her relationship material, but we did for a BDSM partnership for a short whilst. It only lasted three months as the distance put to much strain, so I ended my involvement with her made peace with that. A few months ago, she ended up moving back to near where I live. I reached out to her and tried to reconnect and got some response. She had changed a lot and was very quiet and response. We did sleep together once, but it was very different from the passionate and intimate sex we use to have.

I tried to meet up a few times with her after that, but she was always busy, or had some other excuse. I invited her along to the party thinking she probably make an excuse, but to my surprise she agreed to join. We even discussed bringing out BDSM gear, so I was excited sex was on table.

A few days before the party, I find out the guy who invited me was no longer bringing his GF, and that the girl he mentioned wasn’t actually his GF, just someone he was ‘kind of’ seeing and was a having difficulty setting boundaries with. At this point, I started to get paranoid about the whole thing, “what if me FWB, gets with this guy?”. I don’t know why I thought this, so I pushed those feelings away.” You can’t afford the luxury of a negative thought “after all

Unfortunately, after a few hours at this place, this my paranoia became true. He started to ignore everyone else and started speaking to her exclusively her. They started to get along a bit too much, and by the time I went to bed, they were still up together.

I really struggled to sleep that night, but managed to get a few hours sleep. I was torn between thoughts of paranoia, anger at them, and anger at myself for being angry at them. I wasn’t technically committed to her, so I felt bad for being angry, even if later I felt more justified in it.

The next day, everyone else started to feel how awkward it was. I tried to play it call and stoic, I still wanted to enjoy myself and not act like a jealous child. Later that evening, when it was very obvious something was up, I approached my friend about it, and stuff started to hit the fan.

I had a talk with my FWB where she discussed how much she really liked him. She had recently come out of a 7-year relationship and was struggling emotionally.

I then talked with my mate about it. He talked about how he was also struggling a lot with his mental health, his recent ADHD diagnosis, and overall a general pity parade. He was very jealous of me, mentioning how I told him about all the sex and the threesome I had had recently.

We then had a group chat, where I mistakenly agreed to let sleeping dogs lie. I guess I still have a fear of rocking the boat. The house started to hang out for a bit, but they were still close.

I went to bed quite early, as I was still tired from the little sleep I had the night before last. I slept maybe one hour before I woke up stressed. I went backdown stairs to find them cuddling on the couch.

I tried to go back to bed, to put the thoughts out of my head, but I couldn’t. I announced I was going to leave, had one last talk with both, where I told them how pissed off I was, I got into my car in the middle of the night at around 2:30 and was home at my parents’ house at 5:20 in the morning.

How did you feel?
When they started getting together, I felt guilty and upset. Upset because a girl I was with was getting with one of my best friends, and guilty because she wasn’t technically committed to me and I felt like a prick for getting in their way.

Once I had discussed it with a few of the other guests, who also said they were feeling awkward, I started to feel more justified in my anger and being upset.

How dare he get with a girl I was clearly with, and how dare she sleep with one of my best friends at the time.

I felt like I had been treated as cuck, and completely disrespected.

I am angry at him, and I feel justified and good in my anger, a lot more than I am at her.

Towards my ex-FWB, at the time, I didn’t feel angry at her. In fact, I felt incredibly needy during the whole thing. I expect having the girl I was emotionally and sexually connected with get with someone else right in front of you does that to you.

What I’m doing.

I have known him for a long time, and he does a lot of dickish things in the past. At first, I was incredibly angry, and felt like I had to burn that bridge. Right now, I’m not sure what to do. The day after the whole thing, I sent him this message, I am yet to get a reply

“””

I’m struggling to find reasons to want to remain friends with you. You treat me poorly, and you constantly tell embarrassing stories about me and try to put me down. I honestly find you emotionally manipulative, dishonest and disrespectful. This and the tickets has highlighted how very little respect you have not just for me, but for others as well.

I know your ‘trying to heal’ but your in doing so you have caused me a lot of harm, stress and grief, and I’m not sure if I can take it any more.
“””

I have also sent her a message. It reads like this.

"""
Hi Luu, just writing to let you know I made it home fine.

I’m still upset at what happened. I know you and I aren’t in any form of commitment, but I would have still expected you to be more considerate of my feelings.
Yesterday you asked me if I felt Superior to Sam. ‘Yes’ is still the right answer, but I gave you the wrong justification for it. It has nothing to do with my worldly possessions, jobs, friendships, or achievements but it comes down to my core values and integrity.

I consider respect, honesty, and kindness incredible parts of my character, and I do my best to always uphold them. Whilst I make mistakes, like telling Sam yesterday that you loved someone else, I actively try to avoid and learn from them and I apologise sincerely when I do.

I hate to speak poorly of Sam, I have been friends with him for ten years, but he doesn’t have these values. He is disrespectful, dishonest, and emotionally manipulative.
I am honestly confused as to why I felt I half to keep apologising to you, and later sought comfort from you after you hurt me, when really, I should have been angry at you for getting with my best friend like that. I was angry at Sam, but not at you. I need to reflect on what that says about me.
I hate to speak poorly about Sam, because I have been friends with him for a long time but I have to warn you. In the years that I have known him, I honestly cannot say I have known him to have ever have a healthy relationship, or one that ends well. He is prone to burst of rage and violence when he is upset. Please be very careful with him.
“””

She did reply telling me she would read it once she got home, but I haven’t had any more communications from her.

End note
I have spent two days writing this in 2- hours sessions. I suck at writing, and writing from the heart like this is really hard. I’m not sure if I’ll be hitting the gym tomorrow, but if not, I’ll be back to write some more reflections.
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Tue May 24, 2022 8:44 pm

Personally I wouldn't really blame the girl that much at all, yeah it's a pretty fucked up for her to go with your friend after you invited her but you weren't exactly committed as a couple or even seeing each other regularly so she's pretty much free to do what she wants. She'd curved you a few times with excuses not to meet and then when you did meet you admit it wasn't as good as it used to be. You had an extremely flimsy level of commitment. You gotta move on to other girls and forget her as she's clearly not suitable or trustworthy. The message you sent her shows you cared about her wayyyy more than she cared about you (judging by her actions), it's best to just move on, block her number and forget her.

Your friend on the other hand I don't think there is any way back. I guess it's up to you ultimately but if my 'friend' did that to me I'd never speak to them again. My old friends that I grew away from because I stopped liking them as much due to their personalities had some awful traits and yet I could never imagine one of them doing something like that, it's like the absolute basics of being a friend. Guy seems like a snake and a loser.

I know that you live somewhere remote though so it's probably tougher to cut people off if your options for replacement friends are limited. Rough scenario.
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Wed May 25, 2022 12:09 am

Sin Silver wrote:
Tue May 24, 2022 8:06 pm
He struggles with ADHD and can be very week willed, leading him to being dishonest, angry and emotionally manipulative.
Good fucking riddance. People like us can't afford to let people like that drag us down to their level. I would never dream of inviting a person like that into my life for more than 15 minutes, much less for 10 years.
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Wed May 25, 2022 1:57 am

Sin Silver wrote:
Tue May 24, 2022 8:06 pm
I’ve been close to the guy for a long time. He’s a lot of fun, but he’s not exactly the best person. He struggles with ADHD and can be very week willed, leading him to being dishonest, angry and emotionally manipulative. Despite these flaws, I have a lot of good memories with him, so I still consider him a friend.
ADHD is no excuse to be a prick, I have ADHD and I would never do what your friend did if I respected that person.

It is true that ADHD can enable impulsive behavior though.
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Tue May 31, 2022 1:30 pm

I said I would aim for an update every Wednesday, but I am going to make tomorrows entry today. I’m visiting my best friend tomorrow, so I won’t have time to make an entry.

It’s been over a week since my massive fallout with one of my oldest friends(See last entry), and I am still processing what happened. I’ll discuss that at the end of this post, but for now, I want to start discussing some more positive actions.

I’m still smashing it at the gym. I’ve realised how good going to the gym is not just for my physical health, but for my mental health aswell. When I was getting stressed at work last week, I found myself thinking “Damn, I just want to get out of here and down to gym”. I think it’s a huge improvement in terms of coping mechanisms. I’m not chasing drink, junk food, or computer games to release frustration, only a bloody good work out. It’s only been a year, but I think this small change is going to have massive implications for the rest of my life.

Talking about coping mechanisms. I’m planning to go see my best friend tomorrow, I haven’t seen him in ages. He works to Alton Towers, the biggest theme park in the UK, so he will be getting us staff tickets to get in. Spending time with my best mate flying on roller coasters is exactly what I need.

I’ve started to get the ball rolling on buying my first property. For a bit of background, I have been living with my parents for the last three years, which has allowed me to save a lot of money. It has limited my freedom and capacity for seeing women, but it was definitely the right move in terms of long term financial stability. I’ve done a few flats viewing, and have looked at getting a mortgage in principle. I plan to view at least three or more properties by my next post. I’ll also explore other options too.

Regarding my mate, I have a lot of mixed feelings, and I’m still trying to find my way through them.
I do resent and hate him for what he has done.

He can be very inconsiderate of feelings and needs. The way he got with the girl I bought with me, and screwing me other a month early with the tickets highlights this.

I have known him for ten year though. I know he can be a massive prick, but I still have many great memories with him and I don’t want to taint them with a terrible break up.

I want to be a kind and forgiving person, but if I just let him off for this, I don’t think I would be respecting myself.

If I just pretended like nothing happened, then he won’t change, nothing will change, and he will just go about hurting others and himself.

I plan to sit on this decision for a whilst, see how I feel after a week or so of cooling down.

A lot of people have told me to tell him to F’ off, but I am not sure if that’s the sort of person I want to be.
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Tue May 31, 2022 6:32 pm

Sin Silver wrote:
Tue May 31, 2022 1:30 pm
I’ve realised how good going to the gym is not just for my physical health, but for my mental health aswell. When I was getting stressed at work last week, I found myself thinking “Damn, I just want to get out of here and down to gym”. I think it’s a huge improvement in terms of coping mechanisms.
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Tue May 31, 2022 6:41 pm

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A lot of people have told me to tell him to F’ off, but I am not sure if that’s the sort of person I want to be.
The fact that you're considering forgiving him shows you're a bigger person than most. If you do manage to do it...remember that doesn't mean you go back to being best friends as you were. He HAS to change. Let him prove that. Either way, I would work to move on from it. And I wouldn't have the relationship you originally had. Get some distance between you and him, but remain friendly whenever you do see him, but keep it brief and light.

Honestly you're a very mature guy for handling this the way you are. Kudos to you. A lot of people run and ignore their problems yet you're confronting them in a healthy way. You'll be fine. It may not feel that way...but you will be.
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Tue May 31, 2022 9:30 pm

I suppose just don't let girls you like around him unless you want to "test" her loyalty. I would minimize time with him though.

It's unfortunate to say, but her past in a way predicted her future. Always good to look at a girls past.

Personally I just would've cut her off I wouldn't have texted her. She's a fwb not a gf and she's proven to be disloyal. The point of an fwb, is to see if they are gf material.

Sounds like your in a better headspace. Best of luck. The gym always makes me feel better too.
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Wed Jun 01, 2022 1:47 am

Man this sucks. Don’t get too into your emotions tho.

I right way for a mate to handle this would be talking to you first before he did something or at least owning up to it being a dog move.

Cut his guy. I don’t burn bridges completely. I would have texted him “you own me a girl”. He probably won’t pay up but he should know what the score is.

Edit - read the text you sent to your mate. You are clearly trying to be diplomatic but non of the anger/emotion comes through via the text man. He did some dog shit and has WASTED YOUR FUCKING TIME having to deal with this shit.
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Wed Jun 01, 2022 7:25 am

Hard2Focus wrote:
Tue May 31, 2022 6:32 pm
Sin Silver wrote:
Tue May 31, 2022 1:30 pm
I’ve realised how good going to the gym is not just for my physical health, but for my mental health aswell. When I was getting stressed at work last week, I found myself thinking “Damn, I just want to get out of here and down to gym”. I think it’s a huge improvement in terms of coping mechanisms.
Preach! Killing it in the gym is one of the best things to be addicted to 💪
It's a great feeling wanting to go to the gym. It is the first thing in the mornings on my days off now.

Thanks for all the words of support regarding my friend everyone. I am going to sit on it, and then send him another message later this week.
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Wed Jun 08, 2022 8:18 pm

I'm absolutely exhausted today and will be grabbing an early night soon after writing this. I was going to skip or delay this weeks entry, but I don't want to make a habit of doing that, so here is a brief outlook of the last week.

Still on the cut for my August conventions/festivals. My weight loss has slowed, so I might need to increase my calorie deficit.

I went to a fetish club last weekend and played with a lot of people. I spent a lot of intimate time with a girl, that start with me caning her breast in front a of a crowd, to me giving her multiple orgasms and getting a BJ. I will write up how this went in much more detail in my next entry.

I found out last night that a very dear friend of my is recovering from brain surgery. I have spent today organising a gift package for them, which is how I probably spent so much energy prior to writing this.
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Fri Jun 10, 2022 2:05 pm

Lesson here: you are the sum of your close circle.

If you run with the lame, you develop a limp.

Iron sharpens iron.

Your post triggered me a lot. It raised a lot of disgust in me, I suppose it brought back memories.

Part of me cannot believe you have 'friends' like that. This is me being judgemental, but I think there is a point to be made. If you're serious about becoming a success: WHAT THE FUCK?!

I would not spend any of my time, legit none, with a loser cunt like that. Harsh but true. I thoroughly vet people and ensure they're on the same path to me and are on their way to big things. Otherwise, it's not really going to be a good fit for either of us.

I can vouch 100% for my friends and peers on this path, and know I can build businesses with them, have incredible times with women and travelling etc. They're high quality men and there is a mutual respect, it is hard to build this network man, and no one who is weak is allowed in.

Cutting poison out is GREAT. I am very aggressive about this and have cut off people I knew for 10, 20 years sometimes. Because they became toxic. So it was GOODBYE. I have done this a few times dude.

Nothing comes above your success. Success is a TEAM SPORT.

High quality men are RARE. Pussy is an abundant thing. Building a relationship with a quality man takes months if not years, and can be destroyed in 1 second. It is also so valuable it is precious as diamond.

My circle have consistently brought me good things and I have added value to their life. I will continue to until we have all made it. Then, it is on them to live the rest of their days as champions.

If this is the energy you want, you have some thinking to do......

MAC
-Your friend, Ravi

Consistent Performance Coach, Admin of WinnerWithin, and Seeker of Human Potential

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