Noself's Action Log: Down from 20% BF to 18%

[Noself]

Day 11: Only did 2 approaches today, it is starting to feel effortless like holy fuck it seems like my mouth moves on it’s own without me comprehending what I was thinking about saying. I’m starting to just not give a fuck anymore my attitude is just like fuck it because of the amount of rejection but I just felt numb to it today. No numbers.

Cold Approaches: 62

As far as drawing, I completed the second week of my Head Drawing course. Here are the drawings below.

[Noself]

Day 12: 2/8
Day 13: 0/24
Here is the last days of cold approach that I have done, yesterday (24 approaches) was pretty brutal, a lot of the girls had bfs or just didn't give me the time of day. These days have been quite challenging for me, I'm fucking up by not making approaching my top priority because the numbers have to be put in before I get attached to any self-limiting beliefs. Fuck man I felt hopeless on Friday, like I'm cursed but I just have to keep it in my head that this is hard. Once I'm done with 2 more assignments of this drawing course, I'll make cold approach my top priority plus I just need a break from art man I'm just burnt out juggling both at the same time.

Cold Approaches for April: 96

[Noself]

Day 14: 0/0
Day 15: 0/0
Day 16: 0/4 (100 approaches)

Took two days off to just absorb the rejections of the last few days, my neuroses got the best of me. Good news, is that I’ve hit 100 approaches so what a milestone. This is 100 approaches since the AA program, and honestly nothing has happened yet. A lot of rejections which is expected but my confidence is through the roof, beauty just doesn’t mean as much to me as before. Like I’m not as simpy with very attractive women when approaching them, I’m trying to keep the mindset that I’m screening her and that I’m worth her time. Honestly I tell myself that the girls that do reject you have lost an ample opportunity at just even meeting a color guy than me. For the approaches today, I had a little AA and missed one opportunity on a girl in the Wal-mart, my mind kept telling me that she looks older but it was just AA. On the first rep I didn’t exactly go straight to the girl and turned back around to meet her in the store, she was gay. 2nd girl was one that walked past me and AA kept me from not approaching and eventually I found her in another store, had a bf. Third and fourth girl just didn’t give me their numbers. One part of me is still struggling with the fact of approaching, the mainstream advice is still weighing me down, I still feel a little creepy for some fucking reason. Like ashamed on acting out of my desires, but I have telling myself this is numbers game. I finished up a week of one of my drawing courses which will be shown below.

[1v1mekid]

Day 14: 0/0
Day 15: 0/0
Day 16: 0/4 (100 approaches)

One part of me is still struggling with the fact of approaching, the mainstream advice is still weighing me down, I still feel a little creepy for some fucking reason. Like ashamed on acting out of my desires, but I have telling myself this is numbers game.

That feeling goes away eventually. You'll also feel less stifled after doing it enough times. You'll develop your go to opener and follow up questions/conversation just from sheer repetition of doing this stuff.

Are you Latino? I personally have had most luck with black girls. Try hitting up the Latino parts of town if you are, or if you're Asian, the Asian part. I know it "shouldn't" matter, but worth a shot. As a Latino, it actually took me a long time before I felt comfortable enough to hit on white women.

[Noself]

Drawings for today of the mouth.

[Noself]

Day 17: 0/1 (101)
Approached a girl that worked at coffee shop near my job, had small talk with her then asked for the number. She said “maybe, next time.” Then went back out for another session and missed one girl, my AA behind it was that she was with her mother and a friend.

[Noself]

Plus drawings for today. Focusing on the forms of the mouth for head drawing.

[Noself]

Perspective Course Drawings:

[Avihihi]

Are you Latino? I personally have had most luck with black girls. Try hitting up the Latino parts of town if you are, or if you're Asian, the Asian part. I know it "shouldn't" matter, but worth a shot. As a Latino, it actually took me a long time before I felt comfortable enough to hit on white women.

You know what's weird? I feel less comfortable swiping on white women than I do cold approaching for some reason. I have this weird thought that they'll think of me as less than for being some brown/Indian guy swiping on them. I think because it breaks stereotypes to be a confident Indian guy though, it's easier for me to approach.

[Noself]

Day 18: 0/1 (102)
Approached a girl that was wearing a crop top and gym leggings in a Wal-Mart, she knew she fucking looked good. We made eye contact but she walked away from me. Now that I've changed my oil I will resume going to my normal approaching spot.

[Noself]

FUCKING GOD I HAVE TO ADMIT TO MYSLEF I WANT TO GET LAID, I ACCEPT IT.

[Noself]

Do you guys start out very blunt in the beginning when texting a girl on Tinder by stating your intentions or do you wait until the date to see where it goes?

[Noself]

Ok guys, it's been awhile since updating this log but I'm at 137 cold approaches so far. I got one date out of the approaches since I last updated the log, the date was about an hour long at a Starbucks (couldn't think of a better place).
This girl was one of the hottest girls I've ever cold approached, probably an 8.5/10 and we went on the date a day after I approached her. We kissed after the date, which is cool, my ego did feel really fucking huge after that because I realize my standards aren't too high if I was able to get a date with her. Yeah there was no lay, but now I see what's possible, it looks like she's turning into a ghost now though. I did get down over it, as I was imagining doing things to her in my head but thankfully the next day I got 6 approaches in. I'm just trying to avoid the victim mentality unlike my roommate who is a total black-piller and has given up dating, I've tried to give him advice by saying he should go out in the field more but he just thinks too much man.

Cold Approaches: 137

[Noself]

Alright guys time to be vulnerable, felt really down yesterday after the ghost. My mind kept racing for ways to blame myself, I know with dating everything is pretty random and a lottery at this point but I couldn’t help to feel those emotions. Also got blocked by a girl that I met at a bar but she had 3 kids so yeah….. and then blocked by another girl from a cold approach session after asking for coffee. Yeah I felt like shit and a lot of my confidence and self-esteem is getting stomped on but I gotta keep pushing. I’m looking at the goal of approaching 1,000 girls as very difficult, like fuck dude. Also there is the standard societal stigma of doing this that is eating at me, I feel like a pervert, a creep, a weirdo, these are all the things that my mind is telling me. But this day is a new one and there is room for change.

[PinchePendejo]

Keep pushing. The inner turmoil is something we all go through when in a slump. You’ll eventually obtain success and be grateful you kept going. Nothing worth having comes easy. This is supposed to be challenging.