DAY 13
Things I did today (Monday)
1 – Clocked in on time.
2 – Survived work.
3 – Went to a follow up doctor appointment.
4 – Went to the bank.
5 – Got gas
6 – Cleaned
7 – set clothes out.
8 -- Journaled.
I was more negative today than the last 14 days. One of my big goals I'm working on right now is to get better at managing my negative thoughts and moods. I have made tremendous progress with that goal in the last two months and today reminded me of that.
Vizzy's Progress Log
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Vizzy
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- Motto: Comparison is the thief of joy
- Location: United States
trying to delete the error day 13 posts. Turns out i was on the wrong page when I posted them.
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Vizzy
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- Age: 22
- Motto: Comparison is the thief of joy
- Location: United States
DAY 14
Things I did today (Tuesday)
1 — clocked in on time.
2 – Kept a positive attitude at work today.
3 – Went to Verizon to get quotes on switching to their services. (T-mobiles horrible signal problems in the last couple months have been killing my productivity).
4 – cleaned the inside of my car's windshield.
5 – worked on the budget.
6 – Laundry
7– make lunches and set out clothes.
Things I did today (Tuesday)
1 — clocked in on time.
2 – Kept a positive attitude at work today.
3 – Went to Verizon to get quotes on switching to their services. (T-mobiles horrible signal problems in the last couple months have been killing my productivity).
4 – cleaned the inside of my car's windshield.
5 – worked on the budget.
6 – Laundry
7– make lunches and set out clothes.
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Vizzy
- Posts: 149 | Thanks: 3
- Joined: Mon Apr 11, 2022 11:40 pm
- Name: Vizzy
- Goal: Achieve Freedom
- Age: 22
- Motto: Comparison is the thief of joy
- Location: United States
I’m currently on day 25 and have been writing these lists along with my journaling every day but haven't been posting in the forum because I thought my day 13 14 etc were not posting simply because I didn't go to the next page in the forum. So now I am going back and posting all of my lists.
DAY 15 Things I did today (wednesday)
1 – Clocked in on time
2 – Stayed mildly positive at work today and didn’t express too much negativity on the outside to myself and others.
3 – Went to Verizon again today and set up a new plan effective in a couple days. This will solve my productivity issues regarding team mobiles horrible signal as of a few months ago.
4 – Got essential groceries.
5- – made lunches and sat out clothes.
6 – journalled
7 – I scheduled some minor goal oriented stuff in my calendar for the upcoming week. This is something new I'm going to try in order to make better progress on them.
8 – This one I went in depth on originally when writing so I’ll keep it short for the forum here. I started a new project today called “good times”. I will write about the good memories from my life with no negativity in them. I wrote a paragraph today so far.
9 – Deleted more songs that negatively remind me of my ex.
DAY 15 Things I did today (wednesday)
1 – Clocked in on time
2 – Stayed mildly positive at work today and didn’t express too much negativity on the outside to myself and others.
3 – Went to Verizon again today and set up a new plan effective in a couple days. This will solve my productivity issues regarding team mobiles horrible signal as of a few months ago.
4 – Got essential groceries.
5- – made lunches and sat out clothes.
6 – journalled
7 – I scheduled some minor goal oriented stuff in my calendar for the upcoming week. This is something new I'm going to try in order to make better progress on them.
8 – This one I went in depth on originally when writing so I’ll keep it short for the forum here. I started a new project today called “good times”. I will write about the good memories from my life with no negativity in them. I wrote a paragraph today so far.
9 – Deleted more songs that negatively remind me of my ex.
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Vizzy
- Posts: 149 | Thanks: 3
- Joined: Mon Apr 11, 2022 11:40 pm
- Name: Vizzy
- Goal: Achieve Freedom
- Age: 22
- Motto: Comparison is the thief of joy
- Location: United States
DAY 16 Things I did today (Thursday)
1 – Clocked in on time.
2 – Crushed it at work.
3 – spent most of the evening resting at home. I made peace with not working on my goals as much tonight in order to focus on reducing my pain level and realized that I've been beating myself up too much over some stuff. I needed to calm down about so many things and had some success in doing so.
1 – Clocked in on time.
2 – Crushed it at work.
3 – spent most of the evening resting at home. I made peace with not working on my goals as much tonight in order to focus on reducing my pain level and realized that I've been beating myself up too much over some stuff. I needed to calm down about so many things and had some success in doing so.
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Vizzy
- Posts: 149 | Thanks: 3
- Joined: Mon Apr 11, 2022 11:40 pm
- Name: Vizzy
- Goal: Achieve Freedom
- Age: 22
- Motto: Comparison is the thief of joy
- Location: United States
DAY 17 Things I did today (Friday)
1 – Clocked in on time
2 – deleted more songs that remind me of my ex in a negative way.
3 – Got essential groceries.
4 — I went to a few random places in the town i work in and chatted with workers about places to rent in town and what food places have comfortable seating same with bars. This is something I've tried and been needing to do for a long time but my social anxiety has been a tough barrier. It was so random today when I parked by a few businesses. I was like “go talk to the worker in there about these things” . I did it and was like “ah that wasn't too bad. I wonder if the person at this other business has some information too” In total I chatted with three random workers at separate businesses before my social anxiety kicked back in really hard to where I went home. This was kind of a big deal and meant alot to me with pushing through my social anxiety.
5 – Journaled
6 – Relaxed and watched Netflix before bed.
7 — Kept a positive attitude at work even though the fact that I forgot my airpods and apple watch at home was eating at me trying to bring my mood down.
1 – Clocked in on time
2 – deleted more songs that remind me of my ex in a negative way.
3 – Got essential groceries.
4 — I went to a few random places in the town i work in and chatted with workers about places to rent in town and what food places have comfortable seating same with bars. This is something I've tried and been needing to do for a long time but my social anxiety has been a tough barrier. It was so random today when I parked by a few businesses. I was like “go talk to the worker in there about these things” . I did it and was like “ah that wasn't too bad. I wonder if the person at this other business has some information too” In total I chatted with three random workers at separate businesses before my social anxiety kicked back in really hard to where I went home. This was kind of a big deal and meant alot to me with pushing through my social anxiety.
5 – Journaled
6 – Relaxed and watched Netflix before bed.
7 — Kept a positive attitude at work even though the fact that I forgot my airpods and apple watch at home was eating at me trying to bring my mood down.
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Vizzy
- Posts: 149 | Thanks: 3
- Joined: Mon Apr 11, 2022 11:40 pm
- Name: Vizzy
- Goal: Achieve Freedom
- Age: 22
- Motto: Comparison is the thief of joy
- Location: United States
DAY 18 Things I did today (Saturday)
1– Woke up at 8 out of bed by 8:30. Took mom to drop her car off to get detailed for her Mother’s day present.
2 – Spent a couple hours outside getting some sun and detailing my car.
3 — Cleaned a lot and did laundry.
4 – Went to Verizon to pick up and activate my new phone for their service. (no more god awful T-mobile signal killing my productivity and mood when I’m on my phone.)
5 – I jammed to music and had a very upbeat positive productive vibe today. No doubtedly from sleeping 10:30pm to 8am.
6 -- I spent an hour or more on the laptop working on a personal project.
1– Woke up at 8 out of bed by 8:30. Took mom to drop her car off to get detailed for her Mother’s day present.
2 – Spent a couple hours outside getting some sun and detailing my car.
3 — Cleaned a lot and did laundry.
4 – Went to Verizon to pick up and activate my new phone for their service. (no more god awful T-mobile signal killing my productivity and mood when I’m on my phone.)
5 – I jammed to music and had a very upbeat positive productive vibe today. No doubtedly from sleeping 10:30pm to 8am.
6 -- I spent an hour or more on the laptop working on a personal project.
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Vizzy
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- Joined: Mon Apr 11, 2022 11:40 pm
- Name: Vizzy
- Goal: Achieve Freedom
- Age: 22
- Motto: Comparison is the thief of joy
- Location: United States
DAY 19 Things I did today (Sunday)
1 – Got a good night's sleep and was out of bed by 9am.
2 – Left the electronics inside while I sat outside for the first couple hours of the day to enjoy the stormy weather.
3 – Walk on the treadmill for an hour.
4 – Made a new email on the new phone and configured it more to my preferences.
5 – Went to pick up my new laptop I ordered a week ago.
6 – Set up the laptop at best, buy and install some antivirus software.
7 – Spent some time researching macros and how to use the myfitnesspal app again (it kicked my ass in the past which deterred me from ever using it again)
8 — Went shopping for healthier foods. (i'm gonna try to lose weight again like i did successfully last year)
9 – Journalled
1 – Got a good night's sleep and was out of bed by 9am.
2 – Left the electronics inside while I sat outside for the first couple hours of the day to enjoy the stormy weather.
3 – Walk on the treadmill for an hour.
4 – Made a new email on the new phone and configured it more to my preferences.
5 – Went to pick up my new laptop I ordered a week ago.
6 – Set up the laptop at best, buy and install some antivirus software.
7 – Spent some time researching macros and how to use the myfitnesspal app again (it kicked my ass in the past which deterred me from ever using it again)
8 — Went shopping for healthier foods. (i'm gonna try to lose weight again like i did successfully last year)
9 – Journalled
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Vizzy
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- Age: 22
- Motto: Comparison is the thief of joy
- Location: United States
DAY 20 Things I did today (Monday)
1 – Clocked in on time (barely)
2 – Had a good day at work despite how easily I could have let it be a bad one.
3 – Worked on setting up my new phone.
4 – Set up an appointment to get my front windows tinted.
5 – Went to a doctor's appointment.
6 – Picked up meds from the pharmacy
7 – journalled 430 words
8 – Worked on the budget (It’s fucked right now)
1 – Clocked in on time (barely)
2 – Had a good day at work despite how easily I could have let it be a bad one.
3 – Worked on setting up my new phone.
4 – Set up an appointment to get my front windows tinted.
5 – Went to a doctor's appointment.
6 – Picked up meds from the pharmacy
7 – journalled 430 words
8 – Worked on the budget (It’s fucked right now)
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Vizzy
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- Age: 22
- Motto: Comparison is the thief of joy
- Location: United States
DAY 21 Things I did today (Tuesday)
1 – Clocked in 50 minutes late for the dumbest reason. Legit stuck in a dream in a black bubble yelling at my physical self in bed to wake up and I couldn't escape. I cannot express the depth in feeling of being controlled and trapped by someone else in that dream. It affected my entire day despite doing my positive mindframe exercises.
2 — Work was hell for work reasons and my pain level with my neck condition was higher than it had in the last week or more but I kept my composure and kept on keeping on.
3 – journalled a small amount.
4 – Focused on resting and lowering my pain level all night.
1 – Clocked in 50 minutes late for the dumbest reason. Legit stuck in a dream in a black bubble yelling at my physical self in bed to wake up and I couldn't escape. I cannot express the depth in feeling of being controlled and trapped by someone else in that dream. It affected my entire day despite doing my positive mindframe exercises.
2 — Work was hell for work reasons and my pain level with my neck condition was higher than it had in the last week or more but I kept my composure and kept on keeping on.
3 – journalled a small amount.
4 – Focused on resting and lowering my pain level all night.
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Vizzy
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- Name: Vizzy
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- Age: 22
- Motto: Comparison is the thief of joy
- Location: United States
DAY 22 Things I did today (wednesday)
1 – Clocked in on time
2 – Went through the motions at work.
3 – Journalled
4 – Called a new dentist to set an appointment. Insurance wasn’t in their network so I called insurance about it.
5 – Focused on resting and lowering my pain level at home tonight just like yesterday. I’m not sure why the neck has been more of a problem recently. I’ve kept up doing all my preventative activities and haven’t done anything major to flare it up. Could have just slept on it wrong. I forgot that happens sometimes.
1 – Clocked in on time
2 – Went through the motions at work.
3 – Journalled
4 – Called a new dentist to set an appointment. Insurance wasn’t in their network so I called insurance about it.
5 – Focused on resting and lowering my pain level at home tonight just like yesterday. I’m not sure why the neck has been more of a problem recently. I’ve kept up doing all my preventative activities and haven’t done anything major to flare it up. Could have just slept on it wrong. I forgot that happens sometimes.
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Vizzy
- Posts: 149 | Thanks: 3
- Joined: Mon Apr 11, 2022 11:40 pm
- Name: Vizzy
- Goal: Achieve Freedom
- Age: 22
- Motto: Comparison is the thief of joy
- Location: United States
DAY 23 things I did today (thursday)
1 — Clocked in on time
2 – Had a decent day at work. Neither slacked off or crushed it.
3 – Went in depth taking notes on a youtube video regarding social networking. It opened my eyes in so many ways to social interaction. My social anxiety has dropped significantly since watching it and I even went out and had conversations with 8 different strangers at different locations in just a 1 hour period of time! I know that isn’t anything crazy but now I have subjects and phrases to ask people that pertain to my life and their life in a less weird or creepy kind of way. That's how I’ve always felt when talking to strangers but not as much anymore and feeling those ways has been a ginormous barrier to socializing for me on the mental side of things.
4 – Got my front two windows tinted on my car to the legal limit of 35% in my state. They aren’t super dark like the back ones (20%) but it’s better than nothing.
5 -- Journalled
6 -- Focused on resting and lowering my pain level after I got home late today.
1 — Clocked in on time
2 – Had a decent day at work. Neither slacked off or crushed it.
3 – Went in depth taking notes on a youtube video regarding social networking. It opened my eyes in so many ways to social interaction. My social anxiety has dropped significantly since watching it and I even went out and had conversations with 8 different strangers at different locations in just a 1 hour period of time! I know that isn’t anything crazy but now I have subjects and phrases to ask people that pertain to my life and their life in a less weird or creepy kind of way. That's how I’ve always felt when talking to strangers but not as much anymore and feeling those ways has been a ginormous barrier to socializing for me on the mental side of things.
4 – Got my front two windows tinted on my car to the legal limit of 35% in my state. They aren’t super dark like the back ones (20%) but it’s better than nothing.
5 -- Journalled
6 -- Focused on resting and lowering my pain level after I got home late today.
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Vizzy
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- Joined: Mon Apr 11, 2022 11:40 pm
- Name: Vizzy
- Goal: Achieve Freedom
- Age: 22
- Motto: Comparison is the thief of joy
- Location: United States
DAY 24 things I did today (friday)
1 — clocked in on time
2 – made a series of phone calls to resolve an issue for my parents regarding an appliance they have under warranty.
2— Made several phone calls to various dentists in the area to see if my insurance is in their network and to schedule an appointment. Finally found one and made an appointment.
3– Messaged several friends asking if they will spend some time helping me go to clothing stores to try on outfits as well as take pictures of me in my current one or two good outfits. I offered to pay but nobody was interested.
4 — Made two phone calls to catch up with friends I haven’t talked to in several months.
5 – Went grocery shopping.
6 – Got gas, cleaned windshield, and minorly detailed my car.
7 – I spent more time looking at the style guide @KYIL website and wrote down a few specific items that I need to go out and find that fit correctly.
8 — Got a haircut with a before and after video for future reference.
1 — clocked in on time
2 – made a series of phone calls to resolve an issue for my parents regarding an appliance they have under warranty.
2— Made several phone calls to various dentists in the area to see if my insurance is in their network and to schedule an appointment. Finally found one and made an appointment.
3– Messaged several friends asking if they will spend some time helping me go to clothing stores to try on outfits as well as take pictures of me in my current one or two good outfits. I offered to pay but nobody was interested.
4 — Made two phone calls to catch up with friends I haven’t talked to in several months.
5 – Went grocery shopping.
6 – Got gas, cleaned windshield, and minorly detailed my car.
7 – I spent more time looking at the style guide @KYIL website and wrote down a few specific items that I need to go out and find that fit correctly.
8 — Got a haircut with a before and after video for future reference.
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Vizzy
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- Age: 22
- Motto: Comparison is the thief of joy
- Location: United States
DAY 25 things I did today (Saturday)
1 – Fell asleep at 10 last night. I made myself sleep until 9:15am. I woke up several times this morning and had trouble falling back asleep. Got out of bed at 9:30, ate breakfast and did all the usual morning routine but then immediately got on the computer to work on stuff.
2 – Cleaned a lot.
3 – organized, transferred, and worked on a lot of stuff with my new phone.
4 – Journalled 527 words
5 – Finally figured out the problem with my posts in the forums and posted all the forums that I hadn't had since day 14.
6 – worked on several personal projects on the computer.
7 – Walked on the treadmill for a total of 2 hours.
8 – ate healthy all day. Dinner and later tonight is yet to be determined.
I'm posting this before I leave for the night to go socialize in a town 30 minutes away. I’m going solo and won't be drinking. I haven’t done this before and consider this the next big challenge in my goal towards being less socially anxious and making new connections. I’m nervous but oddly at peace at the same time. Basically I just know that no matter what happens it is not going to be a bad night. It’s going to be a good one.
1 – Fell asleep at 10 last night. I made myself sleep until 9:15am. I woke up several times this morning and had trouble falling back asleep. Got out of bed at 9:30, ate breakfast and did all the usual morning routine but then immediately got on the computer to work on stuff.
2 – Cleaned a lot.
3 – organized, transferred, and worked on a lot of stuff with my new phone.
4 – Journalled 527 words
5 – Finally figured out the problem with my posts in the forums and posted all the forums that I hadn't had since day 14.
6 – worked on several personal projects on the computer.
7 – Walked on the treadmill for a total of 2 hours.
8 – ate healthy all day. Dinner and later tonight is yet to be determined.
I'm posting this before I leave for the night to go socialize in a town 30 minutes away. I’m going solo and won't be drinking. I haven’t done this before and consider this the next big challenge in my goal towards being less socially anxious and making new connections. I’m nervous but oddly at peace at the same time. Basically I just know that no matter what happens it is not going to be a bad night. It’s going to be a good one.
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Vizzy
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- Motto: Comparison is the thief of joy
- Location: United States
Fuck I guess I forgot to post day 26 yesterday. I wrote it all but forgot to post. Probably just wanted to proof read it more.
DAY 26 things I did today (Sunday)
1– got home at 2:30am and slept in til 11:30am.
2 – Speed walked on the treadmill for 1.5 total hours.
3 – Kept up my high spirits from last night, jammed to music all day.
4 – Had a great time in town running various errands. Groceries, lunch, carwash, walking.
5 – Laundry, cleaning the house.
6 – focused on relaxing and lowering my pain level after dinner.
7 – Journalled 1,279 words.
Last night was a fucking slam dunk SUCCESS. It was amazing. I don't even know where to start to just put a brief bullet point list for the forum. I'm not about to copy paste the stuff I've already written. At 11:20pm an old friend let me in THE CLUB of the town when i was walking by. This is the most popular club in town with the biggest reputation and an occupancy of 500 people. I skipped in front of probably 50 people in line. Inside I saw another old friend across the bar. He came over and told me to come with him to play pool in the back. He informed me all his friends stayed home because they got so fucked up the night before and he spent 800$ total, 500$ of it at a strip club outside of town. He came out by himself and said “Fuck it I have to go do SOMETHING tonight”. It's the exact same mentality I had going into the evening. We get to the table, put the quarter down and wait two games to play. There wasn’t any chalk so that made it interesting. Long story short we won all 3 games and I was in god mode the entire time. I'm not that great at pool but I'm not bad by any means so it was crazy how I performed that well under this new foreign insane level of intensity and pressure in that setting with countless people surrounding me. It was unlike anything I've experienced in the last two years. There’s a punch machine in the corner by the pool table so all night groups of people were coming back just to punch the machine. It was hilarious and so many crazy things happened at that damn thing. I talked and laughed with countless people. ALL WHILE SOBER TOO. I even approached 20 girls that were not at the pool table just to chat and try to flirt with. 7 or 8 of them actually flirted back and we had short little exchanges in conversation but most of them at least said one or two things and were polite. I wasn't obviously hitting on them or anything but I can't believe some genuinely flirted and bantered back. Whether they were drunk or sober I'm not sure but yeah. LAST NIGHT WAS A FUCKING SUCCESS. This is what I needed and what I’ve slowly been working towards. I have a feeling it's off to the races for me now.
DAY 26 things I did today (Sunday)
1– got home at 2:30am and slept in til 11:30am.
2 – Speed walked on the treadmill for 1.5 total hours.
3 – Kept up my high spirits from last night, jammed to music all day.
4 – Had a great time in town running various errands. Groceries, lunch, carwash, walking.
5 – Laundry, cleaning the house.
6 – focused on relaxing and lowering my pain level after dinner.
7 – Journalled 1,279 words.
Last night was a fucking slam dunk SUCCESS. It was amazing. I don't even know where to start to just put a brief bullet point list for the forum. I'm not about to copy paste the stuff I've already written. At 11:20pm an old friend let me in THE CLUB of the town when i was walking by. This is the most popular club in town with the biggest reputation and an occupancy of 500 people. I skipped in front of probably 50 people in line. Inside I saw another old friend across the bar. He came over and told me to come with him to play pool in the back. He informed me all his friends stayed home because they got so fucked up the night before and he spent 800$ total, 500$ of it at a strip club outside of town. He came out by himself and said “Fuck it I have to go do SOMETHING tonight”. It's the exact same mentality I had going into the evening. We get to the table, put the quarter down and wait two games to play. There wasn’t any chalk so that made it interesting. Long story short we won all 3 games and I was in god mode the entire time. I'm not that great at pool but I'm not bad by any means so it was crazy how I performed that well under this new foreign insane level of intensity and pressure in that setting with countless people surrounding me. It was unlike anything I've experienced in the last two years. There’s a punch machine in the corner by the pool table so all night groups of people were coming back just to punch the machine. It was hilarious and so many crazy things happened at that damn thing. I talked and laughed with countless people. ALL WHILE SOBER TOO. I even approached 20 girls that were not at the pool table just to chat and try to flirt with. 7 or 8 of them actually flirted back and we had short little exchanges in conversation but most of them at least said one or two things and were polite. I wasn't obviously hitting on them or anything but I can't believe some genuinely flirted and bantered back. Whether they were drunk or sober I'm not sure but yeah. LAST NIGHT WAS A FUCKING SUCCESS. This is what I needed and what I’ve slowly been working towards. I have a feeling it's off to the races for me now.