Mon Mar 11, 2024 11:04 pm
97.0kg missed gym since Friday been a crazy 3 days and now I have a cold which I have not been sick in 2 years but I didn't sleep much and went out 3 nights in a row.
So quickish summary of the weekend highlights because my head is still under functioning on the tail end of a head cold and recovering from sleeping about 10hrs in the past 3 days.
Friday:
At bar with mate, some girl randomly started talking to us, saying I think I know your mate to my friend, but she didn't recognize me I didn't recognize her.
Turns out it was the stunner that liked my IG photo and I dm'd her like 2hrs earlier.
Ended up chatting to her for a bit, some banter, then I asked deeper questions to the point where she fully opened up to me about all her traumas and started crying, she was defs on too much coke, she went to the bathroom and did another line came back was a little all over the place, I decided to grab my mate and ask him if our other friend was on his way yet and said we should go look for him out the front of the club, so I ditched, then 2mins later she basically followed us lol.
She ended up going home and was messaging me on IG, chat was erratic as, but I was like screw it she is like my exact type in terms of looks would honestly be one of if not the hottest woman I have been with if I slept with her, but she was all over the place from I'm not well to I'm in a cab home, to I don't go to guys houses unless I am their girlfried, to where do you live I want cuddles, ok I am booking a uber, oh what I am feeling dead give me 20mins, to oh what are you doing, where do you live again, oh take me out tomorrow so I was like ok when you get up lets get coffee at this place, then she is like I don't do coffee dates you have to take me out somewhere nice for dinner, and I am like yeah you are super attractive but everything else I am like I would sleep with you but never date you so I replied dw (don't worry) I think I triggered her hard because she went on to block me lol.
Then my mate poured a drink on some dudes head he was too drunk so wanted me to play security for him when he went to the toilet as he got paranoid the guys friends might do something so I was standing out the front of the toilet and had a girl come up to me and ask me if I was security and I am like yeah for "mates name" and she is like you can be my security whilst I go to the toilet to, I am like yeah ok whatever but I was at this point wanting to ensure my mate didn't pick any fights.
Saw that same girl later on, had a little chat she was annoyed at me for ditching when she was in the toilet I just said my mate was more important haha, she tells me she has a fiance but he is overseas and she is having a quarter life crisis, so I am like well his overseas and you are having a crisis so if something happens it happens not really your fault and she is like omg that's so true do you have instagram, so she grabs my instagram, I offer for her to come back to mine but she is like no need to see my friends, I'm like yeah cool, walk out the bar with her but then she actually does run over to her friends, and I at this point can't be bothered so I just say bye and give her a peck on the lips. End up chilling with my mates for an hr then get home wind down but only get about 4hrs sleep thanks to my body clock liking to get up early and strong sun that morning.
Saturday:
Feeling a little dead but good enough to go out after a few coffees and a gym sesh, caught up with this girl a slept with a while ago, but she was tired from working in the morning and she was a little bloated and retaining water wasn't sure why so I wasn't really feeling anything sexual with her, thinking of just cutting her off, I get along super well as a friend she is an amazing person and I really enjoy her company but everything physical I am just not really that into her.
After that head out with my mates from Friday, my drunk mate was scared to go back to the club we were at, we went somewhere else but it just was impossible to approach super loud and just awakrd bar set up.
My other mate and I just went to our usual spot, few other pickup dudes came along, I did one approach on my own got blown out hard haha, then just chilled and stuff, spoke to this other random dude who seemed cool, he was fucked off his head but was approaching girls so chilled with him a little.
Towards the end of the night, there is this gay dude always with hot girls my mate befriended so we went in and out of their group, buying the gay dude drinks, then we said hey let's kick on at ours blah blah as he was in charge of the girls. He said yeah sweet, so I did a side mission to get the vodka from my place as my mate had run out and then some juice (the gay guy's favorite drink) and they went to his in an Uber, then I rocked up with the drinks, so we had 3 girls a gay guy, my mate and myself.
First time for me pulling a group of people back somewhere, my mate is throwing in how amazing I am for rounding up all the drinks I brought over.
End up talking with this stunner who is 5'10 but I realise as I reflect there are so many limiting beliefs around the whole night I needed to work on, she was having heaps of coke so just chatted my head off, but was good chat she was super smart and had amazing life experiences for her age, I never complimented her on her looks but her intellect and she loved it, she was even later telling me how it used to upset her when she tried super hard to get good grades at school and her mum would ignore her grades and say they don't matter look how attractive you are you will find a rich guy and never have to work or study.
She was even comfortable enough to tell me to come to the bathroom with her and the gay guy and offered me a line of coke, I had never done coke before and didn't want this to be the first night so I was like oh I am all good i'm on this other stuff don't want it to react with it. But gay dude pulls out a $50 to do the coke and I am like nah nah in front of me you only do this with $100 bills so I gave him $100 for the bonding experience and a mild flex that I carry $100 bills on me.
ended up chatting all night, didn't pull any moves, but was good to connect, then the girls headed off at 11 am, I fell in and out of sleep on my mates' bed from 12 pm to 6 pm but bright sunlight barely slept, started feeling a head cold coming on. My mate is like lets go out again. I was going to bail but when I left I forgot my watch, necklace and bracelet at his so he is like oh well looks like we are going out.
I got a coffee on the way home which fixed the head ache, had a cold shower and went out again. Didn't eat all day long, good fast and explains why I am almost 3kg lighter since my last post.
Sunday:
Nothing too crazy, place was a little quiet, we were completely dead, my mate was feeling it too. Ended up having one good interaction though my mate was speaking to this French girl and then I just locked eyes with the friend who came over and I chatted to her, then some girl she met that night came over, so I hit on the friend (she was hot) in front of her. Then the friend was like I am going to go get a drink, so the French one re-engaged in conversation with me asking me questions and stuff, then her friend wanted to go get a drink and stuff, and my girl is like I am so sorry I have to go then goes and gives me a big hug and kiss on the cheek and I am thinking in my 10% functioning brain, she likes me, so I ask for her Instagram and she gives it to me instantly. I messaged her yesterday and she replied straight away so I will try set up a date.
Monday:
Fucking cooked, feeling sick, tried to get some sleep, lucky to have the day off apart from someone booking a sales call at 4:30 because of the mismatch in timezones from my other office location so my sales calendar had 1 slot in it, but I struggled through it. Slept at 6pm until 6am today with a 1-2hr break in between when I got up and did a few bits before bed.
Tuesday:
Conservative girl wanted to come over but I told her I am too sick and to go next week. I must say she is a massive ego boost which I do miss. The head cold has triggered my Psoriasis too so I am not super happy with my skin, its extra flaky and itchy.
Side note I also got interviewed for some tiktok channel thing, they cut up my interview so much, but made it out that I make 1 mil per year haha, got so roasted in the comments was a little ego hit but I sent it to a few of my business groups and they all came in clutch leaving over 20 positive comments, the video did well though over 100k views and 1,000 likes, most of their videos do like 20-40k views and 200-400 likes then a couple in the 100k views and like 2-3 in the 1 million range.
Crazy how people hate from below and attacked me on everything from my jeans, my t shirt, my hair cut, my hair line, my weight, the way my hyper mobile knees bend in, but on the flip side I had people random send me a message saying amazing interview, had an old mentor see it on his feed and said man great video well done you are crushing it which was really nice.
I am now motivated to get some videos out again!
Over all this past few hours I feel fucking dead but super excited for life ahead, I am more on point this morning with my morning routine and goals, I think as much as my head is dying I am feeling just better in general, and super grateful and happy for the weekend and what is possible in my reality. I am motivated to double down on limiting beliefs that came up over the weekend which is amazing if I didn't put myself out there I wouldn't have had the opportunity to see possibilities and see it was just my limiting beliefs holding me back and manifesting negatively to near misses with women I would consider too hot, too tall... for me, time to piss them off
