91.9kg getting so close to under 90kg super happy with this!
Stacking wins hit two days in a row with PR's in the gym yesterday it was overhead press I did 60kg (132lb) for 3 reps, I filmed it and also then made a new reel/tiktok of my deadlift, squat and OHP along with some motivation quotes I did as a voice over.
Feel free to have a look and give me feedback on how to make it more viral if I do another one
https://www.instagram.com/p/C55d-zMyX1U/
I also did my first daygame approach of the year in my city, I was walking around after gym, looking around seeing a few different women I could go up to and I pussied out, then I walked around to the camera shops looking for a mic attachment thing but they didn't have it, I was about to leave then I saw this super cute girl in a black dress so I thought fuck it I will go up to her, get in front of her and holly shit it is the hottest girl I have seen all day and the hottest girl I have ever approached in my city, and I was so rusty I was like full struggling to breathe and just said dumb stuff but I am happy I approached, I felt so much tension in my chest, my heart rate was going crazy but I felt so alive at the same time.
Another win is I am 2 videos ahead that are edited to post, and I posted that reel above this one is more personal branding not for the business but I am glad I got that out as well.
I noticed though on an emotional level there is still an element of either being hard on myself, or not feeling good enough because my mind is automatically going to the negatives and other pressures eg:
- The negative limbs of it all that my brain produces is stuff like even my weight this morning it's like hmmm you were a little dehydrated it's not real fat loss you are not in the 91's oh the projections you made at your fat loss rate back in March you should be 90kg on the 24th of April which is 5 days away that means you have slowed down in weight loss and I know you have because when you were super motivated at the start you were doing 3-4 big walks at night now you don't blah blah.
- My video only got 700 views compared to my last which got 2k therefore it wasn't good even though the video got a tonne of comments and views from friends and people messaging me with props sure
- My new dating photos mean I am too ugly as I have not seen a massive increase in matches even though its likely from just changing photos on an already dead profile with no reset
- I must suck at daygame and look too ugly, I shouldn't have approached in gym cloths, I should have had a backpack on, I am just wasting my time, when I legit only did 1 approach and the rest sure could give me minor improvements but the option is between no approaches and just sucking up that I can integrate approaching on the way to and from gym
- I am super unproductive at work and get nothing done because I have some clients jumping up and down wanting their stuff on unrealistic deadlines, sure there is an element of truth I have been wanting to get more done but in the scheme of things I have a lot going on and I am grateful we are super busy and flat out it means there is a successful business with clients, along with a feeling of needing to make more money because banks are doing my head in and another bet/goal where I have under 2 years now to add 700k of revenue
I know logically a lot of the above isn't true but it comes back to doing the deeper emotional work of feeling each then rewriting the story and I guess there is also learning lessons in the above like:
If I recalculate I should hit 90kg on the 2nd of March which is like 1 week off my target lol but it also was me making the assumption in chatGPT hey I have lost this much weight since x date if I keep going project when I will weight x so I thought I would be more realistic and say ok re write these based on if I lose a reducing amount of weight after each milestone which is more realistic to lose less weight as I get leaner and closer to my goal, I asked chatGPT to re do my dates with a reducing amount of weight loss at each milestone it said
- You will hit 90kg on 02 May 2024.
- You will hit 80kg on 28 July 2024.
- You will hit 75kg on 25 September 2024.
- You will hit 70kg on 21 December 2024.
Annoying because my goal weight is now at the end of the year, but also more realistic and manages expectations better, also I am lucky this carnivore diet is pretty simple and enjoyable 5 months in so I can easily keep at it for other 6-7 months.
I am doing well with the videos, I am putting in the reps to make my content better, figuring out what my audience loves, and finding my authentic voice and style and the more I post the more eyes I am getting. I have legit gone from posting nothing to consistently posting at least 1 video a week on average for over 6 months.
I don't suck at daygame, I did only one approach lol never expect the first approach to go well and you like approached the hottest girl you had seen in like over a week, relax, focus on relaxation and use this as momentum to keep approaching and going.
My new dating photos are great, with the weight loss and new cloths as I get leaner I will get even better, my online dating profiles were already dead from the algorithm
Sure I can get more work stuff done, but I am juggling so many things and trying to be well rounded, I am directing a good team, and I just need to set slightly lower expectations to the clients and just let them know things take time, realise that I am valuable and my time is even if it is something I find easy, don't expect clients to but take the time to explain it whilst charging them for it.