I am nothing special, I have massive struggles right now. Yes I have had some success in the past but honestly, I just feel so fucked up since the COVID shit happened almost like I am a spluttering engine that kicks starts turns over then stalls, maybe get going but as soon as I shift gears I stall again and it almost feels like I am back at the start again.
A huge example of this which is part of why I feel like a fuck up is that I was a strict Carnivore the 2 weeks before my travels, but then I sort of gave in when I traveled to "enjoy the experience" between the temptations of open buffets at airport lounges, to wanting to experience the fancy meal in business class and cocktails all on offer just let me slip back and the old cravings came back for sweets and carbs after they had gone from being carnivore along with just feeling so much better in my joints, my digestion and such, a few days of trying junk food, eating out and stuff just feeling like crap in terms of health which I guess is a good motivator to get back to carnivore, I found some good Brazilian places on google here which I think I will go to and just eat the meats.
The good news is as much as I feel like a spluttering engine my baseline is very very slowly moving up, falling backwards as much as there are parts of me that are hard on myself, I still have gone to the gym at the hotel daily, I have done massive walks, I have started reading again and just doing small things to keep srtiving but I think I really need to build discipline and chip away from trying to constantly search for the next video and the next answer to just doing.
I guess the journey for me is building discipline and consistency, then celebrating the small wins.
I did this cool exercise yesterday where I maped out my life in 3 pathways
Pathway 1 is like the me just being shit and doing nothing to improve
Pathway 2 is what I am basically doing now which is trying and making small improvements but not really going anywhere
Pathway 3 is my ultimate best self if I went 100% all in
Then I also added in my next 5 top moves to start moving toward my Pathway 3
I have a sense and feeling that I really need to do some sort of phase of monk mode to get under 100kg before I even try and add anything else in beyond what I am doing now.
But These were the next moves I felt I needed to make
Move 1 : Get under 75kg
Move 2: Create a backlog of short-form videos (Increase the frequency of social posts)
Move 3: Create one new SOP per week for 52 weeks (Improve systems and processes to make business more efficient and easier to train up new staff)
Move 4: Read 20 books & limit screen time (So much value in books and better than screen time)
Move 5: Focus on positive thoughts (Positive psychology, avoiding negative news and negative people, clean environment)