MILFandCookies wrote: ↑Mon Sep 18, 2023 5:54 am
You made a mistake, sure. Remember how this feels and then let it go. Forgive yourself. Relax. You're on the right path. When you're ready, pick yourself back up and keep walking, you've got this.
Thanks man. That sure helped progress until I spontaneously went and over fed during the evening.
all the while knowing and keep on telling myself that I will regret it.
I will get back in order. In fact, yesterdays chaos helped today to steer back my progress.
Feeble mind sometimes has the drive to post and be correct. And other times, wants to not put the effort in.
How funny that one day you want it 150% and other day you dont care for it.
I cant afford to be spontaneous.
positives:
.Successful full day fast today. Will do 2 more days because I ate like 5000cals worth junk. I will break the fast with proper protein rich food on Friday.
.went to gym and I can see progress in my upper body. Still at +30%BF. It is a marathon but I have a specific target that I am working towards. will post before/after pics by 30th Sep.
.still on Nofap. I think it is a good placebo. I need to start using it for self-improvement. listen to motivational podcasts or videos.
Negatives:
.procrastination in applying for jobs.(Highly irritated at myself even though I have a cover and CV ready to go)
.unable to work without a high degree of rest.(superficial and I wouldnt hire me with this kind of work ethic)
Action Points for tomorrow:
-apply for one-three jobs(post pics).
-goto GYM(post proof).
-do proper 8-5 work.
I am not comfortable where I am -
this is pain but this is proof I am changing.
I am worried for my future -
it is pain but this is proof I am changing.
I loathe being alone -
it is pain but this is proof I am changing.
Pain is good.
I want nothing but pain.[/b]
It just might be that the fear of another day lost while going to sleep makes my heart passionate and motivated.
Maybe this drive will burn to pieces in my sleep.
But, I shall be here tomorrow evening and I would have done what I promised today.
-Ashwin.
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Cranking my neck at the number of steps and I see a long climb ahead.
I wanted to be one amongst you. I must trust the process to getting there.