Ethan’s Progress Log

[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 11:

I worked 10:30 to 5:15 today. We were super understaffed today so I had to work harder than normal today. I told 2 girls that I thought were attractive that I found them pretty. They both blushed, laughed and drove off quickly. I 1/2 feel worried that I made them feel uncomfortable but also 1/2 feel proud that I expressed how I felt. It definitely makes the day more exciting to flirt with girls.

For training I ran 4 miles, attended the level 1 muay thai class, worked the bag for 30 minutes, then stretched for 30 minutes.

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[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 12:

I am disappointed with myself for how little I got done today’s morning and afternoon. I did however watch some of the videos in Andrew Tate’s Hustler’s University. I realize that I’m not taking enough action towards my goals. I think this is the result of a combination of fearfulness, and laziness. I believe that I want to create a lifestyle for myself that revolves around my interests and passions.

There are a few things that I think that I am passionate about. I enjoy fighting a lot. I also like hip-hop culture a lot; especially the SoundCloud era. I have been thinking about starting a business but that just seems so boring and I just feels like Ím trying to play it safe somehow, which is the whole reason I dropped out of University. Actually starting a business could be really cool if it was something I was passionate about. It feels like everything in life that excites me has so much risk and danger. Like, I feel this tension where I have goals and dreams that I want to aggressively chase but I am scared of being hurt both physically and emotionally.

I think my best plan of action is to continue going harder in Muay Thai and get to competing in that. That will be exciting. I also really think that I should go out to some night clubs and try to meet some cool people. Other than that I just need to continue to focus on finding a better job that pays more as well as find an apartment for Ricardo and I.

I had sparring today in Muay Thai. I still feel very inexperienced but I did a better job of landing combos and creating angles in my attacks.

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[Red]

Actually starting a business could be really cool if it was something I was passionate about.

I am youngster too so I should not be giving any advice regarding this.

But this video changed my viewpoint on what I want to do in my 20's.
Might change yours too.



This guy was actually coached by Hormozi and followed his advice.

Good job on the fighting front.

Keep it up

[Toey_the_Turtle]

I am youngster too so I should not be giving any advice regarding this.

But this video changed my viewpoint on what I want to do in my 20's.
Might change yours too.



This guy was actually coached by Hormozi and followed his advice.

Good job on the fighting front.

Keep it up

Thank you for the advice, I will look into it

[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 13:

I just did some light training today for muay thai and did you for an hour this morning with my mom. I also discussed moving out with Ricardo some more. I also decided to travel to Nee Jersey for my grandma’s funeral.

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[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 14:

Today I trained in the morning and worked in the afternoon. I talked to a lot of people and felt really excited today. Also a girl waved at me in the drive through today.

I like the idea of working a sales job. The risk and the potential to make more money quicker based off of my performance is exciting to me. I will definitely apply for more jobs in sales and I will try to pursue a job in sales.

I am also excited to see the result of the Paul vs Diaz fight. I think Nate Diaz is going to win.

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[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 15:

I trained just a little bit in the morning then I traveled up to Virginia with my mom.

We talked about how my grandma was stuck caring for my grandpa as his health declined. We talked about how the stress of caring for him probably killed her. Now she is dead and my grandpa is even more depressed as my dad described him crying out loud at night.

We also talked about how my mom’s sister constantly complains about how much she has to work and how unappreciated she is.

It is sad how people fall into a cycle of misery as a result of being complacent in their lives and settling for mediocrity. I am not gonna let that happen to me.

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[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 16:

I am making up for missing my log yesterday.

Yesterday I drove to and from New Jersey with my mom to attend my grandma’s funeral. I feel like I connected a lot with my mom and my dad during that time which felt good.

When I sat down in the living room with my grandpa he barely spoke to me. He was obviously extremely depressed and anxious. His last words to me were as follow, “Just hope that your life doesn’t turn out to be like this.” The way he phrased this sentence shows how much he feels like a victim.

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[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 17:

I got up super late today because I was so tired from the drive home last night. I got a bunch of small chores done today and trained a little bit in the evening.

I still feel a lot of anxiety about my life choices. I feel scared that my decision to move out and my goals to pursue combat sports as well as sales. I feel like I have this FOMO that is constantly bringing me anxiety. It is this strange anxiety that I should be doing something else (for example playing a different sport, or pursuing a different skill, or making different friends or enjoy listening to different music.) Its like, I don’t feel like I am particularly doing anything morally wrong but I recognize this pattern where I am questioning my decisions.

When I got done training this evening I walked in to my mom and my sister watching a sex scene from “Friends with Benefits.” For some reason it made me extremely uncomfortable where I decided to eat my dinner outside on the deck instead. It was strange to me that I felt this way because I have watched so much porn. I feel like it is because I feel scared of opening up and experiencing intimacy with women in real life. I have definitely experienced a lot of feelings of inferiority and insecurity in my past.

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[Antonio44]

It feels like everything in life that excites me has so much risk and danger.

Danger is good, seek out smart danger, calculated risks are where it's at. If you fancy it, come down to Peru, I've got a nice setup, send me a message if keen. (Y va a mejorar tu espanol)

[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 18:

It was another slow day.

I had an interview with dominos at 10:00. It went well so that will probably be my next job.

I also had an interview with some corporate job but I didn’t really understand it.

Then I took a nap in the middle of the day. Then I went and worked out at night.

[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 19:

I got up late today and spent a lot of the early afternoon being lazy.

I went on a walk with my mom and we talked casually. She recommended that I get a life coach. She also suggested that I could enlist in the army. The army doesn’t interest me. I life coach could be helpful.

Later this afternoon I helped my dad bring a new chair in for my grandpa in his senior home. He is extremely depressed and sick. He can barely walk and cried multiple times when I was there. The situation is definitely depressing my dad as well.

I want to make my family feel better.

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[Toey_the_Turtle]

It feels like everything in life that excites me has so much risk and danger.

Danger is good, seek out smart danger, calculated risks are where it's at. If you fancy it, come down to Peru, I've got a nice setup, send me a message if keen. (Y va a mejorar tu espanol)

Thank you so much for the offer but I am focused on developing my life where I am right now.

[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 20:

Another generally unproductive day but I trained in the evening and spent some more time with my family.

I am also working on accessing and organizing my goals.

[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 21:

I had a much more productive day today. I trained muay thai and boxing this morning and I cab feel my skills improving. Then I had lunch with my family. After that I worked. I felt much more confident and relaxed today.

My dad is going to give me information on a warehouse job at his friend’s company.

I have also started writing in a private diary of my emotions so I can process my feelings better and make better decisions.

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