Ethan’s Progress Log

[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 22:

I had a slow morning today. I was really lazy and did a lot of overthinking about what I should spend my morning doing that I lost it. I did play Monopoly with my family before going to work today.

My dad talked to me and encouraged me to join the military. When he talked about my cousin experiencing live combat that excited me but the rest seems boring to me. I feel a disconnect between my dad and I where I am not being 100% authentic with him about who I am and how I feel. I feel like he is just trying to support me in the best way he knows how but I’m not very open with him. I feel like I fear him judging me.

Work was normal today. Im gonna text my boss that this us gonna be my last week for sure. I need to keep collecting the cash but so many of the people there bother me. I continued practicing my social skills, striking up conversation with most of the customers.

I saw a lot of hot girls today but I felt too nervous to say anything. Just looking at or talking to hot girls makes me feel super excited and I can’t prevent myself for smiling for minutes. I feel like upgrading my social media would make me feel more confident. I feel like I should take some pictures of myself kickboxing. Even if they are low quality, they are better than all of the pictures I have of me from high school which no longer represent me.

Also, one of my friends from work didn’t show up today because he tried to kill himself with pills. I remember just last week he was humiliating himself on his instagram because girl was mad at him for whatever reason. I could feel myself get mad on the inside when my boss mocked him for trying to kill himself because she doesn’t think that young people have any real problems. I’ve definitely felt suicidal in the past but I’ve never tried to kill myself.

Thank you for reading

[Hydro]

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I saw a lot of hot girls today but I felt too nervous to say anything. Just looking at or talking to hot girls makes me feel super excited and I can’t prevent myself for smiling for minutes. I feel like upgrading my social media would make me feel more confident. I feel like I should take some pictures of myself kickboxing. Even if they are low quality, they are better than all of the pictures I have of me from high school which no longer represent me.

I totally understand how you feel about being nervous around attractive women. Have you checked out Andy's Approach Anxiety Log? I'm quite scared to approach women and I have been going out and doing some approaches (platonic only) and am desensitizing myself to the idea of cold approach. I just can't do it, YET, Get this stuff handled in your life, having balls is one of the most important traits to have in life. Don't be like me, whose still struggling with this when I'm about to turn 28. I'm still grateful knowing that I can still work on this stuff since most people aren't in self improvement, but get this handled, conquer your approach anxiety Ethan.

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Also, one of my friends from work didn’t show up today because he tried to kill himself with pills. I remember just last week he was humiliating himself on his instagram because girl was mad at him for whatever reason. I could feel myself get mad on the inside when my boss mocked him for trying to kill himself because she doesn’t think that young people have any real problems. I’ve definitely felt suicidal in the past but I’ve never tried to kill myself.

Sorry to hear about your friend, and your boss is an ass for mocking him. You have great intentions, about wanting to stick up for your friends. Remember, you, I and others who are getting into the self improvement stuff and in this case, social skills, really need to become more assertive and have balls so that we can go for what we want, and prevent bad shit from happening. I'm not talking about being a super hero like we're Superman, but even I talked about this, I was giving a homeless guy CPR who turned out to be OD'ing on Fentanyl. I immediately started giving chest compressions when someone (and I saw their face turn purplish) said they were unconscious. This was my first 3 days of starting to approach women (platonically only). Imagine how much more good, and more peaceful I, and yourself can live if we can conquer our AA (Approach Anxiety).

[Trèfle]

Yeah the whole ”young people don’t have real issues” is very relatable, heartbreaks truly are painful. Glad your friend’s alive

Checked your log before and you’re doing well ! Keep it up

[Toey_the_Turtle]

Thanks for the support @Hydro. Approaching girls is difficult no matter what but definitely feel like I will be more confident when I make more progress towards my goals so I’ll feel like I have more to show for myself. And definitely don’t feel discouraged about being older. We all have our regrets about what we should have done different in the past but I just try my best to not spend time or energy on anything that isn’t improving my life.

[Toey_the_Turtle]

Yeah the whole ”young people don’t have real issues” is very relatable, heartbreaks truly are painful. Glad your friend’s alive

Checked your log before and you’re doing well ! Keep it up

Thank you for the support!

[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 23:

I clocked in 6 1/2 hours at McDonald’s and worked out for 3 1/2 hours at the gym. I did really well in sparring today during boxing class. I barely got touched today against guys that I have sparred against in the past. Whenever I succeed like that it just makes me want to go harder.

My dad told me tonight that he would like to talk to me about finding a job. I was dismissive of his attempts to talk to me. I can tell that he is worried about me and wants to support me but doesn’t know how.

I think the reason I am insecure about really loving Juice Wrld is because he is slightly “alternative/emo.” Its honestly silly that this is something that I am concerned about because he still a pretty mainstream artist and I also listen to a lot of mainstream pop/hip-hop music. I think that it would be better to embrace than side of myself rather than suppress it.

When I think about my ideal life I think about just getting to do a bunch of cool shit all the time like fighting, traveling, singing, dancing, partying and having sex. If I got a normal corporate job it would just be to fund a more exciting lifestyle, not for love of the corporate job. I just have no idea how I would express that to my dad without him judging me.

I think that becoming a boxing/muay thai coach could be a good path to developing a better source of income because I would be doing something that I enjoy. I spend so much time practicing the sports I could develop the knowledge to be a beginner coach relatively soon.

Thank you for reading

[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 24:

I clocked in 6 hours at McDonalds and trained muay thai for 3 hours.

I had a tense moment with my dad when he wanted to help me look for jobs but I told him that I don’t want to. At first he was offended but he didn’t seem to be upset at all soon after.

Thank you for reading

[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 25:

I got to work 45 minutes late because I woke up late and I procrastinated getting out of bed.

I spent about an hour considering whether I should get Andy’s 12-week coaching program. I know that I can make progress by myself but I don’t know if the $10,000 would be a good investment to accelerate my progress.

I would also have to open up to my parents that I am invested in this kind of self-improvement rather than the traditional route of just going to college or joining the military. I believe that they would be especially off-put by subjects of sex and BDSM on his channel.

Thank you for reading

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Today’s Stats:
• No Porn: (6)
• No Masturbation: (0)
• No Orgasm: (1)
• Income: $66
• Training: 2 hours
• Sleep: 9 1/2 hours
• Girls Flirted With: 0

My Goals:
• No PMO
• Improve My Sleep (11:00pm - 8:00am)
• Increase My Intimacy with Friends, Family, and Strangers
• Improve My Social Media
• Love Myself More
• Compete in Combat Sports
• Move in with Ricardo

[Zug]

I would also have to open up to my parents that I am invested in this kind of self-improvement rather than the traditional route of just going to college or joining the military. I believe that they would be especially off-put by subjects of sex and BDSM on his channel.

No one's parents are going to support this, no one. It's best to stop looking for approval altogether, but its required you stop looking for approval from people who can't give it, because they can't and are incapable of understanding.

Self-improvement and going to college, military, or the trades are not in any kind of conflict. Don't make either/or decisions out of things that are not in conflict, that's laziness, not commitment. I'd recommend looking at some youtube videos on the trades, getting a high paying blue collar job you can continually improve in will do a lot for your self improvement and is pretty easy to do concurrently with your other goals.

There's multiple separate skillsets and qualities you need to build as a man. There's nothing gained by not working on them concurrently. Two of them - fitness and your career are best started early because they're both things you need to do your entire life, and they both require a long investment before significant returns. Pursue your dreams, but don't use that as an excuse to do less, use it as a powerful reason to do more.

[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 26:

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Today’s Stats:
• No Porn: (7)
• No Masturbation: (1)
• No Orgasm: (2)
• Income: $0
• Training: 2 1/2 hours
• Sleep: 12:30am - 11:30am (11 hours)
• Girls Flirted With: 0

My Goals:
• No PMO
• Improve My Sleep (11:00pm - 8:00am)
• Increase My Intimacy with Friends, Family, and Strangers
• Improve My Social Media
• Be More Authentic
• Compete in Combat Sports
• Move in with Ricardo

[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 27:

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Today’s Stats:
• No Porn: (6)
• No Masturbation: (0)
• No Orgasm: (0)
• Income: $0
• Training: 2 1/2 hours
• Sleep: 12:00am - 10:30am
• Girls Flirted With: 0

My Goals:
• No PMO
• Improve My Sleep (11:00pm - 8:00am)
• Increase My Intimacy with Friends, Family, and Strangers
• Improve My Social Media
• Be More Authentic
• Compete in Combat Sports

[hyrtsmyrts]

If I was as determined as you when I was 20, by now I'd be a fucking beast. Keep it up man.

[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 28:

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Today’s Stats:
• No Porn: (9)
• No Masturbation: (0)
• No Orgasm: (0)
• Income: $78
• Training: 1/2 hours
• Sleep: ?

My Goals:
• No PMO
• Improve My Sleep (11:00pm - 8:00am)
• Increase My Intimacy with Friends, Family, and Strangers
• Improve My Social Media
• Be More Authentic
• Compete in Combat Sports

[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 29:

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Today’s Stats:
• No Porn: (0)
• No Masturbation: (0)
• No Orgasm: (0)
• Income: $0
• Training: 1 hr
• Sleep: ?

My Goals:
• No PMO
• Improve My Sleep (11:00pm - 8:00am)
• Increase My Intimacy with Friends, Family, and Strangers
• Improve My Social Media
• Be More Authentic
• Compete in Combat Sports

[Toey_the_Turtle]

Day 30:

I went to a job interview for a sales corporation but I quickly realized that I am incredibly under qualified. I am going to talk to my dad tomorrow about more potential jobs.

I just want to say thank you to everyone on thus forum who has given me support. I understand that I’m not making progress as quickly as I want to because I’m not being ambitious enough so I promise to go harder.

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Today’s Stats:
• No Porn: (1)
• No Masturbation: (1)
• No Orgasm: (1)
• Income: $0
• Training: 3 hrs
• Sleep: 10 hrs

My Goals:
• No PMO
• Improve My Sleep (11:00pm - 8:00am)
• Increase My Intimacy with Friends, Family, and Strangers
• Improve My Social Media
• Be More Authentic
• Compete in Combat Sports