More of a journal post to log into my journey and not a post-action report.
All and all, ya I don't feel ready to settle down quite yet.
I like the Korean girl
I really like this Korean chick I'm seeing.
Sexual compatability is extremely high. Same with everything else actually. Like we just click and I think we both like each other a lot.
But my sex goals aren't met yet
The problem is I realllly don't feel like I'm done with girls, so it's almost like I want to just get more emotionally involved with her, but my dick wants to explore more.
Options to deal with this
I've heard every angle about this from
1. Having an open relationship talk
2. Straight up lying
3. Or just indirectly giving the impression you're seeing other girls.
4. Go exclusive and work on fitness goals then fuck around in 6 months.
what happened previously
With the blonde girl I opted not to tell.
Slept with 2 other girls while seeing her.
And didn't feel bad about it tbh.
...Up until it was clear she really liked me, then I felt bad, then had to break up with her to save her from getting really hurt later. I think I broke up with her in the softest way possible.
So it was like I was ok with it while we weren't super invested in each other. And then when she seemed to like me and wanted to show me to her mom and her friends, I thought ok 'fuck let's end this now'.
Every option has consequences
I think this is one of those where I need to sort out where I stand on this.
I can either tell her (Hey I want to maintain honesty with each other at all times, I like you a lot, but Im not ready to be sexually exclusive).
And that sounds like literally lighting dynamite. Cuz there's a high chance that won't work.
Or I lie and sleep around. Which then introduces all the consequences.
Or I basically maintain exclusivity and focus on weight loss, and then leave for Toronto and fuck non-exclusively there.
Ultimately I need to figure out where I stand
Like I said I need to decide for myself where I stand. Because I'm getting legit jealousy seeing @Toast and @Crisis_Overcomer approach girls. And I don't think that jealousy will go away.
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Project for today is to decide where I stand on this issue and just go for it.
Ive heard good points for every possible path to take here. And they're all valid. But ultimately it's up to me to decide.
This is very accurate. Ya, this week has been shit because this ive been so undisciplined with this Korean chick.Crisis_Overcomer wrote: ↑Sun Apr 03, 2022 6:07 pmI think you're a bit like me right now, since you want to shift your focus on CA while also doing business and perhaps improving your body. My only advice is to ruthlessly protect your energy levels. Never sacrifice sleep, stick to your diet 99%, avoid alcohol, and ban any kind of drama in your life. When your energy is taken care off, you'll notice that you make better choices that assist you in your your goals.
Like it got to the point where both of us decided to see each other less because of how little sleep we were getting.
Even if all my sexual needs are met, not doing CA, or even hooking up with legit super hot girls would bother me forever.Crisis_Overcomer wrote: ↑Wed Apr 06, 2022 3:58 pmWith CA though, I realize I'm lacking skills and this pisses me off. So even though I still want to get laid a lot, I wanna refine my process and get laid via CA. And then get laid with legit hotties.
I know I'd be 15 years down the road and be thinking 'Man I was so close to fucking some models, why didn't I just push through?'
Ya I don't think I'm there yet. I think I could stop now and chalk everything as a win. But I don't think I'm mentally there.
I think eventually I could go mono, and focus on other areas of life.
But it's odd, once you get the taste of being able to fuck a lot of girls, it really does change your outlook.
I thought I'd maybe sleep with 10-15 girls and be happy with that. But now 15 seems incredibly low, and like a waste of potential almost.
Already feel better.KillYourInnerLoser wrote: ↑Thu Apr 07, 2022 5:59 amRe: Breakup - yeah, they're never easy. You read my breakup article so you know that I have been through exactly what you're going through (I've been through it multiple times). You did the right thing here. You'll feel better in a week or two, I promise