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MattsCrib
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Mon Jan 25, 2021 4:13 pm

Hey!

Decided to make my log public, which means that I also have a public profile that shows my gorgeous, beautiful eccentric intsel (in denial)-wannabe chad esque mug.

Depression/sleeplessness/mental health - has been going on and off (some days I go fall asleep at 2am, wake up at 4am, fall asleep again at 6am, wake up at 2pm) - working on getting an appointment with a therapist. What has really helped me is meditation and positive thoughts. I also still get these anger moments about hypergamy, cock carousel and all that typical good shit.

NoFap - fail after fail. I have a new goal now for it: try to make 3 days. SMALL goals only.

Working out/weight/fitness/social life - We have full lockdown, however, gyms will be open in two weeks(!) if everything goes according to "plan", which means that i'll be able to move out of my parents place and be social again(yay baby!). I have small bones, some of it can be helped by muscle/weight gain.

Looks - besides weight gain, I've been trying to drink more water to make my skin look better. I'm also thinking about a teeth whitening kit (I was about to buy it, but it was too expensive. I'm looking for something a bit cheaper). I already have the height increasing insoles (I'm 5'10 - 5'11), but they hurt my feet, so I wear them if I go to places where I might have a chance to meet decent girls

Sex/romance - I mean... I'm a bitter 25 (going on 26 soon) year old virgin, so I don't get any lol. This hasn't changed in the last six months or so (from the time I found this place). I know I've gotten all of that "talk to more girls" and "meet five girls a day" etc. which I'm really thankful for (really, you guys have pulled my head out of my ass so many times), but I live in a town w/ 6k people, that apparently 5% of which are my age people. I don't really live in a location where I can do that NOR am I generally, MOST OF THE TIME not interested in girls that much (I have this weird form of madonna-whore-male-hypergamy complex that I've written a lot about before). I want to fuck girls as much as I want to be a texas ranger or a leader of a knitting club, HOWEVER I still want that sweet, sweet femininity etc. I feel like a guy who wants to be a great tractor driver but is generally disgusted by turning wheels. I have NOT found a solution to that YET - no, SO FAR talking to new girls HAS NOT helped. I WILL keep going, though. For some reason, everything that feels "wrong" is a huge turn off and everything that feels "proper" is a turn on, pretty much opposite to most people, so in general "hot" and "slutty" girls have give the exact opposite reaction :D.

Money - I'm making some gainz with my investments. I want to retire young, however I still don't have the means to MAKE money that much, I can only GROW it. I'm a musician (rnb-ish pop-ish jazz-ish singer, also play the keys a bit) who only has maybe one or two gigs every couple of months (like... 100-200 eur max?). I'm also a digital artist and would love to become an anatomy teacher. I had a goal to make one instagram post of my progress every day (art stuff). I had a great start, did it for maybe 5 days and then failed.

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Small steps I can do now:
* If I have the money, buy the teeth whitening kit
* fix final school stuff
* move out
* hit the gym
* eat decently and drink olive oil + vitamin D.
* try to socialize more (as much as you can during lockdown)
* try to help other people (who seem lost) as much as you can without hurting yourself too much

also, start with not touching your peepee for 3 days. See how that goes.

I'm throwing out different stuff right now due to desperation, trying to see if anything sticks on the wall
2021 GOALS

- Figure out how to start liking girls (besides friends)
- Fix sleep issues/depression
- Make at least 5k EUR by the end of 2021
- Gain 10kg, get a proper sixpack
- Get Instagram art/design following
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Mon Jan 25, 2021 4:33 pm

MattsCrib wrote:
Mon Jan 25, 2021 4:13 pm
Hey!

Decided to make my log public, which means that I also have a public profile that shows my gorgeous, beautiful eccentric intsel (in denial)-wannabe chad esque mug.

Depression/sleeplessness/mental health - has been going on and off (some days I go fall asleep at 2am, wake up at 4am, fall asleep again at 6am, wake up at 2pm) - working on getting an appointment with a therapist. What has really helped me is meditation and positive thoughts. I also still get these anger moments about hypergamy, cock carousel and all that typical good shit.

NoFap - fail after fail. I have a new goal now for it: try to make 3 days. SMALL goals only.

Working out/weight/fitness/social life - We have full lockdown, however, gyms will be open in two weeks(!) if everything goes according to "plan", which means that i'll be able to move out of my parents place and be social again(yay baby!). I have small bones, some of it can be helped by muscle/weight gain.

Looks - besides weight gain, I've been trying to drink more water to make my skin look better. I'm also thinking about a teeth whitening kit (I was about to buy it, but it was too expensive. I'm looking for something a bit cheaper). I already have the height increasing insoles (I'm 5'10 - 5'11), but they hurt my feet, so I wear them if I go to places where I might have a chance to meet decent girls

Sex/romance - I mean... I'm a bitter 25 (going on 26 soon) year old virgin, so I don't get any lol. This hasn't changed in the last six months or so (from the time I found this place). I know I've gotten all of that "talk to more girls" and "meet five girls a day" etc. which I'm really thankful for (really, you guys have pulled my head out of my ass so many times), but I live in a town w/ 6k people, that apparently 5% of which are my age people. I don't really live in a location where I can do that NOR am I generally, MOST OF THE TIME not interested in girls that much (I have this weird form of madonna-whore-male-hypergamy complex that I've written a lot about before). I want to fuck girls as much as I want to be a texas ranger or a leader of a knitting club, HOWEVER I still want that sweet, sweet femininity etc. I feel like a guy who wants to be a great tractor driver but is generally disgusted by turning wheels. I have NOT found a solution to that YET - no, SO FAR talking to new girls HAS NOT helped. I WILL keep going, though. For some reason, everything that feels "wrong" is a huge turn off and everything that feels "proper" is a turn on, pretty much opposite to most people, so in general "hot" and "slutty" girls have give the exact opposite reaction :D.

Money - I'm making some gainz with my investments. I want to retire young, however I still don't have the means to MAKE money that much, I can only GROW it. I'm a musician (rnb-ish pop-ish jazz-ish singer, also play the keys a bit) who only has maybe one or two gigs every couple of months (like... 100-200 eur max?). I'm also a digital artist and would love to become an anatomy teacher. I had a goal to make one instagram post of my progress every day (art stuff). I had a great start, did it for maybe 5 days and then failed.

|

Small steps I can do now:
* If I have the money, buy the teeth whitening kit
* fix final school stuff
* move out
* hit the gym
* eat decently and drink olive oil + vitamin D.
* try to socialize more (as much as you can during lockdown)
* try to help other people (who seem lost) as much as you can without hurting yourself too much

also, start with not touching your peepee for 3 days. See how that goes.

I'm throwing out different stuff right now due to desperation, trying to see if anything sticks on the wall
A few things.

1) Fucking props for working on your positivity! And for the self-awareness you have. I see you in a bad space, but you're super self-aware of where you're at and trying to get out of it. Being in the lowest possible place put moving in the right direction is so much better than being on top of the world but sabotaging yourself. You're definitely pointed in the right direction.

2) Your last bulletpoint of helping others? Don't. The best way you can help anyone right now is become a beast yourself. Then you'll have more to give. Give yourself all your focus right now.

3) Move to a more populous city. Should be near top of priority list. 6k people with barely anyone your age won't help you at all... I don't know which country you're in, but all countries have cities with a lot of young people. If you don't have the money to live in that city, then make that your focus.

Keep it up man. You might not be in the best place but you're going in the right direction!
Pussy:
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• Dating apps
• Perfect body
• Move downtown

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Build Passion Unchained

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Pmoney - Current focus:
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Mon Jan 25, 2021 4:42 pm

joe_ronimo wrote:
Mon Jan 25, 2021 4:33 pm
1) Fucking props for working on your positivity! And for the self-awareness you have. I see you in a bad space, but you're super self-aware of where you're at and trying to get out of it. Being in the lowest possible place put moving in the right direction is so much better than being on top of the world but sabotaging yourself. You're definitely pointed in the right direction.
Thanks! As you probably know by now, it's on and off :D I'll probably have a few rant posts about "wahmen beeing sloots y don't they wanna be proper marriage material" here and there.
joe_ronimo wrote:
Mon Jan 25, 2021 4:33 pm
2) Your last bulletpoint of helping others? Don't. The best way you can help anyone right now is become a beast yourself. Then you'll have more to give. Give yourself all your focus right now.
I know what you mean, yeah. I just don't want others to get into the same depressing defeatist hole that I sometimes fall into.
joe_ronimo wrote:
Mon Jan 25, 2021 4:33 pm
3) Move to a more populous city. Should be near top of priority list. 6k people with barely anyone your age won't help you at all... I don't know which country you're in, but all countries have cities with a lot of young people. If you don't have the money to live in that city, then make that your focus.
I live in Estonia, that has about a million people overall. I am moving in a few days to my college town where there are maybe... 100 people my age? There are two big cities in Estonia - Tallinn and Tartu, both of whom have a few hundred thousand people. I lived in Tartu all throughout my highschool years, which were great (I had great friends and a decently large social circle). Due to different reasons, no girls though (like I said, I just don't often find girls that I'm really attracted to). I also lived in Tallinn for a year (studied music there), but it was after HS, after I had "lost" all of my friends (due to moving) and got crazy ass depression. Again, I didn't like most girls = didn't find anyone.

Funny story: while In HS, I had a crush on a girl so I contacted a "pick up artist" - we did some of the typical day game shit, but I realized that he's way, way more into girls (like normal guys I guess, asking things like "what do you mean you don't find a girl attractive like every week?") so we stopped it after I essentially refused to hit on girls that he found attractive and I didn't feel anything towards. I remember actually the first approach I did I had "success" because the girls were visibly interested in me and even added me later on FB (found out my name etc.). They were cute, I just didn't know what to do after that lol :D
2021 GOALS

- Figure out how to start liking girls (besides friends)
- Fix sleep issues/depression
- Make at least 5k EUR by the end of 2021
- Gain 10kg, get a proper sixpack
- Get Instagram art/design following
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Mon Jan 25, 2021 4:53 pm

MattsCrib wrote:
Mon Jan 25, 2021 4:42 pm
I live in Estonia,
Oh nice! You must have loved Tenet then. I visited Latvia a few years ago and heard tons about Talinn.
MattsCrib wrote:
Mon Jan 25, 2021 4:42 pm
Funny story: while In HS, I had a crush on a girl so I contacted a "pick up artist" - we did some of the typical day game shit, but I realized that he's way, way more into girls (like normal guys I guess, asking things like "what do you mean you don't find a girl attractive like every week?") so we stopped it after I essentially refused to hit on girls that he found attractive and I didn't feel anything towards. I remember actually the first approach I did I had "success" because the girls were visibly interested in me and even added me later on FB (found out my name etc.). They were cute, I just didn't know what to do after that lol :D
Sounds like what's holding you back is your mind, not your environment.

If you didn't want girls, you wouldn't be so frustrated and angry. You'd just live your life not caring about girls.

Perhaps your desire is tied up in hatred and anger, and you don't have access to it. I'm excited to see how your therapy works out - you mentioned you're looking for a therapist. This might be the solution for you... Although I'd suggest moving too. Talinn seems best if you want to stay in Estonia, a college town with only 100 people your age is still waaaaay too little.
Pussy:
2-3 fwb. Sex 4+ nights/week. 1 3some/week

• Dating apps
• Perfect body
• Move downtown

Passion:
Build Passion Unchained

• Youtube schedule

Pmoney - Current focus:
• Make $7,500+/month with Photography, Youtube & Uber 2 months in a row.
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Mon Jan 25, 2021 5:36 pm

joe_ronimo wrote:
Mon Jan 25, 2021 4:53 pm
Oh nice! You must have loved Tenet then. I visited Latvia a few years ago and heard tons about Talinn.
Haven't seen it yet :D Some friends were extras there (as was like every third estonian)
joe_ronimo wrote:
Mon Jan 25, 2021 4:53 pm
Sounds like what's holding you back is your mind, not your environment.

If you didn't want girls, you wouldn't be so frustrated and angry. You'd just live your life not caring about girls.

Perhaps your desire is tied up in hatred and anger, and you don't have access to it. I'm excited to see how your therapy works out - you mentioned you're looking for a therapist. This might be the solution for you... Although I'd suggest moving too. Talinn seems best if you want to stay in Estonia, a college town with only 100 people your age is still waaaaay too little.
I really don't know, man. I have this weird...

I like girls -> girls like certain characteristics that I find unappealing ("bad boys", lust, animalistic shit, sex overall, passion etc.) -> I don't like when people in general find these kinds of things appeling -> I... don't like girls?

Of course not ALL girls like that kind of stuff, but it seems to be that humans in general tend to like it,
I like girls because I CAN'T not like them in a romantic/sexual way - I'm a heterosexual guy. I just don't like the "system" in a sense - I want them to like the kind of stuff that I find appealing, like kindness, calmness, holding hands, wanting to be pure etc. That good old "beta" shit turns me on :D

I like cats -> I don't like creatures that have claws -> I don't like cats?

At the same time it's weird - I wonder what my 20y/o self would've thought about women and sex overall (the time when I was the happiest I've ever been) - I think he still wanted "proper" girls and that's one of the reasons he couldn't get aroused by most girls. I didn't pursue girls at all because I didn't feel the need to - I had amazing friends, both male and female, got female validation due to my personality and overall confidence, so I had no interest in actually being with one single girl. It's like abundance mindset, but without the sexual side, but for some reason I didn't feel the need for the sexual stuff (nor do I really now - I'd PROBABLY be more than happy If girls around me didn't want to fuck and just wanted to be "nice" and shit, but that would also mean that they wouldn't want to be with other guys)

HS was weird - We didn't have any "popular" kids, everyone was super nice all the time, people overall weren't very sexual at all except for the few outliers etc. Once I went to college it hit hard - It was like back when I was 16 again - everything was like a popularity contest in a sense, people were wild, social status was a thing etc. I though things would stay the same in college as they were in HS, but I found out that my HS class was the exception, not the rule :D


About therapy: I actually started seeing a psychiatrist last year, but covid hit. I'm now trying to get a hold on that same therapist.

Edit: also, moving to Tallinn - hell naw :D I really hated it - it was too loud and party-ish and not at all for me. I loved living in Tartu though and I like my current college town - but yeah, 100 is not a lot. I'm hopefully moving to The Netherlands this fall as an exchange student - that should be a bigger country
2021 GOALS

- Figure out how to start liking girls (besides friends)
- Fix sleep issues/depression
- Make at least 5k EUR by the end of 2021
- Gain 10kg, get a proper sixpack
- Get Instagram art/design following
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Mon Jan 25, 2021 7:35 pm

About the sleep problems -
Ever since I got depressed, I wake up at 6-7am everyday, no matter what time I go to sleep. What really helped me is having breakfast or eating a snack and going back to sleep. I sleep like a baby afterwards.

I have similar feelings towards girls as you. Glad to see that I'm not alone. I had a few lays, but the sex never felt good, aside from when I had it with a girl I genuinely liked(who ended up playing me lol). The only thing I enjoyed about getting laid was the feeling of accomplishment and empowerment.

I don't believe you just want "platonic" relationships - I think what you may have convinced yourself you want that because you're actually scared of rejection. That happened in my case. For instance, I met the girl I genuinely liked from cold approach. I didn't find her attractive at first and I had to "force" myself to approach her.

Sorry for the ramble lol
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Mon Jan 25, 2021 7:54 pm

AnemicBruh wrote:
Mon Jan 25, 2021 7:35 pm
About the sleep problems -
Ever since I got depressed, I wake up at 6-7am everyday, no matter what time I go to sleep. What really helped me is having breakfast or eating a snack and going back to sleep. I sleep like a baby afterwards.
I'll keep that in mind (Y) I'm more of the stay up incredibly late-wake up incredibly late type of person. I'm naturally a night owl, but stress and depression turn it waay up.
AnemicBruh wrote:
Mon Jan 25, 2021 7:35 pm
I have similar feelings towards girls as you. Glad to see that I'm not alone. I had a few lays, but the sex never felt good, aside from when I had it with a girl I genuinely liked(who ended up playing me lol). The only thing I enjoyed about getting laid was the feeling of accomplishment and empowerment.

I don't believe you just want "platonic" relationships - I think what you may have convinced yourself you want that because you're actually scared of rejection. That happened in my case. For instance, I met the girl I genuinely liked from cold approach. I didn't find her attractive at first and I had to "force" myself to approach her.

Sorry for the ramble lol
I really don't know tbh. What do you mean by being scared or rejection? I don't THINK at least that i'm that scared. That's actually true that when you "force yourself to approach", she kinda becomes more attractive IF that is being reciprocated :D I like girls who like me.

Yeah, breaking news - "young man in his mid twenties is having mental issues and trouble with women! Coming up next, the grass is, surprisingly STILL green"

The major chances I had with two really cute girls in a row who fell for me made me bitter, because they both had boyfriends (both were 19 y/o, one had had a bf for 4 years).
My female friends told me that "dude... that's how it pretty much works. It's not the end of the world - people fall for new people and leave they're old ones since the dawn of time" and my male friends told me to "be more selfish, to maybe smash these girls and see where thing are going. You can't always be super nice and scared that you might hurt their boyfriends feelings. You have to be kinda selfish and maybe you really are a better option, a cooler guy".

They kinda made it clear that it's not that "evil" when people/girls do that in a sense.

Edit:

One thing I've thought about: young men really don't have a decent support group. I'm not talking about friends etc.
I'm talking about the romantic/sexual lives of young men - I honestly believe that MOST men are unhappy and maybe 30% are like me - have never had anyone.

The "right wing"/red pill pretty much just takes advantage of these types of men, fueling them with hatred, talking about pua stuff and telling stories how "men should be more like men and women should be more like women". All that "be alpha, hold frame" pua type of shit while at the same time hating on women (and in extreme cases, other races, trans people, gays etc.). The same with extreme incel/blackpill communities - they pretty much tell the truth, however they view it through a negative lens of "it's over" and "it never began" etc. Also, if you think about it, historically - when has the right wing ever won? In the long run... never.

The "left wing" completely IGNORES these kinds of problems OR tells you that it has everything to do with "toxic masculinity" while at the same time never completely trying to solve it, or trying to solve it by completely abolishing genders etc. It deals with trans, gay, racial, female problems, but it seems that the "young, white male" stereotype is an automatic enemy to the left. So yeah, the right exploits, the left mostly ignores - this leads to frustration, loneliness, suicides, even r$pe in some cases.

I hope it really starts to change with left wing people like Vaush and even The CBP Channel coming forward with these issues. Of course, FIRST it has to be dealt with on a personal level and ONLY THEN on a societal level (or I hope that well... It can be dealt w/ both at the same time)
2021 GOALS

- Figure out how to start liking girls (besides friends)
- Fix sleep issues/depression
- Make at least 5k EUR by the end of 2021
- Gain 10kg, get a proper sixpack
- Get Instagram art/design following
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Tue Jan 26, 2021 12:30 am

A question:

how to feel more "connected" to people if you aren't very sexual?

What are the steps right now that I can do to understand the want for being dominant, wanting to fuck, the opposite for girls would be wanting a hot guy etc to fuck hard etc. more than the want to have deep meaningful relationships? How do I connect them in my brain?

I've never even enjoyed rough porn - it has always been pretty softcoreish masturbation stuff or maybe some light fetish. Hell, I even don't enjoy it when girls use huge dildos.

Are there steps that I can take to make me feel more "normal" in that regard?

I'm actually terrified of girls finding out that I usually don't want to have sex with them, at least not this rough hair pulling and choking stuff and I'd rather just...cuddle and make out.

A few months ago I was in bed with a girl, cuddled and all that shit. We had talked about sexuality and stuff and I told her that I've wondered if I'm asexual etc. And she told me that she had assumed that about me due to my lack of hitting on her or something (not feeling any passion, lust). She told me that she has thought that too, however when in bed, I quickly found out that she has always wanted to be choked and dominated, and she was very disappointed that I was not into that. :/

So yeah, as a late virgin, what can I do to "fit" more into society's standards in a sense if wanting sex? I know it's dumb and Noone should clearly follow arbitrary rules, but it may make it easier for me to get girls that way, if I feel lust too, not only the romantic feelings.
2021 GOALS

- Figure out how to start liking girls (besides friends)
- Fix sleep issues/depression
- Make at least 5k EUR by the end of 2021
- Gain 10kg, get a proper sixpack
- Get Instagram art/design following
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Tue Jan 26, 2021 2:06 am

Hey man - great to have you! Joe hit the nail on the head with his points - I'd reread a few times and all of what he says is what you need to hear IMO.

I'm not super experienced myself, but my answer/guess is that you need to force yourself through the motions a few times - do exactly what the experienced guys here say and Andy's guides until you get a few lays under your belt - you probably won't feel like a sexual person until you've been with a few girls. 95% of the sex I had was in a long term relationship and I know I can't relate to my friends that have had multiple girlfriends or friends w/ benefits or a lot of lays.

I guess it's like confidence - you don't magically whip up confidence and then do things - you do things first, and through that build confidence.
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Continue working on posing and taking pictures
Take a gym photo with a legit camera
Take some social photos
Smile more for some photos
Get a dog picture
See if I can get a better version of any current pictures
Ramp up on the apps - 100-200 messages per weekend on hinge preferred and more boosts on tinder

Still make wardrobe additions, keep working on physique, etc.
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Tue Jan 26, 2021 5:35 am

I'm so confused, why are you so obsessed with rough sex? Literally nobody told you you HAVE to have rough sex - there's a million girls out there that love gentle lovemaking, going slow, romance, etc. I've dated plenty of them, especially in my early days.

You're stuck on a problem you've completely invented in your own head.
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Tue Jan 26, 2021 5:43 am

KillYourInnerLoser wrote:
Tue Jan 26, 2021 5:35 am
I'm so confused, why are you so obsessed with rough sex? Literally nobody told you you HAVE to have rough sex - there's a million girls out there that love gentle lovemaking, going slow, romance, etc. I've dated plenty of them, especially in my early days.

You're stuck on a problem you've completely invented in your own head.
Maybe you're right. I just haven't seen the opposite, so it's easy to think otherwise lol.

It's just that even the girls that I THOUGHT would like to be more "tame" and "booring" turned out to be pretty wild loving in a sense. But yeah, you're right, maybe I just shouldn't care and do whatever I want.
2021 GOALS

- Figure out how to start liking girls (besides friends)
- Fix sleep issues/depression
- Make at least 5k EUR by the end of 2021
- Gain 10kg, get a proper sixpack
- Get Instagram art/design following
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Tue Jan 26, 2021 6:09 am

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Tue Jan 26, 2021 6:43 am

You like girls, you just don't like girls that seem like they are sexually attracted to bad boys/masculine men (ie 99% of girls) because you have low self confidence and you don't think you are that man and you think that you will lose the girls you get to those kind of men. Hence why I think you focus on "pure, virginal girls" hence your Madonna/whore complex. Hence your focus on rough sex because you associate rough sex with girls who like masculine men (someone who you think you are not and who you think you will never be).

Your disgust of sexually active girls is actually your ego's subconscious self-protection mechanism ("How can they reject me/cheat on me if I don't want them in the first place?").
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Tue Jan 26, 2021 6:49 am

Thanks! :D

It's crazy how easy it is for me (and for most normies I guess) to fall into the cultish mindset. Life's actually in a sense way easier, but way harder than you'd think lol.

Be attractive, don't be unattractive, flirt with girls, get into a relationship of you want to, maybe be cheated on, maybe cheat, maybe have ons, maybe have multiple partners, casual sex. And then you die.

(heads up, I woke up really early today - haven't done that in a year, but that's a huge step for me)
2021 GOALS

- Figure out how to start liking girls (besides friends)
- Fix sleep issues/depression
- Make at least 5k EUR by the end of 2021
- Gain 10kg, get a proper sixpack
- Get Instagram art/design following
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MattsCrib
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Joined: Wed Jul 22, 2020 12:48 pm
Name: Matt
Goal: Get rid of hatred
Age: 25

Tue Jan 26, 2021 6:50 am

JamalHash123 wrote:
Tue Jan 26, 2021 6:43 am
You like girls, you just don't like girls that seem like they are sexually attracted to bad boys/masculine men (ie 99% of girls) because you have low self confidence and you don't think you are that man and you think that you will lose the girls you get to those kind of men. Hence why I think you focus on "pure, virginal girls" hence your Madonna/whore complex. Hence your focus on rough sex because you associate rough sex with girls who like masculine men (someone who you think you are not and who you think you will never be).

Your disgust of sexually active girls is actually your ego's subconscious self-protection mechanism ("How can they reject me/cheat on me if I don't want them in the first place?").

You might have a point :) like I said, I'm getting therapy - let's see where it takes me.

Thanks!
2021 GOALS

- Figure out how to start liking girls (besides friends)
- Fix sleep issues/depression
- Make at least 5k EUR by the end of 2021
- Gain 10kg, get a proper sixpack
- Get Instagram art/design following
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