You ARE right. You're telling the same thing as anyone else here and you're all mostly correct
Underlying mental illness (I've had OCD since I was 15-16, I was afraid of dying, being a pedo, being trans etc.) leads me to constantly relapsing to my "incel" mindset, including long winded rants about "WaHmEn NoT LiEk mE OnLy WanT S3X!!" etc.
I am probably mentally ill due to 1) bad experiences 2) culture 3) genetics etc. Many reasons.
I use this forum to rant. When I do write these long winded posts, I have a panic attack which means that a lot of it is emotional, but since I have nobody to talk to (covid and shit + my parents and friends are tired of it) and It makes me feel better. A LOT of it comes through a negative emotional lens.
I DO probably have underlying sexual issues, I do have probably other mental issues etc. I need help, but psychiatrist haven't been helpful so far.
Yes, I DO need to change my environment, yes, I DO need to start at least casually talking to girls etc. Yes, I probably do need to flirt, be more sexual (or just freaking romantic, flirty - just a tiny bit).
You guys ARE right. This is currently my "saner" side speaking. I WILL come back here and probably write another "ragepost" about doomer shit.
Who isn't insane during this day and age? It isn't anything that new I AM in my head since I'm a NEET living with my parents during covid, who has only had negative (if any) romantic experiences with girls.
Thanks again (you and others here)
And oh, trust me, it IS pretty bad These couple of years made me from a normal, fun loving, happy guy to a fully hateful bitter incel who hates everyone and everything and is borderline... yeah. (especially in the age of tinder etc.)
Some response vids to me when my downward spiral started