Fri Dec 16, 2022 10:47 am
MAC MOVE OUT DAY: THOUGHTS
So, if I’ve been feeling good for a while, and my mind is going higher and higher, my brain can choose to use this as an opportunity to “unload” negativity.
In the alternative healing space, we call this a “cleansing reaction” and it ain’t always pretty. I’ve done this so many times and on the other side I learn, grow, and become better.
So now, I processed more “muck” and on the other side, understand it’s time to take my already GOOD life, my already AMAZING dating & sex life (from NOTHING, EVER, at 29, to ~100 dates, ~1000 approaches, 9 days, 1 with a stunner, and a FWB for several months – I am a FUCKING LEGEND)
What will come:
-I’ll get shredded, lose my facial fat, and build a crazy body. This will take me from a 5, which is where I am now (but that is UP from the 2 I used to be) and will make me about a 6. A female 6 is absolutely lovely and this will be possible for me, on the regular, with excellence in day game ability, elite dating profiles, and just going the way I am going
I want more.
Wanna know what really was at the root of my entire process the past week?
I can’t get over the 1 girl, which was lay 2, and how amazing that experience was.
I dream about that happening again.
Because I am now moving, and I know it may be some time before I escape my parents place again, something in me that years and demands better just snapped.
If we want better, we must be better. There is no shirking the work.
And there is NO MAKING EXCUSES.
Yes, I am of the belief that my appearance, and that includes my exterior tone (I do not believe in race, it’s retarded, there is one race and that’s the human race for gods sake) DOES limit my possibilities and make attraction and gaining the interest of women quite difficult.
But……
I am still 1) a hard worker, 2) consistent, 3) able to endure the grind for as long as it takes, 4) 6ft5, with potential to build a good to elite body.
Facially, I am about a 4 or 5, so NOT AWFUL, not good, I suppose it’s just neutral. It isn’t helping me, it may be hurting me in many ways. This, again, like being brown is a significant killer of outcomes and when these factors converge, things can get very tricky and it puts you in the “no” category for most women. Hence, the poor date conversion (1 in 10, lol) and qualitative experience.
All this, I now understand, and I am GRATEFUL I can just take stock and now make myself a lot better, man.
But there are no excuses for those who are serious. I will remind us the following weapons exist for the under dog, for the guy who isn’t from the right mould:
1) LOOKS: Body transformation & facial surgeries. Hardcore training & diet for a year and I will go from a 5 to a 6. I’ll only be 32 and I’ll have begun to find success in business by then, trust me, I will be able to save money and put it aside for……….SURGERIES: Facially, to make it in this game, I will benefit from some aesthetic enhancing surgeries. I would have to learn more, but I think a rhinoplasty would greatly improve my facial aesthetics and once I’ve gotten my body to where it needs to be, this could be the move for 2024 and could even take me to a 7. There is no harm in my working hard on business and starting a surgery savings fund. If I want to get them done, I can look into that, but that will be after a full 2nd year of hardcore self improvement, the next project is coming and it’ll be money, muscles, and mindset. Day game and dating will just be part of my life now.
2) GAME: You need this to bridge the gap and spark attraction where otherwise there will be none. Without attraction, you will get nothing.
BW, I have put a lot of time and resources into Mewwing, which HAS helped my face a lot, but is a slow burn gentlemen.
I have developed my structure and jaw using the ALF Upper Expander, Myobrace Therapy, a specific posture regime, Core work (McGill Big 3, every day) and my body has been aligned via Ben Patrick’s ideas.
We’ll analyse my face before and after and I’ll tell you my own thoughts.
I will produce a Mewwing update video, with before and after videos and pictures, my Orthodontist is preparing my case report and this will be ready in Jan. We have completed the expansion of my upper arch, it’s been good, and my jaw and overall face is
Mewwing takes YEARS, which is why I went down the device route, to speed it up.
NOW FOR SOME TRUTHFTELLING
Rating for my lays: I often bitch about my lays being on average a 4, well…..let me clear this up
1) 4 (My first ever lay, in Jan 2022)
2) 7.5 (April 2022 – this lady was just stunning)
3) 4
4) 5 (The above 3 girls I pulled and banged within 13 days lol)
5) 5 (My FWB for several months, she healed me a lot, lovely human – will always have a soft spot for her. She was facially out-right unattractive, but had a very nice body, bless her <3)
6) 4
7) 4
8) 6 (quite cute but a insane person, she was the one who forced me to cum inside her with no condom)
9) 6 (Just last month, this tiny 5ft3 girl who clearly had a fetish)
AVERAGE WAS 5
So yes it was a 4 on average. But it was almost a 5. I can’t misrepresent myself or make claims that aren’t true, so here you go.
That was from ALL OUT GRINDING since I began The Phoenix Project, which officially kicked off in around Nov/Dec 2021.
Just who I was back then, a scared, stressed, wallflower man……
And the fucking lion I became…..
This was the best year of my life and I turned my entire life around, saved myself from a horrible situation, and turned my god damn life around from looking like it was going to be shit, to being on the path to true greatness.
If I could accomplish this shit coming from the hell I came……
I cannot even think of a greater self improvement story.
BELIEFS: MAC BELIEF RECONDITIONING
So, look man, now several guys have made the same point, I’ll action this and get to work on it. I HAVE been doing mindset work, but it’s been Inner Child healing work, and I’m not sure that’s what I need. Rather, I think I need to reorgnise and change my inner beliefs further. I have done work on this, of course, but it’s time to build them furhter.
@Manly Cockfellow @seanconneryfan_ all make the same point at various points of my log. @RogerRoger above.
So I will start reading Think & Grow Rich, daily, and I will commit to reading it back to back, 5 times. I can also review it at regular intervals. That’s how we change the subconscious man.
Why I think this matters?
-I can still be triggered when women don’t pull for several weeks in a row. It doesn’t enter my mind, but something happens in my nervous system and I am surging with adrenaline and unable to get to sleep. Yep, its not good. When it’s like 5 to 10 dates and no lay, it really fucks with me, but then again, it just shows the work to be done.
Really, I need to make myself more attractive, and improve my game which is a very useful component.
Whilst there IS an SMV problem, we also need to be clear.
-I should believe in myself, feel good about myself, and also, feel like a success and that good things will come my way
For Gods sake I have sacrificed so much and worked for it.
I will need to develo a winners mindset and abundance mentality.
This doesn’t preclude me from having to increase my SMV. Because with all the positive beliefs in the world, without the attractiveness piece, you will just set up a very tough and frustrating situation.
My dates can be quite weird as I am drawing in a pool of particularly non sexual women. Often they want to quiz me, debate with me, and ask me a bunch of silly questions. It is a bit annoying when I am trying to get a girl to open up and she gives me a one word answer and then goes deep into interviewer mode: this is very validation seeking from women IMO and they seem to enjoy this sort of thing. I prefer it when a girl just gives us space to enjoy each other and be present. L was like this (she’s in Thailand right now).
Game will come in time, with the right actions and practice, which I AM doing – date performance hasn’t been bad for a while.
Just need to increase physical attractiveness to tap into a market share that is:
-Attractive (5 or 6)
-More sexual as people
The weirdos I tend to get aren’t useful for me and should be screened the fuck out even harder…..I am screening via text, but this should expand further in future.
MORE WORK TO PUSH MYSELF BEYOND THE LOOKS THRESHOLD
MORE WORK ON BELIEFS
AND MORE SUCCESS TO BE GAINED
Look…………
I AM ALREADY A WINNER AND A SELF IMPROVEMENT SUCCESS STORY
LETS NOW GET AN ELITE LIFE…………….
Positive Self Talk,
MAC DADDY