So, after having a couple of emotional breakdowns, the one after seeing girls in the street avoiding eye contact and ended up cutting myself, and another after trying tinder with my 2 best pictures with zero matches after hundred of swipes, i've decided to change antidepressant, i don't to take SSRI's anymore because they kill libido, now i'm taking Wellbutrin which the only antidepressant in the market that boosts libido instead of lowering it
found a way to wake up early, i'm using an app
i have also created an instagram page, the only two pictures i have actually suck, i look sad and out of touch, but i have to start somewhere, i'm using instagram right now to find some guy that wants to hang out on weekends and take pictures, so far i found at least one guy that seems cool
Another problem is that i don't have a good jawline anymore because everytime i have an emotional breakdown i overeat, it sucks because i get so close to full abs and binge on feel good carbs
this is another problem that Wellbutrin will solve because it kills appetite, today i actually had a hard time reaching 1500kcal
bought air force one, now just ordered nike dunk high and converse, the goal is to take good pictures after losing 4/5 pounds and getting good jawline back, pictures looking cool/popular/happy not sad and uncomfortable like i always looked till now
now i need something to do everyday, the most important thing is to find friends and join a social circle, the usual advice is "join a club", i don't know but it seems to me this is the wrost advice ever, only lonely boomers join clubs, i will find a cool guy and a cool social circle like that
my strategy right now is to create a cool instagram page and add people and actually ask them if they want to go out, if the page is cool and the pcitures are cool instagram will start suggesting me to local girls and local guys that actually like to go out
i don't know what to do everyday to keep myself busy, any advice is welcome
edit: example of cool happy guy
https://www.instagram.com/saviodechiara/?hl=en
but i have to be honest, i don't have the balls to take pictures on my own
edit2:
i want to add something i forgot, from now i will dress like a sexy/happy guy everyday, not just to take pictures.
This is my attempt to take ownership and responsibility, if girls avoid eye contact it's also my fault, i dress llike shit to go to work. Will post pictures of my daily outfists, edgy and stylish everyday baby