I've been on my self improvement journey for the past few years and have gained a lot of experience. But I'm no where near where I need to be. So this is a log for my progress, my goals, and my reflections to learn from.
My primary goals for this year are.
- Lose 5% body fat.
- Average a threesome a month.
- Move into my own space.
- Post a video of me playing cello on my instagram every day for the 365 challenge.
My current situation as of 6/18/2021
- 3 FWBs with 2 more options.
- 4/6 on my threesomes (I've had 3 more planned that didn't pan out.)
- 3 dates lined up for the next two weeks off of hinge.
- Moving out of a comfortable living arrangement into an uncomfortable living arrangement.
- 16 days into the 365 challenge. One backup video recorded, 16 days of success.
I'm started going to the gym again today which I haven't been to in a year. #Progress.
I'm making this post because last night I tripped on my own dick hard. I invited a girl over from Hinge. Hadn't met her yet. She comes to my house. Sit's on my bed. Drinking alcohol. And I did nothing. We talked. I kissed her briefly. We talked some more. And then she left. She said she liked me, but she didn't think that I was attracted to her. LIke this girl was cute as fuck studying for a PHD in practical physics and works for NASA, and I choked. I know this isn't the only time this has happened. But fuck I need to get on it because this shit is embarassing. This isn't the only time it's happened. This is just the most recent time it's happened.
If you read this, thanks for reading. I don't know what I need. But I think I'm documenting this so I can look back and go fuck I don't want to do that again let's be better this time.