Finished my 2nd workout of the day by doing my 30 mins of cardio on the rower machine. I also started to give more compliments out today. I put my hand out forward to stop and asked a guy what his shirt meant. Thought it was a cancer awareness month but he said it was an old gf's shirt about a sexual assault awareness club that she was a part of. Had a minute or two convo with the guy, seemed pretty cool. This was after my first workout though.
When I ended the second workout I went to cooldown by walking, I gave about a handful of compliments to guys, one to a couple saying they look cute together and even asked a pair of women where the train station was so getting my baby steps in there. As I'm typing this, I'm on my bed and feel sleepy so will knock out soon. Irritated a little bit that my right ear is blocked somewhat compared to my left ear. Hopefully when I wake up everything will be A-okay.
Get some rest gents and tackle the day!
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Hydro
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I finished my workout but instead of doing the 30 mins of cardio before closing time, I decided to lift weights, which is interesting. I was tired before going to the gym and was yawning. I slept bad, woke up with 5ish hours of sleep by waking up at 6, went back to bed at 930ish and then woke up right at afternoon.
Happy that I lifted weights by doing squats, trap bar deadlifts and doing some weighted machine crunches. I was sweating a lot more than doing my 30 mins of moderate intense cardio that I do M-Sat.
Called my parents and I'm really happy that my dad is becoming more active in life. He was bed ridden with depression and this happens with him sometimes as he and I both suffer from this. He's been working hella hard and I'm proud of him, I really am, thank you dad. Mom and I were having fun and cracking a couple jokes over the phone, so today was amazing. I'm lifting weights, parents are happy. These times don't last, might as well make the best of them!
also I complimented a woman today saying she had a nice sweatshirt. She didn't say anything back and continued walking, but I didn't feel bad, shamed, awkward, embarassed or anything like that, so that's a W.
Logging off boys!
Happy that I lifted weights by doing squats, trap bar deadlifts and doing some weighted machine crunches. I was sweating a lot more than doing my 30 mins of moderate intense cardio that I do M-Sat.
Called my parents and I'm really happy that my dad is becoming more active in life. He was bed ridden with depression and this happens with him sometimes as he and I both suffer from this. He's been working hella hard and I'm proud of him, I really am, thank you dad. Mom and I were having fun and cracking a couple jokes over the phone, so today was amazing. I'm lifting weights, parents are happy. These times don't last, might as well make the best of them!
also I complimented a woman today saying she had a nice sweatshirt. She didn't say anything back and continued walking, but I didn't feel bad, shamed, awkward, embarassed or anything like that, so that's a W.
Logging off boys!
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Hydro
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Hey guys how ya'll doing, just talking about my daily self improvement stuff.
I woke up early again today, but then stayed in bed since I was groggy and stayed in and went back to sleep. Then I woke up between sometime 2-3PM. I thought about going to the gym at that time but I was like f it. Just dicked around on the internet and went to the gym at 8:15ish. I was contemplating on either doing the rower machine or doing Overhead press. At the weight room, it was mostly packed and there's 2 squat racks there and they were both used. For some reason I felt pretty comfortable asking one of the guys if I can work in with him, and he said yeah no problem. Dude's been working out for some time and wants to workout more (doing it 3-4 times a week) but can't because of work.
He was doing lunges with the barbell and I was doing overhead press. After every set we gave each other fist bumps to acknowledge the work we're putting in, so shout out to Kyle for that. I Did my 95 lbs for 3 sets of 5, and after taht I told him to have a great workout, but it was nice talking to someone outside of the front desk saying (hi or good day/night).
AFter that I went for my cooldown walk and I complimented 1 woman saying she has nice shoes while we were passing bye. She looked at me awkwardly, but most importantly I didn't feel bad so shout out to me for that (for physical and social self improvement).
I woke up early again today, but then stayed in bed since I was groggy and stayed in and went back to sleep. Then I woke up between sometime 2-3PM. I thought about going to the gym at that time but I was like f it. Just dicked around on the internet and went to the gym at 8:15ish. I was contemplating on either doing the rower machine or doing Overhead press. At the weight room, it was mostly packed and there's 2 squat racks there and they were both used. For some reason I felt pretty comfortable asking one of the guys if I can work in with him, and he said yeah no problem. Dude's been working out for some time and wants to workout more (doing it 3-4 times a week) but can't because of work.
He was doing lunges with the barbell and I was doing overhead press. After every set we gave each other fist bumps to acknowledge the work we're putting in, so shout out to Kyle for that. I Did my 95 lbs for 3 sets of 5, and after taht I told him to have a great workout, but it was nice talking to someone outside of the front desk saying (hi or good day/night).
AFter that I went for my cooldown walk and I complimented 1 woman saying she has nice shoes while we were passing bye. She looked at me awkwardly, but most importantly I didn't feel bad so shout out to me for that (for physical and social self improvement).
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Hydro
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Went to the gym and lifted.
Squatted 155 lbs for 3 sets of 5
Trap bar deadlift 205 lbs for 1 set of 5.
For some reason, I sweat significantly more when I lift weights compared to doing cardio, but of course my heart rate is higher when doing cardio.
Squatted 155 lbs for 3 sets of 5
Trap bar deadlift 205 lbs for 1 set of 5.
For some reason, I sweat significantly more when I lift weights compared to doing cardio, but of course my heart rate is higher when doing cardio.
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Hydro
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So I didn't log what happened after, I went to the gym on Friday 30 mins before closing time and for some reason I decided not to go on the rower machine. I decided to do some machine and dumbbell work. Basically pump work / light bodybuilding work.
The great thing is that I finally went to my Safeways (the grocery store). I was nervous about goin there and since it has opened for over a month I haven't gone in, but I did and got some stuff so thats awesome.
I remember I was finishing up my walk after the gym and I was walking and 3 girls were walking towards me. I asked them if they knew where Safeways was. I knew it was down the street but I wanted to practice my social freedom a bit more. All 3 girls said IDK and for some odd reason that made me feel down, not at that moment, but hours later when I was at my apartment, all by myself, that night.
Anyways I then went to sleep and called it a night. Approached a group of 3 girls after a 2 sessions of the gym for the day and things don't go well, but it is what it is.
The great thing is that I finally went to my Safeways (the grocery store). I was nervous about goin there and since it has opened for over a month I haven't gone in, but I did and got some stuff so thats awesome.
I remember I was finishing up my walk after the gym and I was walking and 3 girls were walking towards me. I asked them if they knew where Safeways was. I knew it was down the street but I wanted to practice my social freedom a bit more. All 3 girls said IDK and for some odd reason that made me feel down, not at that moment, but hours later when I was at my apartment, all by myself, that night.
Anyways I then went to sleep and called it a night. Approached a group of 3 girls after a 2 sessions of the gym for the day and things don't go well, but it is what it is.
Momentum, Action. That's my problem, That's my solution.
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Hydro
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Saturday 07/29
I woke up a bit later than usual since I went to sleep late. I dicked around on the internet and then I contemplated on going to the gym. I always go on Saturdays, I was just thinking if I should go twice. My main vulnerability about this is that I don't want to go when there is a lot of gym traffic since you can't do your workout. I went anyways some time around 2. Today I had benchpress only and benched 145 for 3 sets of 5. There is only 1 bench at the gym and there was a guy using it. I asked the guy if I could work in with him and he said no problem so we took turns and gave each other fist bumps when we finished a set.
I then left and saw a guy, sitting on a bench or something on a sidewalk and I asked him if he's okay. Dude looked teary eyed but no tears down his face, and the only thing I saw him having was 1 tire of a bicycle. The guy said, "Yeah, thanks." Don't know where he is, but as dark as this may seem, I'd assume he's either crying since someone asked him if he's okay and that means a lot to a lot of young men, doing drugs to relieve his pain or he might've offed himself. Yeah this is dark, but the world can be cut throat. Please be alive and happy man. I'm rooting for you!
I came home and dicked around on the internet and then went back at the gym at 4:30 since it closes on 5PM on Saturday. For some reason, I didn't want to do the rower machine and I just did a lot of machine and dumbbell work. Did like 5 sets of machine rows, 5 sets of barbell curls, sets of arnold press super setted with lateral reaises. That was interesting since I felt a good pump and that made me look + feel strong.
I then left the gym and there's this senior citizen guy who lost his wallet so I went to go fetch it but the employee already returned it. He and I had a nice ~5-10 min convo about shit but dude seemed nice.
From there, on the cooldown I approached I believe 3 women (again no numbers just random stuff). One of the girls I asked if the safeways was nearby and the approach was literally within the same place as the last time I approached asking for safeways but the girl, by herself helped me out. So 3 girls can't tell me where it is (when they prolly know), but 1 girl by herself can?
I then went to go get some dominos since it's sautrday and i eat pizza on saturday as a cheat meal. One girl I complimented on her outfit and she said thanks. Oh yeah the first girl i complimented that day she had a nice fur sweater and she said thanks, and another girl had a pink sweater and she said thanks as well i believe. So that makes it 4 today i believe of SAYING SOMETHING.
after that, I felt down. the gym is closed past 5, no gym on sundays. I feel like a bum since i want do be doing something but i just keep on dicking around. bruh i literally jacked off and then came on this site to talk abot what i did today. I did read Ravi's post and how he is in Hungary and he's not having a good time. 200 approaches with 0 contact exchange is quite brutal, espeically when i have no experience so i have an even more fragile of system to operate in. Ravi you can make it brother, you can't go down especially wit you buddy. finna go to sleep now and it's 5 am, and what am i doing on a saturday night / sunday morning as a college student? at my apartment, locked (psychologically, learned helplessness) with no friends, no gym, no date / sex / intimacy. Yeah life is really fucking fun yeah. Im jst gonna sleep and let the rest take care of itself.
I woke up a bit later than usual since I went to sleep late. I dicked around on the internet and then I contemplated on going to the gym. I always go on Saturdays, I was just thinking if I should go twice. My main vulnerability about this is that I don't want to go when there is a lot of gym traffic since you can't do your workout. I went anyways some time around 2. Today I had benchpress only and benched 145 for 3 sets of 5. There is only 1 bench at the gym and there was a guy using it. I asked the guy if I could work in with him and he said no problem so we took turns and gave each other fist bumps when we finished a set.
I then left and saw a guy, sitting on a bench or something on a sidewalk and I asked him if he's okay. Dude looked teary eyed but no tears down his face, and the only thing I saw him having was 1 tire of a bicycle. The guy said, "Yeah, thanks." Don't know where he is, but as dark as this may seem, I'd assume he's either crying since someone asked him if he's okay and that means a lot to a lot of young men, doing drugs to relieve his pain or he might've offed himself. Yeah this is dark, but the world can be cut throat. Please be alive and happy man. I'm rooting for you!
I came home and dicked around on the internet and then went back at the gym at 4:30 since it closes on 5PM on Saturday. For some reason, I didn't want to do the rower machine and I just did a lot of machine and dumbbell work. Did like 5 sets of machine rows, 5 sets of barbell curls, sets of arnold press super setted with lateral reaises. That was interesting since I felt a good pump and that made me look + feel strong.
I then left the gym and there's this senior citizen guy who lost his wallet so I went to go fetch it but the employee already returned it. He and I had a nice ~5-10 min convo about shit but dude seemed nice.
From there, on the cooldown I approached I believe 3 women (again no numbers just random stuff). One of the girls I asked if the safeways was nearby and the approach was literally within the same place as the last time I approached asking for safeways but the girl, by herself helped me out. So 3 girls can't tell me where it is (when they prolly know), but 1 girl by herself can?
I then went to go get some dominos since it's sautrday and i eat pizza on saturday as a cheat meal. One girl I complimented on her outfit and she said thanks. Oh yeah the first girl i complimented that day she had a nice fur sweater and she said thanks, and another girl had a pink sweater and she said thanks as well i believe. So that makes it 4 today i believe of SAYING SOMETHING.
after that, I felt down. the gym is closed past 5, no gym on sundays. I feel like a bum since i want do be doing something but i just keep on dicking around. bruh i literally jacked off and then came on this site to talk abot what i did today. I did read Ravi's post and how he is in Hungary and he's not having a good time. 200 approaches with 0 contact exchange is quite brutal, espeically when i have no experience so i have an even more fragile of system to operate in. Ravi you can make it brother, you can't go down especially wit you buddy. finna go to sleep now and it's 5 am, and what am i doing on a saturday night / sunday morning as a college student? at my apartment, locked (psychologically, learned helplessness) with no friends, no gym, no date / sex / intimacy. Yeah life is really fucking fun yeah. Im jst gonna sleep and let the rest take care of itself.
Momentum, Action. That's my problem, That's my solution.
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Hydro
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Woke up in the late morning today and going to start doing my meal prep and show a pic (Depending if the cloud can get it quickly on the desktop).
I was looking at the nofap subreddit since I'm trying to quit watching porn and only masturbate with my imagination and the goal is to masturbate just once a week, at night before I go to sleep instead of the mornings when i start my day.
Can't believe it but this post really fucked it man...." https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments ... elf_today/
I hope the guy didn't do anything to himself but he isn't responding to any of the comments and that fucking sucks man. I can't believe it, a guy that I don't even know on the internet going through some shit and potentially going to end it. Just last night I was having some thoughts, lonely saturday nights as Chris said it as well even though I went to the gym 2x yesterday.
That reddit post embodies everything that I have in common with him, the difference being I'm 27 and he's 31 and I didn't get addicted that young, most likely 12-14, sometime around there.
Is this a wake up call for me, that if I follow this path that I will be in the same position as lostSoulmate9? I don't want to believe this, both him not ending himself and my future of what will happen. I tried clicking on his account and the page says no one goes by that name so idk what's going on man. fuckkkkkk.
Also I was reading some of Ravi's post and he has been going through some stuff since his dating life hasn't gone well in Hungary so the guy is really facing some internal issues at the moment. I can't let these two guys down man. I have to do my meal prep by tonight and close a decent amount of tabs on my pc since they're making me mentally masturbate my goals in life. I am taking action but I can put even more gas on the pedal. I need this, not just for myself, but for the guys (and ladies) who are down in the dumps right now, I can't quit, not right now.
Goals for today:
1. Finish meal prep and post photo
2. No jacking off today
3. Put the phone in the container before bed so no scrolling at night
4. Close 20 tabs by tonight (tally mark on a sticky note)
I was looking at the nofap subreddit since I'm trying to quit watching porn and only masturbate with my imagination and the goal is to masturbate just once a week, at night before I go to sleep instead of the mornings when i start my day.
Can't believe it but this post really fucked it man...." https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments ... elf_today/
I hope the guy didn't do anything to himself but he isn't responding to any of the comments and that fucking sucks man. I can't believe it, a guy that I don't even know on the internet going through some shit and potentially going to end it. Just last night I was having some thoughts, lonely saturday nights as Chris said it as well even though I went to the gym 2x yesterday.
That reddit post embodies everything that I have in common with him, the difference being I'm 27 and he's 31 and I didn't get addicted that young, most likely 12-14, sometime around there.
Is this a wake up call for me, that if I follow this path that I will be in the same position as lostSoulmate9? I don't want to believe this, both him not ending himself and my future of what will happen. I tried clicking on his account and the page says no one goes by that name so idk what's going on man. fuckkkkkk.
Also I was reading some of Ravi's post and he has been going through some stuff since his dating life hasn't gone well in Hungary so the guy is really facing some internal issues at the moment. I can't let these two guys down man. I have to do my meal prep by tonight and close a decent amount of tabs on my pc since they're making me mentally masturbate my goals in life. I am taking action but I can put even more gas on the pedal. I need this, not just for myself, but for the guys (and ladies) who are down in the dumps right now, I can't quit, not right now.
Goals for today:
1. Finish meal prep and post photo
2. No jacking off today
3. Put the phone in the container before bed so no scrolling at night
4. Close 20 tabs by tonight (tally mark on a sticky note)
Momentum, Action. That's my problem, That's my solution.
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Toey_the_Turtle
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Its good that you’re keeping a good attitude. A great strategy to avoiding porn is to make sure you have positive activities scheduled through your whole day so it is less of a temptation. Avoid porn is something that I am working on as well.
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Hydro
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I 100% agree with this. I need to go out more, 99.99% of people aren't gonna jack off if they're out in public doing stuff.Toey_the_Turtle wrote: ↑Mon Jul 31, 2023 3:38 amIts good that you’re keeping a good attitude. A great strategy to avoiding porn is to make sure you have positive activities scheduled through your whole day so it is less of a temptation. Avoid porn is something that I am working on as well.
Even for something like studying or doing work, if I'm at a library or cafe, I'm not gonna pop out my piece and start rubbing it out lol.
Thanks buddy, I appreciate the advice, 100%!
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Hydro
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07/31
Trained on Monday. i hit 165 for 3 x 5 on Squats and 215 1 x 5 on Deadlifts. As I was walking from the cooldown, I stopped by a shop and had a conversation with a nice and lovely lady, Eva, who runs a music and artsy store. Had a nice 30ish min conversation with her and I'm starting to slowly get out of my comfort zone by conversing, with women which is awesome. Immersion is 100% needed aka exposure therapy. I finished up my meal prep and took a picture of it to prepare for the week. I did go to Safeways though which is nice, for some popcorn and a 0 calorie beverage.
Here's to more! Oh and I did close out 20 tabs like I needed to. I have a problem with having too many fucking tabs opened on my computer so I'm slowly reading/watching and then x'ing them off. So shout out to me for that! Slowly but surely!
Trained on Monday. i hit 165 for 3 x 5 on Squats and 215 1 x 5 on Deadlifts. As I was walking from the cooldown, I stopped by a shop and had a conversation with a nice and lovely lady, Eva, who runs a music and artsy store. Had a nice 30ish min conversation with her and I'm starting to slowly get out of my comfort zone by conversing, with women which is awesome. Immersion is 100% needed aka exposure therapy. I finished up my meal prep and took a picture of it to prepare for the week. I did go to Safeways though which is nice, for some popcorn and a 0 calorie beverage.
Here's to more! Oh and I did close out 20 tabs like I needed to. I have a problem with having too many fucking tabs opened on my computer so I'm slowly reading/watching and then x'ing them off. So shout out to me for that! Slowly but surely!
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Hydro
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08/01
Woke up sluggish and felt tired, dicked around on the internet once again. I have been masturbating too many times so I'm going to make sure that before I go to bed, I put the phone in the container so it's gone and I can't access it for a good 9ish hours.
Went to the gym and did overhead press, finished 100 lbs for 5 x 5. Only needed to do 3 sets but fuck it I did 5. After that I did some bodybuilding work by doing arnold presses and supersetted that with lateral raises, one arm at a time. Went for my cooldown walk and I told a girl that she had nice hair since the hair color stood out as cotton candy pink. She didn't hear me as I believe she had earbuds in, but I didn't feel bad, ashamed or embarrassed so that's a W.
Went to safeway again today, gave a homeless guy a $3 meal, it was large bag of popcorn with a 0 calorie beverage. The dude had a really bad black eye on his left eye, but it wasn't purple it was red. Hope the dude is safe man, hopefully that bag of popcorn and drink satiated you until tomorrow. The foodbank is opened 11am-4pm so homeless people just gotta intermittent fast as a necessity if they can't get food outside of those hours.
Researched some bodybuilding stuff, going to add a 3 sets of forearms and 6 sets of biceps + triceps of training per week through my schedule. I'm doing Starting Strength but god damn do they not give a fuck bout arms. People complain about that so just doing some research (and taking action) to prevent future problems.
Closed 20 tabs today as well, that's 40 tabs total! Hoping for another 20 for tomorrow.
Goodnight guys, tackle the day!
Woke up sluggish and felt tired, dicked around on the internet once again. I have been masturbating too many times so I'm going to make sure that before I go to bed, I put the phone in the container so it's gone and I can't access it for a good 9ish hours.
Went to the gym and did overhead press, finished 100 lbs for 5 x 5. Only needed to do 3 sets but fuck it I did 5. After that I did some bodybuilding work by doing arnold presses and supersetted that with lateral raises, one arm at a time. Went for my cooldown walk and I told a girl that she had nice hair since the hair color stood out as cotton candy pink. She didn't hear me as I believe she had earbuds in, but I didn't feel bad, ashamed or embarrassed so that's a W.
Went to safeway again today, gave a homeless guy a $3 meal, it was large bag of popcorn with a 0 calorie beverage. The dude had a really bad black eye on his left eye, but it wasn't purple it was red. Hope the dude is safe man, hopefully that bag of popcorn and drink satiated you until tomorrow. The foodbank is opened 11am-4pm so homeless people just gotta intermittent fast as a necessity if they can't get food outside of those hours.
Researched some bodybuilding stuff, going to add a 3 sets of forearms and 6 sets of biceps + triceps of training per week through my schedule. I'm doing Starting Strength but god damn do they not give a fuck bout arms. People complain about that so just doing some research (and taking action) to prevent future problems.
Closed 20 tabs today as well, that's 40 tabs total! Hoping for another 20 for tomorrow.
Goodnight guys, tackle the day!
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Hydro
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Still awake and it's 4:30 am over here.
What did I accomplish today? Well a lot more negatives than positives.
I jacked off 2-3 times today (lost count).
I ate pizza at night, a full medium pan sized pizza.
And most importantly i think I just fucked up my sleep schedule, fuck.
The highlight for today is that I trained and did 3 sets of 5 for Squats at 175 lbs and 1 set of 5 for trap bar deadlifts at 225 lbs. I then did some ab work and a set of cable forearm flexions.
As of now I'm closing out my tabs and will close out 15 tabs on my computer but right now I'm getting a bit emotional. I'm on the theredarchive website reading Chris's content from GLL. Talking about lonely Saturday nights, Hollywood loves your insecurities, his opportunities with the Israeli girl and more articles that I read. Currently have Vagabond (manga) meditation as background music https://youtu.be/dMKIq7iqpQs, reading some stuff to put acid on my wounds. Why do I have to be like this? Why am I torturing myself like this? Why am I into self improvement? I want this beautiful life, but man, fuck, the gym isn't even difficult at the moment. These inner issues bottling up is what's making me spiritually claustrophobic, I just want to curl up into the fetal position and go to bed.
Sorry guys.
What did I accomplish today? Well a lot more negatives than positives.
I jacked off 2-3 times today (lost count).
I ate pizza at night, a full medium pan sized pizza.
And most importantly i think I just fucked up my sleep schedule, fuck.
The highlight for today is that I trained and did 3 sets of 5 for Squats at 175 lbs and 1 set of 5 for trap bar deadlifts at 225 lbs. I then did some ab work and a set of cable forearm flexions.
As of now I'm closing out my tabs and will close out 15 tabs on my computer but right now I'm getting a bit emotional. I'm on the theredarchive website reading Chris's content from GLL. Talking about lonely Saturday nights, Hollywood loves your insecurities, his opportunities with the Israeli girl and more articles that I read. Currently have Vagabond (manga) meditation as background music https://youtu.be/dMKIq7iqpQs, reading some stuff to put acid on my wounds. Why do I have to be like this? Why am I torturing myself like this? Why am I into self improvement? I want this beautiful life, but man, fuck, the gym isn't even difficult at the moment. These inner issues bottling up is what's making me spiritually claustrophobic, I just want to curl up into the fetal position and go to bed.
Sorry guys.
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Hydro
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Interesting thought, but I wonder if physical masturbation and mental masturbation are related........
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Zug
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SS is real good, but it has some stuff that makes no sense. I followed it verbatim for a long time. When my bench was 320, my arms looked like nothing. I started adding in curls and lying triceps extensions twice a week each, and put 2 inches on my arm in 3 months...while dieting.
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bonzo34
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Keep going man
dating
resolve job/income
Be an Army Officer
50 lays. 1/50
The first time you quit, it's hard. The second time, it gets easier. The third time, you don't even have to think about it.
be transparent as possible. Stop setting plays. Stop playing chess with life.
you make progress when you face a fear head on
resolve job/income
Be an Army Officer
50 lays. 1/50
The first time you quit, it's hard. The second time, it gets easier. The third time, you don't even have to think about it.
be transparent as possible. Stop setting plays. Stop playing chess with life.
you make progress when you face a fear head on