Spider’s Progress Log 🕷 DAY 366: Continuation Log Link ⛓️
- Spider Jerusalem
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Day 296: 02/08/2022
LAY 14 American Cougar
Fucked the American Cougar I met in Amsterdam this morning
Tried to get on her last night, but we were both too tired
Woke up next to her this morning and Fucked her
Started off playing with her tits and nipples which are hypersensitive which got her moaning and then I went down on her - she was making this face:
I then Fucked her on her side then missionary - she was dripping wet
For my own peace of mind, I used a condom every time and this girl is on birth control
That’s Lay 14 in the bag
I’ll try get on her again later
I’m off to a coffeeshop now to get high
I’ll post on here of anything of note tomorrow
Thanks for reading
Spider 🕷
LAY 14 American Cougar
Fucked the American Cougar I met in Amsterdam this morning
Tried to get on her last night, but we were both too tired
Woke up next to her this morning and Fucked her
Started off playing with her tits and nipples which are hypersensitive which got her moaning and then I went down on her - she was making this face:
I then Fucked her on her side then missionary - she was dripping wet
For my own peace of mind, I used a condom every time and this girl is on birth control
That’s Lay 14 in the bag
I’ll try get on her again later
I’m off to a coffeeshop now to get high
I’ll post on here of anything of note tomorrow
Thanks for reading
Spider 🕷
- Spider Jerusalem
- Posts: 1166 | Thanks: 562
- Joined: Mon Oct 11, 2021 9:51 am
- Name: Spider
- Goal: Get Big. Get Dangerous.
- Age: 28
- Motto: YOU'RE GONNA CARRY THAT WEIGHT.
- Location: Thailand (I Wish!)
Sexual Tyranny and Gum Infection
Sexual Tyranny
So my FWB I’ve been hanging with has turned into a bit of a sexual tyrant I get her off and instead of her returning the favour, she goes back to sleep
I’m a dumb Motherfucker for getting myself into this position Doesn’t help when there’s all these beautiful Dutch women walking around in not much clothing as there’s a heatwave going on here
If anything positive from this situation can be taken? This kinda bullshit is making me want to improve myself to a point where I’m attractive enough that I don’t have to put up with this bollocks
I’m trying to use this as a way of lighting a fire under my ass to drive me to self-improve to the point I can achieve ‘elite’ status
Gum Infection
To make matters worse? I’ve had to go to a dentist here as my gum is infected again I’m in agony and can only chew on one side of my mouth
It’s cost me money and time out of my vacation to get this sorted
I’m hoping tomorrow goes better
Thanks for reading
Spider 🕷
Sexual Tyranny
So my FWB I’ve been hanging with has turned into a bit of a sexual tyrant I get her off and instead of her returning the favour, she goes back to sleep
I’m a dumb Motherfucker for getting myself into this position Doesn’t help when there’s all these beautiful Dutch women walking around in not much clothing as there’s a heatwave going on here
If anything positive from this situation can be taken? This kinda bullshit is making me want to improve myself to a point where I’m attractive enough that I don’t have to put up with this bollocks
I’m trying to use this as a way of lighting a fire under my ass to drive me to self-improve to the point I can achieve ‘elite’ status
Gum Infection
To make matters worse? I’ve had to go to a dentist here as my gum is infected again I’m in agony and can only chew on one side of my mouth
It’s cost me money and time out of my vacation to get this sorted
I’m hoping tomorrow goes better
Thanks for reading
Spider 🕷
- Spider Jerusalem
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- Joined: Mon Oct 11, 2021 9:51 am
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- Age: 28
- Motto: YOU'RE GONNA CARRY THAT WEIGHT.
- Location: Thailand (I Wish!)
Day 298: 04/08/2022
Dutch Women are Beautiful 🫦
Every time I take a walk down the street here, I quite literally fall in love
The women here are beautiful. I look at the type of chicks back home and there’s just no comparison at all
I look at the guys these chicks are with too - tall, well built, well-dressed and with a look of ‘I’m successful…’
I’d like to come back here again at some point (3rd time lucky) when I’ve self-improved enough maybe for 2 weeks or so and game the hell out of Tinder
I think there’s opportunity here to get laid with 7’s, 8’s and 9’s if you have your shit together
Lots of good-looking foreign chicks here too
I’m going to look at coming back here in 2-3 years, book a place for 2 weeks and see how many times I can get laid
Thanks for reading
Spider 🕷
Dutch Women are Beautiful 🫦
Every time I take a walk down the street here, I quite literally fall in love
The women here are beautiful. I look at the type of chicks back home and there’s just no comparison at all
I look at the guys these chicks are with too - tall, well built, well-dressed and with a look of ‘I’m successful…’
I’d like to come back here again at some point (3rd time lucky) when I’ve self-improved enough maybe for 2 weeks or so and game the hell out of Tinder
I think there’s opportunity here to get laid with 7’s, 8’s and 9’s if you have your shit together
Lots of good-looking foreign chicks here too
I’m going to look at coming back here in 2-3 years, book a place for 2 weeks and see how many times I can get laid
Thanks for reading
Spider 🕷
- Spider Jerusalem
- Posts: 1166 | Thanks: 562
- Joined: Mon Oct 11, 2021 9:51 am
- Name: Spider
- Goal: Get Big. Get Dangerous.
- Age: 28
- Motto: YOU'RE GONNA CARRY THAT WEIGHT.
- Location: Thailand (I Wish!)
Day 299: 05/08/2022
Hard Lesson: FWB Shows True Colours
Well boys, I’m a Fucking idiot
My vacation has pretty much gone to shit at this point because the girl I’ve gone with has been a complete Fucking nightmare
Not only has she been a sexual tyrant, this chick has been getting drunk, high and stupid every night smoking weed, drinking heavy and eating Space Cakes - all at the same time
This has kept her up until sometimes 5 every morning watching tv, disturbing me, just being a nuisance etc. so I haven’t been getting any sleep - she’s been shouting at me to ‘wake up’ etc. when I’m trying to sleep as she ‘doesn’t want to be high alone…’.
This means she doesn’t get out of bed until at least 12 in the afternoon most days when the day’s wasted 🗑 I like to get up early, so this morning I did that and went off by myself
She woke at 12, asked me where I was. I’m an honest guy and got nothing to hide, so I said ‘I’m just by the Red Light District’…
Then she goes Fucking apeshit.
I’ve been accused of Fucking prostitutes left right and centre, been called a ‘creep’, and she’s pretty much been just vile to me
I’m not married or in a relationship of any kind with this Fucking bitch and she thinks she can get pissy with me and try to tell me where I can and can’t go? She can Fuck right off
This isn’t the 1st time I’ve noticed this and there has been these Red Flags whilst we’ve been here:
- She’s obnoxious and racist - uses the N word a lot and is convinced the ‘sneaky Dutch’ are trying to scam her at every turn
- She’s got a severe drug and alcohol problem - this week has shown this
- We’ve had sex once. Not that I want to anymore as I’m totally put off her now
- She’s tried to control me by getting arsey when I go somewhere, see someone or do something she ‘doesn’t approve of’
- Called me a ‘creep’ for looking at naked female paintings at an art exhibit she wanted to Fucking go to.
- She’s pissed off about the room (which she booked) not meeting her expectations and still took it out on me
- She’s gone on and on about how she’s an ‘Alpha Female’ I.e ‘I’m a complete an utter Fucking Bitch if you don’t do what I say and now to my every whim…’
We’re currently avoiding each other, but we’re both here until the 7th and fly back together Planned to stay over in London, but Fuck that. I’m getting the train straight back home and she can please herself
One thing I have done is grab my Passport out the room - you don’t know what this girl might try.
I’ve been looking at other hotels and flights home as at this point, my vacation is pretty much over and done with thanks to this bitch. It’s a lotta money to do either, so I’ll have that as a last resort
Supposed to be my graduation present to myself. All that money wasted because of this obnoxious twat
I blame myself for getting myself into this position though really. Guess you don’t truly know someone until you spend time living with them
Couple of lessons I’m taking from this
- I am now no longer going to date or Fuck anyone Older than me. This ‘I’m an Alpha Female Controlling Bitch’ attitude is rife amongst the 30 plus wall hitters I’ve been hanging around with the past year or so and has caused me nothing but problems
- I am never going on vacation with anyone who isn’t my girlfriend and in a committed relationship with me
- I need to improve myself to the point I can attract more submissive, feminine and agreeable women who won’t pull this bullshit on me
Sorry for the rant, but I’m pissed off about this big time.
Roll on 3 Days
Thanks for Reading
Spider 🕷
Hard Lesson: FWB Shows True Colours
Well boys, I’m a Fucking idiot
My vacation has pretty much gone to shit at this point because the girl I’ve gone with has been a complete Fucking nightmare
Not only has she been a sexual tyrant, this chick has been getting drunk, high and stupid every night smoking weed, drinking heavy and eating Space Cakes - all at the same time
This has kept her up until sometimes 5 every morning watching tv, disturbing me, just being a nuisance etc. so I haven’t been getting any sleep - she’s been shouting at me to ‘wake up’ etc. when I’m trying to sleep as she ‘doesn’t want to be high alone…’.
This means she doesn’t get out of bed until at least 12 in the afternoon most days when the day’s wasted 🗑 I like to get up early, so this morning I did that and went off by myself
She woke at 12, asked me where I was. I’m an honest guy and got nothing to hide, so I said ‘I’m just by the Red Light District’…
Then she goes Fucking apeshit.
I’ve been accused of Fucking prostitutes left right and centre, been called a ‘creep’, and she’s pretty much been just vile to me
I’m not married or in a relationship of any kind with this Fucking bitch and she thinks she can get pissy with me and try to tell me where I can and can’t go? She can Fuck right off
This isn’t the 1st time I’ve noticed this and there has been these Red Flags whilst we’ve been here:
- She’s obnoxious and racist - uses the N word a lot and is convinced the ‘sneaky Dutch’ are trying to scam her at every turn
- She’s got a severe drug and alcohol problem - this week has shown this
- We’ve had sex once. Not that I want to anymore as I’m totally put off her now
- She’s tried to control me by getting arsey when I go somewhere, see someone or do something she ‘doesn’t approve of’
- Called me a ‘creep’ for looking at naked female paintings at an art exhibit she wanted to Fucking go to.
- She’s pissed off about the room (which she booked) not meeting her expectations and still took it out on me
- She’s gone on and on about how she’s an ‘Alpha Female’ I.e ‘I’m a complete an utter Fucking Bitch if you don’t do what I say and now to my every whim…’
We’re currently avoiding each other, but we’re both here until the 7th and fly back together Planned to stay over in London, but Fuck that. I’m getting the train straight back home and she can please herself
One thing I have done is grab my Passport out the room - you don’t know what this girl might try.
I’ve been looking at other hotels and flights home as at this point, my vacation is pretty much over and done with thanks to this bitch. It’s a lotta money to do either, so I’ll have that as a last resort
Supposed to be my graduation present to myself. All that money wasted because of this obnoxious twat
I blame myself for getting myself into this position though really. Guess you don’t truly know someone until you spend time living with them
Couple of lessons I’m taking from this
- I am now no longer going to date or Fuck anyone Older than me. This ‘I’m an Alpha Female Controlling Bitch’ attitude is rife amongst the 30 plus wall hitters I’ve been hanging around with the past year or so and has caused me nothing but problems
- I am never going on vacation with anyone who isn’t my girlfriend and in a committed relationship with me
- I need to improve myself to the point I can attract more submissive, feminine and agreeable women who won’t pull this bullshit on me
Sorry for the rant, but I’m pissed off about this big time.
Roll on 3 Days
Thanks for Reading
Spider 🕷
- Brother_Tucker
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- Motto: My life is awesome, what's your excuse?
Sort out your own hotel room, fire up tinder and enjoy the rest of your trip without the American or just head home. You can always make more money and meet new girls, you cant get the time back though. This time is a gift to you so in this rare case, put yourself first and stop giving your time to a damaged person and enjoy the holiday you signed up for or get home.Spider Jerusalem wrote: ↑Fri Aug 05, 2022 2:09 pmDay 299: 05/08/2022
Hard Lesson: FWB Shows True Colours
Well boys, I’m a Fucking idiot
My vacation has pretty much gone to shit at this point because the girl I’ve gone with has been a complete Fucking nightmare
Not only has she been a sexual tyrant, this chick has been getting drunk, high and stupid every night smoking weed, drinking heavy and eating Space Cakes - all at the same time
This has kept her up until sometimes 5 every morning watching tv, disturbing me, just being a nuisance etc. so I haven’t been getting any sleep - she’s been shouting at me to ‘wake up’ etc. when I’m trying to sleep as she ‘doesn’t want to be high alone…’.
This means she doesn’t get out of bed until at least 12 in the afternoon most days when the day’s wasted 🗑 I like to get up early, so this morning I did that and went off by myself
She woke at 12, asked me where I was. I’m an honest guy and got nothing to hide, so I said ‘I’m just by the Red Light District’…
Then she goes Fucking apeshit.
I’ve been accused of Fucking prostitutes left right and centre, been called a ‘creep’, and she’s pretty much been just vile to me
I’m not married or in a relationship of any kind with this Fucking bitch and she thinks she can get pissy with me and try to tell me where I can and can’t go? She can Fuck right off
This isn’t the 1st time I’ve noticed this and there has been these Red Flags whilst we’ve been here:
- She’s obnoxious and racist - uses the N word a lot and is convinced the ‘sneaky Dutch’ are trying to scam her at every turn
- She’s got a severe drug and alcohol problem - this week has shown this
- We’ve had sex once. Not that I want to anymore as I’m totally put off her now
- She’s tried to control me by getting arsey when I go somewhere, see someone or do something she ‘doesn’t approve of’
- Called me a ‘creep’ for looking at naked female paintings at an art exhibit she wanted to Fucking go to.
- She’s pissed off about the room (which she booked) not meeting her expectations and still took it out on me
- She’s gone on and on about how she’s an ‘Alpha Female’ I.e ‘I’m a complete an utter Fucking Bitch if you don’t do what I say and now to my every whim…’
We’re currently avoiding each other, but we’re both here until the 7th and fly back together Planned to stay over in London, but Fuck that. I’m getting the train straight back home and she can please herself
One thing I have done is grab my Passport out the room - you don’t know what this girl might try.
I’ve been looking at other hotels and flights home as at this point, my vacation is pretty much over and done with thanks to this bitch. It’s a lotta money to do either, so I’ll have that as a last resort
Supposed to be my graduation present to myself. All that money wasted because of this obnoxious twat
I blame myself for getting myself into this position though really. Guess you don’t truly know someone until you spend time living with them
Couple of lessons I’m taking from this
- I am now no longer going to date or Fuck anyone Older than me. This ‘I’m an Alpha Female Controlling Bitch’ attitude is rife amongst the 30 plus wall hitters I’ve been hanging around with the past year or so and has caused me nothing but problems
- I am never going on vacation with anyone who isn’t my girlfriend and in a committed relationship with me
- I need to improve myself to the point I can attract more submissive, feminine and agreeable women who won’t pull this bullshit on me
Sorry for the rant, but I’m pissed off about this big time.
Roll on 3 Days
Thanks for Reading
Spider 🕷
It's unfortunate you had this experience, I know you were looking forward to it for a long time. The rules are there to stop stuff like this happening to you where you end up trapped somewhere you don't want to be. Follow the rules we talked about in your DMs and never put yourself in a place where you cant walk away.
I do have to ask about the sexual tyranny thing, it sounds like you both had sex? Or you did other stuff and she went back to sleep? It's a little unclear. There is an abundance of girls out there, if she behaves this way that's totally fine, you just stop giving her time and attention and enjoy the rest of the holiday without her. Do not for one second feel guilty about leaving her and enjoying the rest of your life. Just write this one off as a bad experience and find a way to make the rest of your holiday a positive one. You don't even need to speak to her. Just make a booking at another place, go get your stuff and leave. Sure being able to explain why your leaving will sound like its the right thing to do but fuck that you don't owe this person anything. Value your fucking time, because no one else will if you don't.
Next update, either you made your way home or you sorted out another hotel. Anything else is an excuse and your better than that.
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- AskTheDom
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- Age: 38
- Motto: Alea iacta est
I absolutely sponsor this advice: time is limited as well as your mental energies in any day, why poison yourself?Brother_Tucker wrote: ↑Fri Aug 05, 2022 3:43 pmSort out your own hotel room, fire up tinder and enjoy the rest of your trip without the American or just head home. You can always make more money and meet new girls, you cant get the time back though. This time is a gift to you so in this rare case, put yourself first and stop giving your time to a damaged person and enjoy the holiday you signed up for or get home.Spider Jerusalem wrote: ↑Fri Aug 05, 2022 2:09 pmDay 299: 05/08/2022
Hard Lesson: FWB Shows True Colours
Well boys, I’m a Fucking idiot
My vacation has pretty much gone to shit at this point because the girl I’ve gone with has been a complete Fucking nightmare
Not only has she been a sexual tyrant, this chick has been getting drunk, high and stupid every night smoking weed, drinking heavy and eating Space Cakes - all at the same time
This has kept her up until sometimes 5 every morning watching tv, disturbing me, just being a nuisance etc. so I haven’t been getting any sleep - she’s been shouting at me to ‘wake up’ etc. when I’m trying to sleep as she ‘doesn’t want to be high alone…’.
This means she doesn’t get out of bed until at least 12 in the afternoon most days when the day’s wasted 🗑 I like to get up early, so this morning I did that and went off by myself
She woke at 12, asked me where I was. I’m an honest guy and got nothing to hide, so I said ‘I’m just by the Red Light District’…
Then she goes Fucking apeshit.
I’ve been accused of Fucking prostitutes left right and centre, been called a ‘creep’, and she’s pretty much been just vile to me
I’m not married or in a relationship of any kind with this Fucking bitch and she thinks she can get pissy with me and try to tell me where I can and can’t go? She can Fuck right off
This isn’t the 1st time I’ve noticed this and there has been these Red Flags whilst we’ve been here:
- She’s obnoxious and racist - uses the N word a lot and is convinced the ‘sneaky Dutch’ are trying to scam her at every turn
- She’s got a severe drug and alcohol problem - this week has shown this
- We’ve had sex once. Not that I want to anymore as I’m totally put off her now
- She’s tried to control me by getting arsey when I go somewhere, see someone or do something she ‘doesn’t approve of’
- Called me a ‘creep’ for looking at naked female paintings at an art exhibit she wanted to Fucking go to.
- She’s pissed off about the room (which she booked) not meeting her expectations and still took it out on me
- She’s gone on and on about how she’s an ‘Alpha Female’ I.e ‘I’m a complete an utter Fucking Bitch if you don’t do what I say and now to my every whim…’
We’re currently avoiding each other, but we’re both here until the 7th and fly back together Planned to stay over in London, but Fuck that. I’m getting the train straight back home and she can please herself
One thing I have done is grab my Passport out the room - you don’t know what this girl might try.
I’ve been looking at other hotels and flights home as at this point, my vacation is pretty much over and done with thanks to this bitch. It’s a lotta money to do either, so I’ll have that as a last resort
Supposed to be my graduation present to myself. All that money wasted because of this obnoxious twat
I blame myself for getting myself into this position though really. Guess you don’t truly know someone until you spend time living with them
Couple of lessons I’m taking from this
- I am now no longer going to date or Fuck anyone Older than me. This ‘I’m an Alpha Female Controlling Bitch’ attitude is rife amongst the 30 plus wall hitters I’ve been hanging around with the past year or so and has caused me nothing but problems
- I am never going on vacation with anyone who isn’t my girlfriend and in a committed relationship with me
- I need to improve myself to the point I can attract more submissive, feminine and agreeable women who won’t pull this bullshit on me
Sorry for the rant, but I’m pissed off about this big time.
Roll on 3 Days
Thanks for Reading
Spider 🕷
It's unfortunate you had this experience, I know you were looking forward to it for a long time. The rules are there to stop stuff like this happening to you where you end up trapped somewhere you don't want to be. Follow the rules we talked about in your DMs and never put yourself in a place where you cant walk away.
I do have to ask about the sexual tyranny thing, it sounds like you both had sex? Or you did other stuff and she went back to sleep? It's a little unclear. There is an abundance of girls out there, if she behaves this way that's totally fine, you just stop giving her time and attention and enjoy the rest of the holiday without her. Do not for one second feel guilty about leaving her and enjoying the rest of your life. Just write this one off as a bad experience and find a way to make the rest of your holiday a positive one. You don't even need to speak to her. Just make a booking at another place, go get your stuff and leave. Sure being able to explain why your leaving will sound like its the right thing to do but fuck that you don't owe this person anything. Value your fucking time, because no one else will if you don't.
Next update, either you made your way home or you sorted out another hotel. Anything else is an excuse and your better than that.
Pack your stuff, get to a nice shared room or hostel if you are low on funds and ENJOY LIFE (you know you will die one day so it's up to you make it memorable till that moment)
Pretty much else you figured out by yourself, when a woman tells me "i'm an alpha woman" (and btw this is prevalent in the anglo sphere world) i laugh and say good bye - as a Dom one of the first things you learn is the difference between Dominant and Domineering, One set boundaries and creates a safe space in which the sub gets fulfilled, the other uses abuse and manipulation for their own pleasure. Which is exactly what this person is trying to pull off.
I repeat again - L E A V E T H E R O O M N O W -
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- Spider Jerusalem
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Day 300: 06/08/2022
Spider Finds His Balls and Ditches a Bitch
Day 300 today and I’m manning up big time.
Thank you to @Brother_Tucker amd @AskTheDom for both of your input on my log yesterday
I’m staying somewhere else tonight and I’m catching a direct flight home tomorrow
Had to stay last night due to some logistical problems which again was a Fucking nightmare that couldn’t be avoided 🗑
Not putting up with this chick’s bullshit anymore.
Currently sat in a Coffeeshop getting high, chilling out and enjoying my last day
I’d post more but I’m still in a pretty shitty mood because of everything going on
Just trying to enjoy the rest of my day and forget about it.
Thanks for reading
Spider 🕷
Spider Finds His Balls and Ditches a Bitch
Day 300 today and I’m manning up big time.
Thank you to @Brother_Tucker amd @AskTheDom for both of your input on my log yesterday
I’m staying somewhere else tonight and I’m catching a direct flight home tomorrow
Had to stay last night due to some logistical problems which again was a Fucking nightmare that couldn’t be avoided 🗑
Not putting up with this chick’s bullshit anymore.
Currently sat in a Coffeeshop getting high, chilling out and enjoying my last day
I’d post more but I’m still in a pretty shitty mood because of everything going on
Just trying to enjoy the rest of my day and forget about it.
Thanks for reading
Spider 🕷
- Adam
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Good job getting yourself out of that situation
2022 Goals:
(1) Get Abs
(2) Get to 15 lifetime lays (currently at 10)
(3) Move to a new city with lots of single girls - DONE 6/12
(1) Get Abs
(2) Get to 15 lifetime lays (currently at 10)
(3) Move to a new city with lots of single girls - DONE 6/12
- Spider Jerusalem
- Posts: 1166 | Thanks: 562
- Joined: Mon Oct 11, 2021 9:51 am
- Name: Spider
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- Age: 28
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- Location: Thailand (I Wish!)
Day 301: 07/08/2022
Back in the U.K - Reflections on the Past Week
I got home early this morning after booking an earlier flight due to the behaviour of my so-called 'Friend'
I'm so glad to be home honestly. I'm currently sat here and I'm quite sombre. Currently in a state of reflection over what happened the past week
There were a couple of things I weren't going to mention out of shame, but Fuck it, it's my log and I got nothing to hide:
This girl got drunk and hit me the other night. She also started calling me a 'pussy' etc. when I refused to have sex with her because she was drunk (due to previous bad experiences I refused and I’m not one to Fuck a girl when consent is a grey area)
That's what pushed me to pack my shit there and then and Fuck off
My phone has been pinging with messages from her.
Boo hoo hoo. Couldn't care less
Blocked her on everything
There are many reasons why I'm upset about what happened:
- I've known this girl 5 years + and I even met her parents
- This vacation cost me about £1200 in total
- It's my last vacation for a long time due to financial concerns R.E. the Cost of Living Crisis
- Following on from the above, She's got a good job and makes 72k a year, whereas I work in a shop
- I was accused of 'abandoning her' and never being there for her. Classic gaslighting
- She was pretending to have panic attacks when she realised I was leaving
- I was going to go on my own. Kinda wish I had
- Saw many happy couples together
- Saw many beautiful women (Dutch women are beautiful)
She just made me feel helpless, weak and pathetic. Even went as far as to mocking my anxiety and insecurities so I’m in a bit of a dark place 🕳
I'm gonna leave it there for today
I'm absolutely beat after travelling and I haven't exactly been in the best of moods. Trains aren't exactly ideal when you are trying to avoid thinking about things
Again, many thanks to @AskTheDom, @Brother_Tucker and @Adam for the support. I will reply to your posts with further details tomorrow - please accept my apologies for not getting back to your points in a punctual manner, it's just been a really shitty couple of days.
Thanks for Reading
Spider 🕷
Back in the U.K - Reflections on the Past Week
I got home early this morning after booking an earlier flight due to the behaviour of my so-called 'Friend'
I'm so glad to be home honestly. I'm currently sat here and I'm quite sombre. Currently in a state of reflection over what happened the past week
There were a couple of things I weren't going to mention out of shame, but Fuck it, it's my log and I got nothing to hide:
This girl got drunk and hit me the other night. She also started calling me a 'pussy' etc. when I refused to have sex with her because she was drunk (due to previous bad experiences I refused and I’m not one to Fuck a girl when consent is a grey area)
That's what pushed me to pack my shit there and then and Fuck off
My phone has been pinging with messages from her.
Boo hoo hoo. Couldn't care less
Blocked her on everything
There are many reasons why I'm upset about what happened:
- I've known this girl 5 years + and I even met her parents
- This vacation cost me about £1200 in total
- It's my last vacation for a long time due to financial concerns R.E. the Cost of Living Crisis
- Following on from the above, She's got a good job and makes 72k a year, whereas I work in a shop
- I was accused of 'abandoning her' and never being there for her. Classic gaslighting
- She was pretending to have panic attacks when she realised I was leaving
- I was going to go on my own. Kinda wish I had
- Saw many happy couples together
- Saw many beautiful women (Dutch women are beautiful)
She just made me feel helpless, weak and pathetic. Even went as far as to mocking my anxiety and insecurities so I’m in a bit of a dark place 🕳
I'm gonna leave it there for today
I'm absolutely beat after travelling and I haven't exactly been in the best of moods. Trains aren't exactly ideal when you are trying to avoid thinking about things
Again, many thanks to @AskTheDom, @Brother_Tucker and @Adam for the support. I will reply to your posts with further details tomorrow - please accept my apologies for not getting back to your points in a punctual manner, it's just been a really shitty couple of days.
Thanks for Reading
Spider 🕷
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Hey Buddy,
I understand the shame you felt BUT massive congrats on taking responsibility for everything and doing what is best for you.
It's normal to be pissed and you have every right to do so, although I would consider this 1200 gbp you spent as a PHD in relationship dynamics. My only advise is to not waste the lesson and learn that when you spot a red flag, the "time to bail" clock starts ticking.
One last thing "Saw many beautiful women (Dutch women are beautiful)" - there are plenty of beautiful women all around the world. Focus on yourself for now and to give your best self the best chances possibles to have a great life
I understand the shame you felt BUT massive congrats on taking responsibility for everything and doing what is best for you.
It's normal to be pissed and you have every right to do so, although I would consider this 1200 gbp you spent as a PHD in relationship dynamics. My only advise is to not waste the lesson and learn that when you spot a red flag, the "time to bail" clock starts ticking.
One last thing "Saw many beautiful women (Dutch women are beautiful)" - there are plenty of beautiful women all around the world. Focus on yourself for now and to give your best self the best chances possibles to have a great life
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@Brother_TuckerBrother_Tucker wrote: ↑Fri Aug 05, 2022 3:43 pmSort out your own hotel room, fire up tinder and enjoy the rest of your trip without the American or just head home. You can always make more money and meet new girls, you cant get the time back though. This time is a gift to you so in this rare case, put yourself first and stop giving your time to a damaged person and enjoy the holiday you signed up for or get home.
It's unfortunate you had this experience, I know you were looking forward to it for a long time. The rules are there to stop stuff like this happening to you where you end up trapped somewhere you don't want to be. Follow the rules we talked about in your DMs and never put yourself in a place where you cant walk away.
I do have to ask about the sexual tyranny thing, it sounds like you both had sex? Or you did other stuff and she went back to sleep? It's a little unclear. There is an abundance of girls out there, if she behaves this way that's totally fine, you just stop giving her time and attention and enjoy the rest of the holiday without her. Do not for one second feel guilty about leaving her and enjoying the rest of your life. Just write this one off as a bad experience and find a way to make the rest of your holiday a positive one. You don't even need to speak to her. Just make a booking at another place, go get your stuff and leave. Sure being able to explain why your leaving will sound like its the right thing to do but fuck that you don't owe this person anything. Value your fucking time, because no one else will if you don't.
Next update, either you made your way home or you sorted out another hotel. Anything else is an excuse and your better than that.
Thank you for the advice it was much appreciated.
I took it on by getting another room for myself and flying back early on my own as the vacation was pretty much Fucked.
As regards to the sexual tyranny aspect, I'd make her come by going down on her then she'd say 'Oh I'm going to sleep now...' or I'd try and initiate things and she'd get all shitty 'I need space...' and 'wait for me to initiate things...'.
She was just a complete Fucking bitch about it the whole time. She was going on about it in the months up how she's bought new lingerie and 'can't wait to Fuck me...' etc. etc.
In reality we had sex twice the whole 5 Days and even then it felt like it was begrudging 'duty sex'.
It's really shown how she truly felt towards me and the lack of respect and her attitude is just disgusting upon reflection.
Think she saw me as a doormat, so I'm glad that I just packed my shit and went out the door.
Thanks again
Spider
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@AskTheDomAskTheDom wrote: ↑Fri Aug 05, 2022 8:52 pmI absolutely sponsor this advice: time is limited as well as your mental energies in any day, why poison yourself?
Pack your stuff, get to a nice shared room or hostel if you are low on funds and ENJOY LIFE (you know you will die one day so it's up to you make it memorable till that moment)
Pretty much else you figured out by yourself, when a woman tells me "i'm an alpha woman" (and btw this is prevalent in the anglo sphere world) i laugh and say good bye - as a Dom one of the first things you learn is the difference between Dominant and Domineering, One set boundaries and creates a safe space in which the sub gets fulfilled, the other uses abuse and manipulation for their own pleasure. Which is exactly what this person is trying to pull off.
I repeat again - L E A V E T H E R O O M N O W -
Thanks for the input my man
Totally get this. All my life I've been guilty of putting other people first which leaves me unfulfilled and unsatisfied.
I don't think women know how to be truly dominant because they aren't hardwired for it, so they come off with this fake 'I'm just like a man' machismo which is toxic and dangerous. Saw a lot of that this week and it was like I had an epiphany.
I took your advice and got out - thank you for taking the time to drop in and help me out it's much appreciated. I value the input of an experienced guy such as yourself.
Thanks again
Spider
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Spider, sorry this happened man. This really sucks.
We in our culture are quick to admonish men for being toxic, for destroying culture and civilisation.
We're not able to criticise women for any of their actions. It's mysogynistic. Therein lies the problem: there is no corrective mechanism for awful female behaviour.
Whatever they do, and however they want, someone will reward them for it.
So you simply forget they exist and move onto the next. Blocked on all platforms like you did. And that's that.
Well done!
MAC
We in our culture are quick to admonish men for being toxic, for destroying culture and civilisation.
We're not able to criticise women for any of their actions. It's mysogynistic. Therein lies the problem: there is no corrective mechanism for awful female behaviour.
Whatever they do, and however they want, someone will reward them for it.
So you simply forget they exist and move onto the next. Blocked on all platforms like you did. And that's that.
Well done!
MAC
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@MakingAComebackMakingAComeback wrote: ↑Mon Aug 08, 2022 8:27 amSpider, sorry this happened man. This really sucks.
We in our culture are quick to admonish men for being toxic, for destroying culture and civilisation.
We're not able to criticise women for any of their actions. It's mysogynistic. Therein lies the problem: there is no corrective mechanism for awful female behaviour.
Whatever they do, and however they want, someone will reward them for it.
So you simply forget they exist and move onto the next. Blocked on all platforms like you did. And that's that.
Well done!
MAC
Thanks Mac
Appreciate you dropping by and dropping me some words of encouragement
Definitely a deeper cultural issue one which I believe lies therein fact that men have no inherent value compared to women and children who are valued for just existing - think the Titanic Lifeboat analogy: 'Women and Children first'.
I'm now at the stage where I've decided not to reward shitty behaviour. I coulda simped, stuck around and tried to fix things, but I thought 'Nah.' Packed my shit and went out the door. I'm going to try to become this 'corrective mechanism' that you speak of.
Probably be some other chump lining up to put up with her bullshit and reward her shitty behaviour which is fine - long as it's not me.
Thanks again man - always good to see you
Spider
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Day 302: 08/08/2022
New Quest Added - Toxic Waste!
I came across an interesting article on the internet recently regarding self-improvement and video games 🕹 I was also watching the Jocko Podcast on YouTube where he said he sees challenges in life as a 'game' and that he's here to win and, quite literally, ‘crush it’
I'm a massive Fallout Fan Minus Fallout 76 of course, which was a Fucking Dumpster Fire 🗑
So I came up with the idea of treating my self-improvement like Fallout-Themed Quests 🗺 Every Quest I complete nets me experience points (xp) as well as an award which helps keep me motivated to continue - much like in Fallout
I've started designing these 'Quests' on the notes app. on my phone so I can easily access them and rock and roll anytime - much like in the 'Pip-Boy' in the actual game (a computer on your wrist that you can access anytime to check your quest progress)
I was thinking about what my first 'Quest' could be, when I came up with the perfect idea in light of how I've been treated the past couple of days
Toxic Waste!
See below for what's in the ‘Notes’ app. on my phone:
Toxic Waste!
Oh no! You’ve been exposed to toxic ’friends!’ It’s time to clean house and take out the trash: End your association with 'The American Girl', block her on everything and cleanse your phone book. Dump the toxic waste where it belongs! 🗑
Quest Completed!
Reward:
Advance to the next level and toast your newfound freedom with an ice-cold glass bottle of coke!
100xp
Glass Bottle of Coke
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What spurred me to do this was this chick sent me a message on 'PayPal' because I blocked her on everything else
It's obvious she's pissed I'm not giving her what she wants and just Fucked off and left her.
Good.
So this Quest is called 'Toxic Waste! ' Because that's how I see this chick and that's where she belongs - dumped in the trash. I've now blocked her on everything and erased all trace from my phone, so I've marked this 'Quest' as completed
I've used a photo of the 'Vault Boy' from Fallout in a Toxic Waste Barrell as the 'Quest Icon'. There are loads of Vault-Boy pictures on the Internet, so I'll almost always be able to find one relating to whatever 'Quest' I am on to use as the icon on my phone
Chose to reward myself with xp (so I've now moved up to Level 2) and an Ice Cold Glass Bottle of Coke to enjoy later on, as I don't drink alcohol
I've also played the 'Fallout Level Up' Theme to give me a sense of achievement once I'd done it
Might seem a bit silly, but I'm feeling like it's working. If it helps, it helps
I'll put the next Quest on in due course and update. I'll try to come up with a new one every 2-3 Days and post it on here along with a 'reward' which I'll give myself to keep me motivated
Thanks for reading
Spider🕷
New Quest Added - Toxic Waste!
I came across an interesting article on the internet recently regarding self-improvement and video games 🕹 I was also watching the Jocko Podcast on YouTube where he said he sees challenges in life as a 'game' and that he's here to win and, quite literally, ‘crush it’
I'm a massive Fallout Fan Minus Fallout 76 of course, which was a Fucking Dumpster Fire 🗑
So I came up with the idea of treating my self-improvement like Fallout-Themed Quests 🗺 Every Quest I complete nets me experience points (xp) as well as an award which helps keep me motivated to continue - much like in Fallout
I've started designing these 'Quests' on the notes app. on my phone so I can easily access them and rock and roll anytime - much like in the 'Pip-Boy' in the actual game (a computer on your wrist that you can access anytime to check your quest progress)
I was thinking about what my first 'Quest' could be, when I came up with the perfect idea in light of how I've been treated the past couple of days
Toxic Waste!
See below for what's in the ‘Notes’ app. on my phone:
Toxic Waste!
Oh no! You’ve been exposed to toxic ’friends!’ It’s time to clean house and take out the trash: End your association with 'The American Girl', block her on everything and cleanse your phone book. Dump the toxic waste where it belongs! 🗑
Quest Completed!
Reward:
Advance to the next level and toast your newfound freedom with an ice-cold glass bottle of coke!
100xp
Glass Bottle of Coke
----------------------------------------------------------------------------
What spurred me to do this was this chick sent me a message on 'PayPal' because I blocked her on everything else
It's obvious she's pissed I'm not giving her what she wants and just Fucked off and left her.
Good.
So this Quest is called 'Toxic Waste! ' Because that's how I see this chick and that's where she belongs - dumped in the trash. I've now blocked her on everything and erased all trace from my phone, so I've marked this 'Quest' as completed
I've used a photo of the 'Vault Boy' from Fallout in a Toxic Waste Barrell as the 'Quest Icon'. There are loads of Vault-Boy pictures on the Internet, so I'll almost always be able to find one relating to whatever 'Quest' I am on to use as the icon on my phone
Chose to reward myself with xp (so I've now moved up to Level 2) and an Ice Cold Glass Bottle of Coke to enjoy later on, as I don't drink alcohol
I've also played the 'Fallout Level Up' Theme to give me a sense of achievement once I'd done it
Might seem a bit silly, but I'm feeling like it's working. If it helps, it helps
I'll put the next Quest on in due course and update. I'll try to come up with a new one every 2-3 Days and post it on here along with a 'reward' which I'll give myself to keep me motivated
Thanks for reading
Spider🕷
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