Spider’s Progress Log 🕷 DAY 366: Continuation Log Link ⛓️

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Spider Jerusalem
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Fri Jul 22, 2022 11:36 am

AskTheDom wrote:
Fri Jul 22, 2022 11:17 am
hey @Spider Jerusalem

As my name suggests, this is a bit my field of play

You did absolutely right. especially the breath play, that is something that only very VERY experienced doms can do
@AskTheDom

Hey Dom! Thanks for the input my man

100%! I don't Fuck around with Breath play unless it's very, very light 'choking' with the thumb and forefinger on the sides of the neck to just give the feeling impression as per @Holden's reply above

Appreciate you dropping by!

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Fri Jul 22, 2022 12:41 pm

Spider Jerusalem wrote:
Fri Jul 22, 2022 8:38 am
Call me wary, but if this chick who'd already gone flakey on me suddenly decided she regretted last night, it would be pretty Fucking convincing if she had bruises all over her, rope marks on her ankles and wrists and choke marks all over her neck if she walked into a Fucking police station the next day and dropped the 'R word' 🚔
Yeah, that's a serious risk nowadays. You did well not to fuck her roughly.

Anyway, congrats for your new lay ! :)
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Fri Jul 22, 2022 1:14 pm

Yeah man you did the right thing. BDSM in general requires a lot of trust.

Congrats on the lay
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Sat Jul 23, 2022 5:37 pm

Day 286: 23/07/2022 ✅

Amsterdam Prep 💼 and Post-Lay Lethargy 😴

Been at work all day again today (I'm in all weekend). One thing I have managed to do is get some things ready for my vacation to Amsterdam next week ✈️

- Booked a Hotel for Sunday right next to the airport so I don't have to stress too much about travelling
- Packed my bag 💼
- Booked my Trains and Return coach back to my area for when I come home (Fucking train drivers going on strike!)
- Got some cash Euros spending money for when I'm there 💶

This is pretty much everything sorted now. Just gotta get through this bullshit week of work and I'll be all good 😎

Looking forward to getting high and clapping cheeks all week! 🌲 💨 🍑

Post-Lay Lethargy 😴

Yesterday was a bit of a struggle after seeing that Sexologist chick 👎

Just woke up feeling groggy and I literally did Fuck-all the whole day 😐

I went for a walk last night just to clear my head before I went to bed to try and alleviate it 🌘 Woke up feeling a bit crappy again today, but I'm hoping once I finish work I can come home and get a good night's sleep tonight 🛌

I think I need to start having things to look forward to and need to work harder at getting my life back on track. Think I'm going to bed too late, my diet is shit and I'm not exercising enough 👎

Probably doesn't help my anxiety living like this. I need to realise these are conscious lifestyle choices that I am making and I need to take some responsibility and step up 👊

I'm going to have a think on what I can implement when I get back from vacation and make a note on this log. I have a few ideas already in mind which I may make tomorrow's post about 📝

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Sat Jul 23, 2022 5:38 pm

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Sun Jul 24, 2022 5:52 pm

Day 287: 24/07/2022 ✅

Short-Term Goals: No-Fap 💡 Sleep 🛌 Jiu-Jitsu 🥋 Cardio 🏃🏻‍♂️ Reading 📖 The Gym 👟 Diet 🍽Money 💵

Now my mental health has been successfully managed, I've decided to make a list of a couple of short-term goals I want to get ticked off to get things back on track 📝

I feel this will be more manageable and easier for me to do ✅

A couple of things I've started now, but a few others I'll look at when I get back from Amsterdam in a couple of weeks 🔜

I've made a list on the 'Notes' app. on my phone so that I can keep track of these 📱

So far I've got:

- Re-Start No-Fap ✅ I'm on Day 2/90.
- Reset Sleep Schedule using Iphone App ✅ Schedule set for 21:00 Hrs - 05:00 Hrs. Daily.
- Start Jiu-Jitsu
- Cardio - Running
- Start Reading
- Get back in the Gym properly
- Start saving money again

I get back from vacation on the 7th, so that'll be the start date once I'm settled in. I also get paid on the 1st of July which is going to help me finance these goals 📅

No-Fap 💡

I've started No-Fap again 💡

I'm conscious I'm likely going to be getting laid pretty regularly with my American FWB for the week I'm in Amsterdam 🛌 so I started this now to help avoid any erection issues whilst I'm over there 🍆 In the past when I was fapping non-stop, I had a couple of very embarrassing situations where I simply couldn't perform 👎

On one occasion, I ended up with this girl who I had been crushing on for a while. Best looking girl I ever got with and I was totally out of her league and I just couldn't perform 🤦‍♂️

This is difficult to talk about, but that was one of the worst experiences of my life. I couldn't even look at her again in public after because I was so ashamed of myself 👎

I now carry Viagra (Sildenafil) as a backup, but at 27 years old, it bothers me probably a lot more than it should that I have to do this 💊

So that's my little story on No-Fap 📖

Sleep 🛌

I've reset my sleep pattern on iPhone to 21:00 Hrs. - 05:00 Hrs. 🌘

This is something I'll look at more when I'm back from Amsterdam as I'll be on vacation and I'm not really going to want to be getting up at 5 every morning as it won't be much of a holiday then really 🤷‍♂️

Start Jiu-Jitsu 🥋

I've found a local Jiu-Jitsu gym which is easier to get to than the one I used to train at. I went and checked it out after I finished work earlier on my way home. Looks pretty decent ✅

I could have chosen the Gym I used to train at, but I'll be straight up honest, I'm a bit embarrassed to go back. I had a panic attack due to COVID and worries about my parent's health last time I went and was out of pocket 100 bucks 💸I don't want to go back and be known/remembered as 'that guy' 😒

I'm going to ring the place up when I get back from Amsterdam. Pretty pointless starting it now before I'm about to go away for a week or 2. I'll book in for my first session which I think I get for free and post on here for accountability when I've done this 📝

Cardio 🏃🏻‍♂️

I'd also like to get a bit of Cardio in. Going to Jiu-Jitsu a couple times a week will help with this, but it wouldn't hurt to run 2/3 times a week either. Might do Couch to 5K or just start with some light jogs and then move onto it 🔜

Reading 📖

I was doing well with the reading earlier this year, but it kinda fell by the wayside a little which I'm disappointed in myself for 👎

I'm going to look at picking this back up and maybe reading for half hour a day - 15 minutes in the morning and 15 minutes at night or on my lunch break at work or something. Small start, but it'll add up over the course of weeks/months. Might even take a book with me to Amsterdam 📚

The Gym 👟

Did try and start this recently, but no luck due to one thing after the other: COVID, Fucked my Back up then work got busy 😣 Sick of making excuses on this one as it's been part of my main goal. Will address this when I get back as priority 💯

My P.T is all paid up for another round of sessions, so I've made the financial commitment 💰

Diet 🍽

I'm all stocked up on weight gainer shakes and protein bars. Bought a couple more recently and I have a good diet plan in place. Goes hand-in-hand with my gym goal above, so will do both of these at the same time. No use getting my workout in if I'm not fuelling my body properly 🍽

Money 💵

Made a bit of a deal with myself that once I'm back from Amsterdam, I'll be looking at grinding hard with the financial side of things 💰

This vacation has cost me a fair bit and I've decided the saving needs to start. Especially after taking a few months off work due to health reasons 🏥

On top of this, there is currently a cost of living crisis going on in my country as well as most of the world due to various bullshit. Everything seems to be going up from what I can see except for my Fucking wages of course! 🤦‍♂️

Couple of things I've noticed:

- Tinder prices have shot up including gold subscription cost, boosts and super-likes which you now get less of ⚡️
- Price of food has also shot up 💵
- Xbox Live have raised their monthly subscription cost 👎
- Transport costs have skyrocketed e.g. train tickets, petrol ⛽️

To get what I want and still save every month I have a plan 📈

What this will look like:

- Taking any overtime that becomes available ⏰
- Cutting down on my outgoings 💰
- Not driving as much due to fuel costs 🛑
- Focusing on my gym and diet expenses as the 1 main hobby 'expenditure(s)'
- Taking a back seat on everything else - dating and dating sites, going out, meals, takeaways etc. (adios Tinder Gold!) 👋

I'm hopeful that after 6 months of following these goals and committing to them, I'll be in a much better place economically, physically and mentally 💭

I have also put these in my signature with progress updates so I can be constantly reminded of them 👀

Thanks for reading 📖

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Mon Jul 25, 2022 8:10 am

Day 288: 25/07/2022 ✅

Train Trip up North 🚂

American Girl I'm going to Amsterdam with is in the U.K this week, so I'm heading up North to go and see her today and work out the last trip details 🇺🇸 Gonna have something to eat with her and make a day of it too 🍽 Only blow is I'm at work early tomorrow, so won't be able to stay with her too long 👎

I've packed a few books etc. for the trip as it's about an hour and a half each way, so I'll try use the dead travelling time productively 📚

I'm gonna leave it there for today. At least I can say I'm getting out more and working on my social skills 🗣

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Tue Jul 26, 2022 6:27 am

Day 289: 26/07/2022 ✅

American Cougar ‘Date’ Report 🇺🇸 🐆

So I guess yesterday was a ‘sort of’ date 🗓

Met my American Cougar FWB 🇺🇸🐆. Also met her folks which was interesting. They wanted to thank me for looking after their daughter 🤝

Nice people.

Long story short, she’s gone through some shit and on top of that, lost a nephew. Whole family was really struggling at one point and she was in a bad place 🕳

I been there myself and know what it’s like.

I helped her through the rough times and she’s doing better now. We had dinner then we went for a walk just me and her to discuss our trip next week 🔜

She did look pretty Fuck-able today 👀
Looking forward to clapping her cheeks all week next week 🍑👋

Also kinda seeing hanging with her as a bit of an ‘investment’: I’m investing in our friendship which is working out well as she’s offered me a place to stay in the States when I go visit 🇺🇸

That’s gonna save me a shitload of cash 💵

A Victory Against Anxiety 💯

On a brief side note, travelled a lot yesterday. Lots of trains, busy, slightly stressful, but I handled it 💯

Couple of months ago, I couldn't get out of bed and would not have coped at all with something like that 🛌

A small victory perhaps, but Fuck it, it's one I'm taking ✅

Any other business:

Other than that? Not much to report. Putting in a 9 hour shift today then I'll clean my room when I get home if I'm not too tired 🌘

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Wed Jul 27, 2022 6:17 pm

Day 290: 27/07/2022 ✅

Long-Ass Day 🥱

Worked 07:30-17:30 today and I’m Fucked 💤

Taking a night off 🌘

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Thu Jul 28, 2022 7:00 pm

Day 291: 28/07/2022 ✅

Old Lay Comes into Spider's Work 👀 The Paramedic Bails 🚑 and Vacation!

Old Lay Comes into Spider's Work 👀

Vegan Vixen ended up coming into where I work yesterday…

lol.

Was going to post about it, but I was absolutely shattered after the 9.5 Hour shift I put in ⏰ 🤛

She was with her mom which was quite funny as I kept my cool and had a bit of a smirk on my face 😏 She was going all red probably because she knew that she hadn't text me back 😂

What made this even funnier is that I still have a pair of her underwear from when I saw her 👙

I didn't tease her too terribly and just made polite conversation about how she is, her degree etc. Didn't wanna embarrass her in front of her mom as I'm not a bastard like that 🕊

Was funny as she walked out I said 'Feel free to pop in anytime, I'm always here. I'll drop you a text sometime...' and she went all red and put her head down as she walked out looking all sheepish like 🫢

Heh.

Pretty funny. I was giggling for about half an hour after to myself 😅

A couple of years ago a ghost would've annoyed me, but nowadays, I just see it as part of the game 👻 🔫

The Paramedic Bails 🚑

Looks like things are off with Paramedic Chick 👎 She's met a 'nice man' who wants a relationship and can give her the marriage and kids that she needs (or so he says) 😒

My response?

'Cool. All the best' 👋

She was trying to guilt trip me by saying about how she's going to start dating others as I 'can't give her what she needs' etc. 🥱

I've seen this tactic before and have used it myself. She's not really up for the regular sex that I want. Believe this is due to medical reasons, so I cannot hold this against her 🤝

She's heading for 30 very soon and she wants to settle and I can't give her that 🚫

Told her I just want her to be happy whether that's with or without me

It is what it is. Nice girl and very cute, so that's a bit of a shame, but oh well 🤷‍♂️

Vacation Starts Now!

Just knocked off work and I'm now off until the 9th of August. Very grateful for that trust me! 🏖

Gonna get my room straight as I don't want to come back home to it looking awful 👎 It's piled up over the past few days with me working overtime and only having the Monday off so I could go to the city up north to meet American Cougar 🇺🇸

Just gotta pack the rest of my shit 💼 and make sure that I got all the necessary paperwork and travel documents 📂 and I'm good to go ✈️

I'll start on these now after this post as I knocked off work a little earlier today ⏰

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Fri Jul 29, 2022 9:16 pm

Day 292: 29/07/2022 ✅

Filler Post: Cleaning and Travel Prep ✈️

Been cleaning and sorting shit out for vacation next week, so just a quick post 📝

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Sat Jul 30, 2022 8:00 pm

Day 293: 30/07/2022 ✅

Trials and Tribulations: Vacation Obstacles! 🛑

What a Fucking nightmare I'm having!

Turns out I've gotta work tomorrow which is a pain in the ass 👎 so I've had to change my travel plans 🤦‍♂️

Long story short, Head Office Fucked up on the holiday front as they told me I had an extra day I could have off (tomorrow). They've then realised it's an error and have rescinded authorisation (didn't know they could do that) 😒😤

So, new plan:

- Work 10:00 - 16:00
- Catch Trains to London from my Town (4 Hours)
- Check-in at Hotel (21:00 Hrs)
- Fly to Amsterdam Next Day (14:30 Hrs)

What a Fucking nightmare!

On top of that, it's been a stress sorting the travel documents out due to COVID Bureaucracy and the Shit Travel Company's systems keep crashing, but looks as though I've sorted this ⬆️

Done a bag check too and looks like I'm all packed and ready to go ✈️

Looking forward to actually just getting there now for the week!

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Sun Jul 31, 2022 9:03 pm

Day 294: 31/07/2022 ✅

London Calling 🇬🇧

Not long hit London thought I’d drop a quick update on here 📝

Finished my shift at work which was absolutely dead and dragged 👎

Standing room only on the trains to here as well 🚂

Been on my feet pretty much 14 Hours now 🤦‍♂️

On the plus side, I’m gonna be clapping cheeks all week starting from tomorrow night 🍑👏

I’m just at my hotel now getting settled in 🏨

Fucking beat after work and travelling 💤

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Mon Aug 01, 2022 8:28 pm

Day 295: 01/08/2022 ✅

Amsterdam! 🇳🇱

Just hit the Dam - travelling all day so Fucked!

Proper update tomorrow 🔜

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