Spider’s Progress Log 🕷 Day 305: New Quest 🧭 Dangerous, but Disciplined 🥷 (Jiu-Jitsu)

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Spider Jerusalem
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Sat Jul 30, 2022 8:00 pm

Day 293: 30/07/2022 ✅

Trials and Tribulations: Vacation Obstacles! 🛑

What a Fucking nightmare I'm having!

Turns out I've gotta work tomorrow which is a pain in the ass 👎 so I've had to change my travel plans 🤦‍♂️

Long story short, Head Office Fucked up on the holiday front as they told me I had an extra day I could have off (tomorrow). They've then realised it's an error and have rescinded authorisation (didn't know they could do that) 😒😤

So, new plan:

- Work 10:00 - 16:00
- Catch Trains to London from my Town (4 Hours)
- Check-in at Hotel (21:00 Hrs)
- Fly to Amsterdam Next Day (14:30 Hrs)

What a Fucking nightmare!

On top of that, it's been a stress sorting the travel documents out due to COVID Bureaucracy and the Shit Travel Company's systems keep crashing, but looks as though I've sorted this ⬆️

Done a bag check too and looks like I'm all packed and ready to go ✈️

Looking forward to actually just getting there now for the week!

Thanks for reading 📖

Spider 🕷
365 Project

1 Post a day in my progress log: 305/365 🗓

Completed Quests 🧭

- Toxic Waste! ☢️
- Wang Dang Atomic No-Fap Fandango! (3/90) 🗓
- Sunshine Boogie ☀️
- Dangerous, but Disciplined 🥷
- A Fistful of Dollars 💵
- Project Purity 💧

Long-Term Goals:

- Manage Mental Health ✅
- Get Laid
- Gain Muscle
- Save 50 Grand

Lay Count: 14
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Spider Jerusalem
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Motto: 'Fuck around and find out'

Sun Jul 31, 2022 9:03 pm

Day 294: 31/07/2022 ✅

London Calling 🇬🇧

Not long hit London thought I’d drop a quick update on here 📝

Finished my shift at work which was absolutely dead and dragged 👎

Standing room only on the trains to here as well 🚂

Been on my feet pretty much 14 Hours now 🤦‍♂️

On the plus side, I’m gonna be clapping cheeks all week starting from tomorrow night 🍑👏

I’m just at my hotel now getting settled in 🏨

Fucking beat after work and travelling 💤

Thanks for reading 📖

Spider 🕷
365 Project

1 Post a day in my progress log: 305/365 🗓

Completed Quests 🧭

- Toxic Waste! ☢️
- Wang Dang Atomic No-Fap Fandango! (3/90) 🗓
- Sunshine Boogie ☀️
- Dangerous, but Disciplined 🥷
- A Fistful of Dollars 💵
- Project Purity 💧

Long-Term Goals:

- Manage Mental Health ✅
- Get Laid
- Gain Muscle
- Save 50 Grand

Lay Count: 14
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Spider Jerusalem
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Name: Spider
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Age: 27
Motto: 'Fuck around and find out'

Mon Aug 01, 2022 8:28 pm

Day 295: 01/08/2022 ✅

Amsterdam! 🇳🇱

Just hit the Dam - travelling all day so Fucked!

Proper update tomorrow 🔜

Thanks for reading 📖

Spider 🕷
365 Project

1 Post a day in my progress log: 305/365 🗓

Completed Quests 🧭

- Toxic Waste! ☢️
- Wang Dang Atomic No-Fap Fandango! (3/90) 🗓
- Sunshine Boogie ☀️
- Dangerous, but Disciplined 🥷
- A Fistful of Dollars 💵
- Project Purity 💧

Long-Term Goals:

- Manage Mental Health ✅
- Get Laid
- Gain Muscle
- Save 50 Grand

Lay Count: 14
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Motto: 'Fuck around and find out'

Tue Aug 02, 2022 12:13 pm

Day 296: 02/08/2022 ✅

⭐️LAY 14⭐️ American Cougar 🇺🇸

Fucked the American Cougar I met in Amsterdam this morning 🌅

Tried to get on her last night, but we were both too tired 💤

Woke up next to her this morning and Fucked her 🛌

Started off playing with her tits and nipples which are hypersensitive which got her moaning and then I went down on her - she was making this face: 😫

I then Fucked her on her side then missionary - she was dripping wet 💦

💭 For my own peace of mind, I used a condom every time and this girl is on birth control 💭

That’s Lay 14 in the bag 💯

I’ll try get on her again later 👀

I’m off to a coffeeshop now to get high ☕️

I’ll post on here of anything of note tomorrow 📝

Thanks for reading 📖

Spider 🕷
365 Project

1 Post a day in my progress log: 305/365 🗓

Completed Quests 🧭

- Toxic Waste! ☢️
- Wang Dang Atomic No-Fap Fandango! (3/90) 🗓
- Sunshine Boogie ☀️
- Dangerous, but Disciplined 🥷
- A Fistful of Dollars 💵
- Project Purity 💧

Long-Term Goals:

- Manage Mental Health ✅
- Get Laid
- Gain Muscle
- Save 50 Grand

Lay Count: 14
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Motto: 'Fuck around and find out'

Wed Aug 03, 2022 2:07 pm

Sexual Tyranny 👎 and Gum Infection 🦷

Sexual Tyranny 👎

So my FWB I’ve been hanging with has turned into a bit of a sexual tyrant 👎 I get her off and instead of her returning the favour, she goes back to sleep 🛌

I’m a dumb Motherfucker for getting myself into this position 🤦‍♂️ Doesn’t help when there’s all these beautiful Dutch women walking around in not much clothing as there’s a heatwave going on here ☀️

If anything positive from this situation can be taken? This kinda bullshit is making me want to improve myself to a point where I’m attractive enough that I don’t have to put up with this bollocks 👎

I’m trying to use this as a way of lighting a fire under my ass 🔥 to drive me to self-improve to the point I can achieve ‘elite’ status 💯

Gum Infection 🦷

To make matters worse? I’ve had to go to a dentist here as my gum is infected again 🦷 I’m in agony and can only chew on one side of my mouth 🤦‍♂️

It’s cost me money and time out of my vacation to get this sorted 💵

I’m hoping tomorrow goes better 🌅

Thanks for reading 📖

Spider 🕷
365 Project

1 Post a day in my progress log: 305/365 🗓

Completed Quests 🧭

- Toxic Waste! ☢️
- Wang Dang Atomic No-Fap Fandango! (3/90) 🗓
- Sunshine Boogie ☀️
- Dangerous, but Disciplined 🥷
- A Fistful of Dollars 💵
- Project Purity 💧

Long-Term Goals:

- Manage Mental Health ✅
- Get Laid
- Gain Muscle
- Save 50 Grand

Lay Count: 14
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Age: 27
Motto: 'Fuck around and find out'

Thu Aug 04, 2022 10:51 am

Day 298: 04/08/2022 ✅

Dutch Women are Beautiful 🫦

Every time I take a walk down the street here, I quite literally fall in love 🔥

The women here are beautiful. I look at the type of chicks back home and there’s just no comparison at all 👎

I look at the guys these chicks are with too - tall, well built, well-dressed and with a look of ‘I’m successful…’ 💯

I’d like to come back here again at some point (3rd time lucky) when I’ve self-improved enough maybe for 2 weeks or so and game the hell out of Tinder 🔥

I think there’s opportunity here to get laid with 7’s, 8’s and 9’s if you have your shit together 📝

Lots of good-looking foreign chicks here too ✈️

I’m going to look at coming back here in 2-3 years, book a place for 2 weeks and see how many times I can get laid 🛌

Thanks for reading 📖

Spider 🕷
365 Project

1 Post a day in my progress log: 305/365 🗓

Completed Quests 🧭

- Toxic Waste! ☢️
- Wang Dang Atomic No-Fap Fandango! (3/90) 🗓
- Sunshine Boogie ☀️
- Dangerous, but Disciplined 🥷
- A Fistful of Dollars 💵
- Project Purity 💧

Long-Term Goals:

- Manage Mental Health ✅
- Get Laid
- Gain Muscle
- Save 50 Grand

Lay Count: 14
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Motto: 'Fuck around and find out'

Fri Aug 05, 2022 2:09 pm

Day 299: 05/08/2022 ✅

Hard Lesson: FWB Shows True Colours 🚩

Well boys, I’m a Fucking idiot 🤦‍♂️

My vacation has pretty much gone to shit at this point because the girl I’ve gone with has been a complete Fucking nightmare 👎

Not only has she been a sexual tyrant, this chick has been getting drunk, high and stupid every night smoking weed, drinking heavy and eating Space Cakes - all at the same time 💨

This has kept her up until sometimes 5 every morning 🌅 watching tv, disturbing me, just being a nuisance etc. so I haven’t been getting any sleep - she’s been shouting at me to ‘wake up’ etc. when I’m trying to sleep as she ‘doesn’t want to be high alone…’. 🤷‍♂️

This means she doesn’t get out of bed until at least 12 in the afternoon most days when the day’s wasted 🗑 I like to get up early, so this morning I did that and went off by myself 🚪

She woke at 12, asked me where I was. I’m an honest guy and got nothing to hide, so I said ‘I’m just by the Red Light District’… 🚨

Then she goes Fucking apeshit.

I’ve been accused of Fucking prostitutes left right and centre, been called a ‘creep’, and she’s pretty much been just vile to me 👎

I’m not married or in a relationship of any kind with this Fucking bitch and she thinks she can get pissy with me and try to tell me where I can and can’t go? She can Fuck right off🖕

This isn’t the 1st time I’ve noticed this and there has been these Red Flags whilst we’ve been here:

- She’s obnoxious and racist - uses the N word a lot and is convinced the ‘sneaky Dutch’ are trying to scam her at every turn 🚩

- She’s got a severe drug and alcohol problem - this week has shown this 🚩

- We’ve had sex once. Not that I want to anymore as I’m totally put off her now 🚩

- She’s tried to control me by getting arsey when I go somewhere, see someone or do something she ‘doesn’t approve of’ 🚩

- Called me a ‘creep’ for looking at naked female paintings at an art exhibit she wanted to Fucking go to.

- She’s pissed off about the room (which she booked) not meeting her expectations and still took it out on me 🚩

- She’s gone on and on about how she’s an ‘Alpha Female’ I.e ‘I’m a complete an utter Fucking Bitch if you don’t do what I say and now to my every whim…’🚩

We’re currently avoiding each other, but we’re both here until the 7th and fly back together ✈️ Planned to stay over in London, but Fuck that. I’m getting the train straight back home and she can please herself 🚪🚶‍♂️👋

One thing I have done is grab my Passport out the room - you don’t know what this girl might try.

I’ve been looking at other hotels and flights home as at this point, my vacation is pretty much over and done with thanks to this bitch. It’s a lotta money to do either, so I’ll have that as a last resort ✈️

Supposed to be my graduation present to myself. All that money wasted because of this obnoxious twat 🤦‍♂️

I blame myself for getting myself into this position though really. Guess you don’t truly know someone until you spend time living with them 🏠

Couple of lessons I’m taking from this 📝

- I am now no longer going to date or Fuck anyone Older than me. This ‘I’m an Alpha Female Controlling Bitch’ attitude is rife amongst the 30 plus wall hitters I’ve been hanging around with the past year or so and has caused me nothing but problems 🛑

- I am never going on vacation with anyone who isn’t my girlfriend and in a committed relationship with me 🛑

- I need to improve myself to the point I can attract more submissive, feminine and agreeable women who won’t pull this bullshit on me 🛑

Sorry for the rant, but I’m pissed off about this big time.

Roll on 3 Days 🔜

Thanks for Reading 📖

Spider 🕷
365 Project

1 Post a day in my progress log: 305/365 🗓

Completed Quests 🧭

- Toxic Waste! ☢️
- Wang Dang Atomic No-Fap Fandango! (3/90) 🗓
- Sunshine Boogie ☀️
- Dangerous, but Disciplined 🥷
- A Fistful of Dollars 💵
- Project Purity 💧

Long-Term Goals:

- Manage Mental Health ✅
- Get Laid
- Gain Muscle
- Save 50 Grand

Lay Count: 14
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Fri Aug 05, 2022 3:43 pm

Spider Jerusalem wrote:
Fri Aug 05, 2022 2:09 pm
Day 299: 05/08/2022 ✅

Hard Lesson: FWB Shows True Colours 🚩

Well boys, I’m a Fucking idiot 🤦‍♂️

My vacation has pretty much gone to shit at this point because the girl I’ve gone with has been a complete Fucking nightmare 👎

Not only has she been a sexual tyrant, this chick has been getting drunk, high and stupid every night smoking weed, drinking heavy and eating Space Cakes - all at the same time 💨

This has kept her up until sometimes 5 every morning 🌅 watching tv, disturbing me, just being a nuisance etc. so I haven’t been getting any sleep - she’s been shouting at me to ‘wake up’ etc. when I’m trying to sleep as she ‘doesn’t want to be high alone…’. 🤷‍♂️

This means she doesn’t get out of bed until at least 12 in the afternoon most days when the day’s wasted 🗑 I like to get up early, so this morning I did that and went off by myself 🚪

She woke at 12, asked me where I was. I’m an honest guy and got nothing to hide, so I said ‘I’m just by the Red Light District’… 🚨

Then she goes Fucking apeshit.

I’ve been accused of Fucking prostitutes left right and centre, been called a ‘creep’, and she’s pretty much been just vile to me 👎

I’m not married or in a relationship of any kind with this Fucking bitch and she thinks she can get pissy with me and try to tell me where I can and can’t go? She can Fuck right off🖕

This isn’t the 1st time I’ve noticed this and there has been these Red Flags whilst we’ve been here:

- She’s obnoxious and racist - uses the N word a lot and is convinced the ‘sneaky Dutch’ are trying to scam her at every turn 🚩

- She’s got a severe drug and alcohol problem - this week has shown this 🚩

- We’ve had sex once. Not that I want to anymore as I’m totally put off her now 🚩

- She’s tried to control me by getting arsey when I go somewhere, see someone or do something she ‘doesn’t approve of’ 🚩

- Called me a ‘creep’ for looking at naked female paintings at an art exhibit she wanted to Fucking go to.

- She’s pissed off about the room (which she booked) not meeting her expectations and still took it out on me 🚩

- She’s gone on and on about how she’s an ‘Alpha Female’ I.e ‘I’m a complete an utter Fucking Bitch if you don’t do what I say and now to my every whim…’🚩

We’re currently avoiding each other, but we’re both here until the 7th and fly back together ✈️ Planned to stay over in London, but Fuck that. I’m getting the train straight back home and she can please herself 🚪🚶‍♂️👋

One thing I have done is grab my Passport out the room - you don’t know what this girl might try.

I’ve been looking at other hotels and flights home as at this point, my vacation is pretty much over and done with thanks to this bitch. It’s a lotta money to do either, so I’ll have that as a last resort ✈️

Supposed to be my graduation present to myself. All that money wasted because of this obnoxious twat 🤦‍♂️

I blame myself for getting myself into this position though really. Guess you don’t truly know someone until you spend time living with them 🏠

Couple of lessons I’m taking from this 📝

- I am now no longer going to date or Fuck anyone Older than me. This ‘I’m an Alpha Female Controlling Bitch’ attitude is rife amongst the 30 plus wall hitters I’ve been hanging around with the past year or so and has caused me nothing but problems 🛑

- I am never going on vacation with anyone who isn’t my girlfriend and in a committed relationship with me 🛑

- I need to improve myself to the point I can attract more submissive, feminine and agreeable women who won’t pull this bullshit on me 🛑

Sorry for the rant, but I’m pissed off about this big time.

Roll on 3 Days 🔜

Thanks for Reading 📖

Spider 🕷
Sort out your own hotel room, fire up tinder and enjoy the rest of your trip without the American or just head home. You can always make more money and meet new girls, you cant get the time back though. This time is a gift to you so in this rare case, put yourself first and stop giving your time to a damaged person and enjoy the holiday you signed up for or get home.

It's unfortunate you had this experience, I know you were looking forward to it for a long time. The rules are there to stop stuff like this happening to you where you end up trapped somewhere you don't want to be. Follow the rules we talked about in your DMs and never put yourself in a place where you cant walk away.

I do have to ask about the sexual tyranny thing, it sounds like you both had sex? Or you did other stuff and she went back to sleep? It's a little unclear. There is an abundance of girls out there, if she behaves this way that's totally fine, you just stop giving her time and attention and enjoy the rest of the holiday without her. Do not for one second feel guilty about leaving her and enjoying the rest of your life. Just write this one off as a bad experience and find a way to make the rest of your holiday a positive one. You don't even need to speak to her. Just make a booking at another place, go get your stuff and leave. Sure being able to explain why your leaving will sound like its the right thing to do but fuck that you don't owe this person anything. Value your fucking time, because no one else will if you don't.

Next update, either you made your way home or you sorted out another hotel. Anything else is an excuse and your better than that.
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Fri Aug 05, 2022 8:52 pm

Brother_Tucker wrote:
Fri Aug 05, 2022 3:43 pm
Spider Jerusalem wrote:
Fri Aug 05, 2022 2:09 pm
Day 299: 05/08/2022 ✅

Hard Lesson: FWB Shows True Colours 🚩

Well boys, I’m a Fucking idiot 🤦‍♂️

My vacation has pretty much gone to shit at this point because the girl I’ve gone with has been a complete Fucking nightmare 👎

Not only has she been a sexual tyrant, this chick has been getting drunk, high and stupid every night smoking weed, drinking heavy and eating Space Cakes - all at the same time 💨

This has kept her up until sometimes 5 every morning 🌅 watching tv, disturbing me, just being a nuisance etc. so I haven’t been getting any sleep - she’s been shouting at me to ‘wake up’ etc. when I’m trying to sleep as she ‘doesn’t want to be high alone…’. 🤷‍♂️

This means she doesn’t get out of bed until at least 12 in the afternoon most days when the day’s wasted 🗑 I like to get up early, so this morning I did that and went off by myself 🚪

She woke at 12, asked me where I was. I’m an honest guy and got nothing to hide, so I said ‘I’m just by the Red Light District’… 🚨

Then she goes Fucking apeshit.

I’ve been accused of Fucking prostitutes left right and centre, been called a ‘creep’, and she’s pretty much been just vile to me 👎

I’m not married or in a relationship of any kind with this Fucking bitch and she thinks she can get pissy with me and try to tell me where I can and can’t go? She can Fuck right off🖕

This isn’t the 1st time I’ve noticed this and there has been these Red Flags whilst we’ve been here:

- She’s obnoxious and racist - uses the N word a lot and is convinced the ‘sneaky Dutch’ are trying to scam her at every turn 🚩

- She’s got a severe drug and alcohol problem - this week has shown this 🚩

- We’ve had sex once. Not that I want to anymore as I’m totally put off her now 🚩

- She’s tried to control me by getting arsey when I go somewhere, see someone or do something she ‘doesn’t approve of’ 🚩

- Called me a ‘creep’ for looking at naked female paintings at an art exhibit she wanted to Fucking go to.

- She’s pissed off about the room (which she booked) not meeting her expectations and still took it out on me 🚩

- She’s gone on and on about how she’s an ‘Alpha Female’ I.e ‘I’m a complete an utter Fucking Bitch if you don’t do what I say and now to my every whim…’🚩

We’re currently avoiding each other, but we’re both here until the 7th and fly back together ✈️ Planned to stay over in London, but Fuck that. I’m getting the train straight back home and she can please herself 🚪🚶‍♂️👋

One thing I have done is grab my Passport out the room - you don’t know what this girl might try.

I’ve been looking at other hotels and flights home as at this point, my vacation is pretty much over and done with thanks to this bitch. It’s a lotta money to do either, so I’ll have that as a last resort ✈️

Supposed to be my graduation present to myself. All that money wasted because of this obnoxious twat 🤦‍♂️

I blame myself for getting myself into this position though really. Guess you don’t truly know someone until you spend time living with them 🏠

Couple of lessons I’m taking from this 📝

- I am now no longer going to date or Fuck anyone Older than me. This ‘I’m an Alpha Female Controlling Bitch’ attitude is rife amongst the 30 plus wall hitters I’ve been hanging around with the past year or so and has caused me nothing but problems 🛑

- I am never going on vacation with anyone who isn’t my girlfriend and in a committed relationship with me 🛑

- I need to improve myself to the point I can attract more submissive, feminine and agreeable women who won’t pull this bullshit on me 🛑

Sorry for the rant, but I’m pissed off about this big time.

Roll on 3 Days 🔜

Thanks for Reading 📖

Spider 🕷
Sort out your own hotel room, fire up tinder and enjoy the rest of your trip without the American or just head home. You can always make more money and meet new girls, you cant get the time back though. This time is a gift to you so in this rare case, put yourself first and stop giving your time to a damaged person and enjoy the holiday you signed up for or get home.

It's unfortunate you had this experience, I know you were looking forward to it for a long time. The rules are there to stop stuff like this happening to you where you end up trapped somewhere you don't want to be. Follow the rules we talked about in your DMs and never put yourself in a place where you cant walk away.

I do have to ask about the sexual tyranny thing, it sounds like you both had sex? Or you did other stuff and she went back to sleep? It's a little unclear. There is an abundance of girls out there, if she behaves this way that's totally fine, you just stop giving her time and attention and enjoy the rest of the holiday without her. Do not for one second feel guilty about leaving her and enjoying the rest of your life. Just write this one off as a bad experience and find a way to make the rest of your holiday a positive one. You don't even need to speak to her. Just make a booking at another place, go get your stuff and leave. Sure being able to explain why your leaving will sound like its the right thing to do but fuck that you don't owe this person anything. Value your fucking time, because no one else will if you don't.

Next update, either you made your way home or you sorted out another hotel. Anything else is an excuse and your better than that.
I absolutely sponsor this advice: time is limited as well as your mental energies in any day, why poison yourself?
Pack your stuff, get to a nice shared room or hostel if you are low on funds and ENJOY LIFE (you know you will die one day so it's up to you make it memorable till that moment)

Pretty much else you figured out by yourself, when a woman tells me "i'm an alpha woman" (and btw this is prevalent in the anglo sphere world) i laugh and say good bye - as a Dom one of the first things you learn is the difference between Dominant and Domineering, One set boundaries and creates a safe space in which the sub gets fulfilled, the other uses abuse and manipulation for their own pleasure. Which is exactly what this person is trying to pull off.

I repeat again - L E A V E T H E R O O M N O W -
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Motto: 'Fuck around and find out'

Sat Aug 06, 2022 11:28 am

Day 300: 06/08/2022 ✅

Spider Finds His Balls and Ditches a Bitch 🚪👈

Day 300 today and I’m manning up big time.

Thank you to @Brother_Tucker amd @AskTheDom for both of your input on my log yesterday 📝

I’m staying somewhere else tonight and I’m catching a direct flight home tomorrow ✈️

Had to stay last night due to some logistical problems which again was a Fucking nightmare that couldn’t be avoided 🗑 🔥

Not putting up with this chick’s bullshit anymore.

Currently sat in a Coffeeshop getting high, chilling out and enjoying my last day ☀️

I’d post more but I’m still in a pretty shitty mood because of everything going on 👎

Just trying to enjoy the rest of my day and forget about it.

Thanks for reading 📖

Spider 🕷
365 Project

1 Post a day in my progress log: 305/365 🗓

Completed Quests 🧭

- Toxic Waste! ☢️
- Wang Dang Atomic No-Fap Fandango! (3/90) 🗓
- Sunshine Boogie ☀️
- Dangerous, but Disciplined 🥷
- A Fistful of Dollars 💵
- Project Purity 💧

Long-Term Goals:

- Manage Mental Health ✅
- Get Laid
- Gain Muscle
- Save 50 Grand

Lay Count: 14
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Motto: Become someone you admire

Sun Aug 07, 2022 12:03 am

Good job getting yourself out of that situation
2022 Goals:
(1) Get Abs
(2) Get to 15 lifetime lays (currently at 9)
(3) Move to a new city with lots of single girls - DONE 6/12
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Sun Aug 07, 2022 5:02 pm

Day 301: 07/08/2022 ✅

Back in the U.K - Reflections on the Past Week 💭

I got home early this morning after booking an earlier flight due to the behaviour of my so-called 'Friend' 🤡

I'm so glad to be home honestly. I'm currently sat here and I'm quite sombre. Currently in a state of reflection over what happened the past week 💭

There were a couple of things I weren't going to mention out of shame, but Fuck it, it's my log and I got nothing to hide:

This girl got drunk and hit me the other night. She also started calling me a 'pussy' etc. when I refused to have sex with her because she was drunk (due to previous bad experiences I refused and I’m not one to Fuck a girl when consent is a grey area) ⚖️

That's what pushed me to pack my shit there and then and Fuck off 🚪🚶‍♂️

My phone has been pinging with messages from her.

Boo hoo hoo. Couldn't care less 🎻

Blocked her on everything 🛑

There are many reasons why I'm upset about what happened:

- I've known this girl 5 years + and I even met her parents
- This vacation cost me about £1200 in total
- It's my last vacation for a long time due to financial concerns R.E. the Cost of Living Crisis
- Following on from the above, She's got a good job and makes 72k a year, whereas I work in a shop
- I was accused of 'abandoning her' and never being there for her. Classic gaslighting
- She was pretending to have panic attacks when she realised I was leaving
- I was going to go on my own. Kinda wish I had
- Saw many happy couples together
- Saw many beautiful women (Dutch women are beautiful)

She just made me feel helpless, weak and pathetic. Even went as far as to mocking my anxiety and insecurities so I’m in a bit of a dark place 🕳

I'm gonna leave it there for today 📝

I'm absolutely beat after travelling and I haven't exactly been in the best of moods. Trains aren't exactly ideal when you are trying to avoid thinking about things 💭

Again, many thanks to @AskTheDom, @Brother_Tucker and @Adam for the support. I will reply to your posts with further details tomorrow - please accept my apologies for not getting back to your points in a punctual manner, it's just been a really shitty couple of days.

Thanks for Reading 📖

Spider 🕷
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Completed Quests 🧭

- Toxic Waste! ☢️
- Wang Dang Atomic No-Fap Fandango! (3/90) 🗓
- Sunshine Boogie ☀️
- Dangerous, but Disciplined 🥷
- A Fistful of Dollars 💵
- Project Purity 💧

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- Manage Mental Health ✅
- Get Laid
- Gain Muscle
- Save 50 Grand

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AskTheDom
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Sun Aug 07, 2022 8:35 pm

Hey Buddy,

I understand the shame you felt BUT massive congrats on taking responsibility for everything and doing what is best for you.
It's normal to be pissed and you have every right to do so, although I would consider this 1200 gbp you spent as a PHD in relationship dynamics. My only advise is to not waste the lesson and learn that when you spot a red flag, the "time to bail" clock starts ticking.

One last thing "Saw many beautiful women (Dutch women are beautiful)" - there are plenty of beautiful women all around the world. Focus on yourself for now and to give your best self the best chances possibles to have a great life
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Mon Aug 08, 2022 8:20 am

Brother_Tucker wrote:
Fri Aug 05, 2022 3:43 pm
Sort out your own hotel room, fire up tinder and enjoy the rest of your trip without the American or just head home. You can always make more money and meet new girls, you cant get the time back though. This time is a gift to you so in this rare case, put yourself first and stop giving your time to a damaged person and enjoy the holiday you signed up for or get home.

It's unfortunate you had this experience, I know you were looking forward to it for a long time. The rules are there to stop stuff like this happening to you where you end up trapped somewhere you don't want to be. Follow the rules we talked about in your DMs and never put yourself in a place where you cant walk away.

I do have to ask about the sexual tyranny thing, it sounds like you both had sex? Or you did other stuff and she went back to sleep? It's a little unclear. There is an abundance of girls out there, if she behaves this way that's totally fine, you just stop giving her time and attention and enjoy the rest of the holiday without her. Do not for one second feel guilty about leaving her and enjoying the rest of your life. Just write this one off as a bad experience and find a way to make the rest of your holiday a positive one. You don't even need to speak to her. Just make a booking at another place, go get your stuff and leave. Sure being able to explain why your leaving will sound like its the right thing to do but fuck that you don't owe this person anything. Value your fucking time, because no one else will if you don't.

Next update, either you made your way home or you sorted out another hotel. Anything else is an excuse and your better than that.
@Brother_Tucker

Thank you for the advice it was much appreciated.

I took it on by getting another room for myself and flying back early on my own as the vacation was pretty much Fucked.

As regards to the sexual tyranny aspect, I'd make her come by going down on her then she'd say 'Oh I'm going to sleep now...' or I'd try and initiate things and she'd get all shitty 'I need space...' and 'wait for me to initiate things...'.

She was just a complete Fucking bitch about it the whole time. She was going on about it in the months up how she's bought new lingerie and 'can't wait to Fuck me...' etc. etc.

In reality we had sex twice the whole 5 Days and even then it felt like it was begrudging 'duty sex'.

It's really shown how she truly felt towards me and the lack of respect and her attitude is just disgusting upon reflection.

Think she saw me as a doormat, so I'm glad that I just packed my shit and went out the door.

Thanks again

Spider
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Completed Quests 🧭

- Toxic Waste! ☢️
- Wang Dang Atomic No-Fap Fandango! (3/90) 🗓
- Sunshine Boogie ☀️
- Dangerous, but Disciplined 🥷
- A Fistful of Dollars 💵
- Project Purity 💧

Long-Term Goals:

- Manage Mental Health ✅
- Get Laid
- Gain Muscle
- Save 50 Grand

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Mon Aug 08, 2022 8:23 am

AskTheDom wrote:
Fri Aug 05, 2022 8:52 pm
I absolutely sponsor this advice: time is limited as well as your mental energies in any day, why poison yourself?
Pack your stuff, get to a nice shared room or hostel if you are low on funds and ENJOY LIFE (you know you will die one day so it's up to you make it memorable till that moment)

Pretty much else you figured out by yourself, when a woman tells me "i'm an alpha woman" (and btw this is prevalent in the anglo sphere world) i laugh and say good bye - as a Dom one of the first things you learn is the difference between Dominant and Domineering, One set boundaries and creates a safe space in which the sub gets fulfilled, the other uses abuse and manipulation for their own pleasure. Which is exactly what this person is trying to pull off.

I repeat again - L E A V E T H E R O O M N O W -
@AskTheDom

Thanks for the input my man

Totally get this. All my life I've been guilty of putting other people first which leaves me unfulfilled and unsatisfied.

I don't think women know how to be truly dominant because they aren't hardwired for it, so they come off with this fake 'I'm just like a man' machismo which is toxic and dangerous. Saw a lot of that this week and it was like I had an epiphany.

I took your advice and got out - thank you for taking the time to drop in and help me out it's much appreciated. I value the input of an experienced guy such as yourself.

Thanks again

Spider
365 Project

1 Post a day in my progress log: 305/365 🗓

Completed Quests 🧭

- Toxic Waste! ☢️
- Wang Dang Atomic No-Fap Fandango! (3/90) 🗓
- Sunshine Boogie ☀️
- Dangerous, but Disciplined 🥷
- A Fistful of Dollars 💵
- Project Purity 💧

Long-Term Goals:

- Manage Mental Health ✅
- Get Laid
- Gain Muscle
- Save 50 Grand

Lay Count: 14
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