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Sewerdog
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Age: 29

Wed Jan 11, 2023 4:17 pm

Been wiped out with a chest infection for the last couple days.
Coming out of the defecit for a bit to get it to fuck off.
Will resume some light gym work tomorrow.
Managed to set a pe pr and has been nice to do nothing for a couple of days.

Still been making moves though. Going on a bowling date with first girl Friday. A double date hiking on Saturday, seeing new years girl on Sunday for a walk then staying at first girls place Sunday night.
Will get back in the gym and continue looksmaxxing too. Got a compliment saying I look healthy which is probably due to new skincare routine.

Ive realised I'm not lonely anymore, I have people who I like sharing my life with and for that I am grateful. I am even more grateful that they like sharing their lives with me.
I've spent so much time afraid of failure; probably to the point of it being pathological. I have failed loads, my dick didn't even work when I started seeing first girl. But it didn't matter. Nothing that I thought would stop me has stopped me and for that I am grateful beyond words.
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MakingAComeback
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Wed Jan 11, 2023 4:18 pm

Keep working boss.

Life just gets better when we do this work.

MAC
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Sewerdog
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Sun Jan 15, 2023 11:49 pm

Venting:
Cough hasn't gone this weekend which is starting to bug me.
More so I've been feeling pretty low about my looks. My biggest insecurity is having bad skin and bags under my eyes which make me look tired. Even when I'm well rested and have been exercising eating healthy ect they don't really improve and I think they are genetic.
I've been able to improve my body, my style and grooming but this seems out of my control and I just can't help feeling that if I were better looking in this aspect I would be getting better results*
I want to resolve this and prevent looking old before my time.

Actions:
Retinol and sunblock - both measures now in place
Start using dermapen
Check out the GLL skincare stuff
HGH I'd take this for physique but it has notable beneficial properties for skin- namely collagen synthesis.
Melanotan 2 - to use this summer for an even skin tone and healthy tan + protective properties of increased melanin.
Nuclear options:
Dermal fillers
Lower blepharoplasty
-I might look into these when I hit my 30s

This sounds extreme and my neuroticism plays heavily against me but my brain keeps flagging it as my biggest weakness looks wise.

*In terms of results I have made some good progress but I still feel like I'm being treated like a provider.
First girl found out about the girl whose place I stayed at on new years and that we've been going on a few walks and hanging out and her response was to get really anxious and then drive over to see me. This sounds good but I feel like I only get the best put of her when she's worried I'm going to find someone better- even though we are just seeing each other on a casual basis.
It honestly makes me suspicious that she sees me as some sort of provider when I'm aiming to be more like the guy she would casually fuck at a festival (which she has done plenty). I'm also annoyed with the new years girl for trying to stress her out and I just can't help but feel she is only interested in me as she's coming out of a breakup.
Maybe I'm being cynical but this dynamic of I provide x and they give me y is the exact thing I want to avoid.
It didn't help that I shaved my beard and got roasted for it from first girl- at the time I kind of agreed it does look worse but she wouldn't stop and thinking back about it is actually pissing me off, like is having a beard the only thing that she sees in me haha.

I want to achieve gigachad status and be above all this petty drama but until I figure out how to beat my skin/undereye genetics I don't think I can get there and it'll just get worse as I age. Annoying.

How do you improve from a mentally healthy place? How do you not reinforce feelings of 'I'll only be good enough if...'?

This week:
Back at the gym hard, add cardio
Fing good hgh and dosing protocol
Maintain skin and hair care
Eat healthy- I only had 2 pints this week
Use dermapen Sunday.
Research peptides
Re-read meditations by Aurelius
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Mon Jan 16, 2023 1:44 am

Sewerdog wrote:
Sun Jan 15, 2023 11:49 pm
*In terms of results I have made some good progress but I still feel like I'm being treated like a provider.
First girl found out about the girl whose place I stayed at on new years and that we've been going on a few walks and hanging out and her response was to get really anxious and then drive over to see me. This sounds good but I feel like I only get the best put of her when she's worried I'm going to find someone better- even though we are just seeing each other on a casual basis.
It honestly makes me suspicious that she sees me as some sort of provider when I'm aiming to be more like the guy she would casually fuck at a festival (which she has done plenty). I'm also annoyed with the new years girl for trying to stress her out and I just can't help but feel she is only interested in me as she's coming out of a breakup.
Maybe I'm being cynical but this dynamic of I provide x and they give me y is the exact thing I want to avoid.
It didn't help that I shaved my beard and got roasted for it from first girl- at the time I kind of agreed it does look worse but she wouldn't stop and thinking back about it is actually pissing me off, like is having a beard the only thing that she sees in me haha.
Good stuff on the progress, man. Excited to see where you are in a few months.

In regards to being treated like a provider instead of the person she casually has sex with as a festival, would you say you treated her like those other guys did to get to that point?

I'm concerned you want her to look at you one way, except she has no idea about it. Sounds like a recipe for resentment. Have you planned out any next steps from here?
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Sewerdog
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Mon Jan 16, 2023 12:48 pm

natedawg wrote:
Mon Jan 16, 2023 1:44 am
Sewerdog wrote:
Sun Jan 15, 2023 11:49 pm
*In terms of results I have made some good progress but I still feel like I'm being treated like a provider.
First girl found out about the girl whose place I stayed at on new years and that we've been going on a few walks and hanging out and her response was to get really anxious and then drive over to see me. This sounds good but I feel like I only get the best put of her when she's worried I'm going to find someone better- even though we are just seeing each other on a casual basis.
It honestly makes me suspicious that she sees me as some sort of provider when I'm aiming to be more like the guy she would casually fuck at a festival (which she has done plenty). I'm also annoyed with the new years girl for trying to stress her out and I just can't help but feel she is only interested in me as she's coming out of a breakup.
Maybe I'm being cynical but this dynamic of I provide x and they give me y is the exact thing I want to avoid.
It didn't help that I shaved my beard and got roasted for it from first girl- at the time I kind of agreed it does look worse but she wouldn't stop and thinking back about it is actually pissing me off, like is having a beard the only thing that she sees in me haha.
Good stuff on the progress, man. Excited to see where you are in a few months.

In regards to being treated like a provider instead of the person she casually has sex with as a festival, would you say you treated her like those other guys did to get to that point?

I'm concerned you want her to look at you one way, except she has no idea about it. Sounds like a recipe for resentment. Have you planned out any next steps from here?
Thanks man, that is a good point. I think my self esteem is still very unstable and often depends on positive reactions from girls. I need to evolve past this and anchor my self worth in my actions rather than the reactions of others.
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Sewerdog
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Thu Jan 19, 2023 1:05 pm

Had the conversation with first girl that I've been dreading.
I told her I can't see it being serious with her and in the nicest way I said why I feel like that. (She's been so hedonistic in the past)
I honestly expected to get friendzoned but I wasn't. She said she really likes me and enjoys seeing me and wants to keep things going. She also said most guys ditch her after a while and that she's 'only worth a few months'
I told her that was fucking bullshit and she's worth so much. All a women has to be is loyal, kind and slightly attractive and they're already priceless- the crazy thing is these are just personality traits they have to exhibit, not what kind of eyeliner they wear or how many ig followers they have.
Maybe party girls with high body counts really do just have self esteem issues, I'm not sure.

Cold is slowly shifting
Getting on my skincare, might see a dermatologist as its bugging me so much. Will use dermapen on Sunday.
Defecit maintained
PE maintained, progress stalled though
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Wed Jan 25, 2023 11:21 am

tdan187 wrote:
Tue Jan 24, 2023 1:54 am
It gets easier with time. Being able to be assertive like this with girls is super important though. And they usually respond better / more positively than you'd think.
It was definitely a surprise how well she responded to me setting boundaries and framing the relationship. She's been messaging me loads and wants to see me more than our normal 2 times a week which is really nice if I wasn't ill again :|

No real updates this week as the chest infection has returned and I'm actually resting until it has gone this time.
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Wed Jan 25, 2023 12:17 pm

Sewerdog wrote:
Thu Jan 19, 2023 1:05 pm
Had the conversation with first girl that I've been dreading.
I told her I can't see it being serious with her and in the nicest way I said why I feel like that. (She's been so hedonistic in the past)
I honestly expected to get friendzoned but I wasn't. She said she really likes me and enjoys seeing me and wants to keep things going. She also said most guys ditch her after a while and that she's 'only worth a few months'
I told her that was fucking bullshit and she's worth so much. All a women has to be is loyal, kind and slightly attractive and they're already priceless- the crazy thing is these are just personality traits they have to exhibit, not what kind of eyeliner they wear or how many ig followers they have.
Maybe party girls with high body counts really do just have self esteem issues, I'm not sure.

Cold is slowly shifting
Getting on my skincare, might see a dermatologist as its bugging me so much. Will use dermapen on Sunday.
Defecit maintained
PE maintained, progress stalled though
Sound that with my own brush with the party girl that was L

She had HUGE self-worth issues

Yours actually went well

YOU CAN DO BETTER

YOU DESERVE BETTER

Lets get you with a pretty lovely gal who is what you're looking for

Keep working king

MAC
-Your friend, Ravi

Consistent Performance Coach, Admin of WinnerWithin, and Seeker of Human Potential

My FB Group for Consistent Performance & Goal Achievement
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Sewerdog
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Wed Jan 25, 2023 1:41 pm

MakingAComeback wrote:
Wed Jan 25, 2023 12:17 pm
Sewerdog wrote:
Thu Jan 19, 2023 1:05 pm
Had the conversation with first girl that I've been dreading.
I told her I can't see it being serious with her and in the nicest way I said why I feel like that. (She's been so hedonistic in the past)
I honestly expected to get friendzoned but I wasn't. She said she really likes me and enjoys seeing me and wants to keep things going. She also said most guys ditch her after a while and that she's 'only worth a few months'
I told her that was fucking bullshit and she's worth so much. All a women has to be is loyal, kind and slightly attractive and they're already priceless- the crazy thing is these are just personality traits they have to exhibit, not what kind of eyeliner they wear or how many ig followers they have.
Maybe party girls with high body counts really do just have self esteem issues, I'm not sure.

Cold is slowly shifting
Getting on my skincare, might see a dermatologist as its bugging me so much. Will use dermapen on Sunday.
Defecit maintained
PE maintained, progress stalled though
Sound that with my own brush with the party girl that was L

She had HUGE self-worth issues

Yours actually went well

YOU CAN DO BETTER

YOU DESERVE BETTER

Lets get you with a pretty lovely gal who is what you're looking for

Keep working king

MAC
Thanks MAC
I'll be honest it's a real mindfuck, she's so hedonistic: she said regular sex barely does it for her anymore as she's done so much crazy stuff (kind of what happens to male porn addicts where they get into more extreme shit over time) and yet she's chasing me, who is very inexperienced and even had ED for the first few months I was seeing her.
The self esteem stuff was a tough one as I never wanted to make her feel bad about herself by enforcing a bit of distance, especially as it seems to reinforce the same patterns of behaviour that made me want to step back in the first place. She still wants to have a threesome with some people she knows so obviously I'm gonna keep it casual with her, but she also seems to have a deep need for emotional connection and a family.
I don't know what's best for her but it's important to remember that people don't always know what's best for themselves and I think she's a good example of this.
I've been learning a lot though and we've had a great time so far and I'm happy that she seens to have more respect for me now I've enforced my boundaries.
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Sat Jan 28, 2023 11:32 am

Updates:
Cold hasn't shifted so missed workouts and have gone back into a surplus, first girl wanted to see me anyway so went to her place and stayed over.
Ended up making her cum 5 times this morning just with my dick so the ED can go fuck itself, didn't finish but it gave me some serious stamina.
I need to realise I'm getting pretty good at this and there were some moments where a switch flipped and I got this rush of positive emotions. Interesting stuff, self perception is massive, maybe I am a Chad now.

Physique pics:
Haven't really been able to train without coughing my guts out but she has full length mirrors I wanted to use
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Tue Jan 31, 2023 10:28 pm

Back from the dead
Workout done
Dickmaxxing done
Skincare done

Cold has gone so I'm gonna push it at the gym again, get my body in insane shape.
Building up a nofap streak to try to beat Saturdays performance with first girl and also because I like the edge it gives me.
Also back playing guitar and will start doing lessons.
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Sun Feb 05, 2023 10:14 pm

Weekly recap:
Been ramping it back up at the gym
Looksmaxxing protocols maintained
Went out with social circle Friday, Saturday, spent today at first girls house.
Had a week of nofap which made sex with her way more intense, libido gets crazy on 125mg/ week test but I also feel the nofap making me restless and moody for the first few days before my mood lifts. I want to use this extra energy to make money.
ED: was able to make her cum from sex and finished myself which is awesome. She told me she has a fantasy about me pinning her up against a wall so will start trying these kind of things now my confidence is increasing.
I credit the nofap with this breakthrough and I think it helps my dopamine/reward systems too.
She also cooked me dinner and said I'm always welcome which is another highlight of this journey.

I think getting rich is going to improve my life the most. I can leverage money for long-term health, looks (things like hair transplant in my 30's) and location. My brain needs to do something productive too now that I'm no longer porn addicted and have good energy levels.

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Mon Feb 06, 2023 8:00 am

To do:
Get haircut
Start using regaine along with dht reducing shampoo. Read GLL stuff about hair care
Actually set up a hanging device as well as maintaining pe stuff EOD
Research side-hustles
Sort out subscriptions, set up saver/investment account, invest £100/week
Workout ×4 cardio ×2 go on 2 walks
Read 20 mins/day
Buy more test
Eat healthy
Build nofap streak till next time I see first girl
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Tue Feb 07, 2023 12:19 pm

Hair:
Starting a regimen of nizarole shampoo, finasteride and RU58841 (topical peptide)
Will update with hairline pics to track progress.
Only concern is bulldozing my DHT may cause the ed to return but hopefully as my test is exogenous it'll give me some leeway.
Currently running 125mg test/e a week in conjuction which may change this summer if I go back on a blast.
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Wed Feb 22, 2023 8:08 am

Updates:

ED: I consider this fixed, still don't finish sometimes, able to cause multiple orgasms though which is cool. Closely monitoring what the finasteride does to my libido.

Hair: Running all discussed protocols, still too soon to see any results

Physique: Been eating out with friends loads and lost some definition. Will bring this back after my holiday. Trying to overreach slightly on my workouts before I go away so the first week will act as a deload.

Work: Got the highest pay rise they can offer me and will get a promotion once they sort out some admin stuff.

Going on holiday for two weeks to Cambodia so I'm looking forwards to relaxing and seeing more of the world.

I've decided to run another blast when I'm back and finally get that 8-pack. I'll also really focus on side-hustle development.
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