Crimson’s Progress Log
- Crimson
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- Joined: Fri Apr 02, 2021 3:12 pm
- Name: Brandon
- Goal: Move out
- Age: 21
- Motto: TAKE ACTION
- Location: Germany
Watched a video on suicide yesterday.
„I can always commit suicide tomorrow, so what can I do with today?“
Was one of the main lessons in the video. Tell yourself that you can always do it tomorrow and do whatever you can to make yourself feel better now.
So I put on a animal baby video and watched that. Felt good.
Told my parents that I want to quit my work placement at kindergarten. Weren’t thrilled told me I have to continue. I have a work placement at a kindergarten for 4 weeks but I stopped going after the first day. My parents don’t know that, they think I’m still going.
My mom said „Continue it for me“, lol.
I can see myself quitting school, taking whatever job I can get, work full-time and start saving to move out.
Or taking a leave of absence from school to focus on mental health. Reached out to my school counselor to see if that’s possible.
Got my therapy session tomorrow.
TAKE ACTION
Crimson
„I can always commit suicide tomorrow, so what can I do with today?“
Was one of the main lessons in the video. Tell yourself that you can always do it tomorrow and do whatever you can to make yourself feel better now.
So I put on a animal baby video and watched that. Felt good.
Told my parents that I want to quit my work placement at kindergarten. Weren’t thrilled told me I have to continue. I have a work placement at a kindergarten for 4 weeks but I stopped going after the first day. My parents don’t know that, they think I’m still going.
My mom said „Continue it for me“, lol.
I can see myself quitting school, taking whatever job I can get, work full-time and start saving to move out.
Or taking a leave of absence from school to focus on mental health. Reached out to my school counselor to see if that’s possible.
Got my therapy session tomorrow.
TAKE ACTION
Crimson
- Crimson
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- Joined: Fri Apr 02, 2021 3:12 pm
- Name: Brandon
- Goal: Move out
- Age: 21
- Motto: TAKE ACTION
- Location: Germany
Focused on moving out and school for now, changed log name accordingly. Also getting closer to driving exams.
Searched and found my old resumee that I can use to apply for some jobs. Enough action for the day regarding that (lol). The truth is I’m very scared to move out. How am I going to pay the bills? Will I end up homeless bla bla.
I want to save up like 5000€ before I move out. There might be some money left after the driving lesson bills are paid, which I can use as well.
Moving date set to 1. September. Not sure if 5k is enough or not, still have to make a budget.
Just a rough plan.
Searched and found my old resumee that I can use to apply for some jobs. Enough action for the day regarding that (lol). The truth is I’m very scared to move out. How am I going to pay the bills? Will I end up homeless bla bla.
I want to save up like 5000€ before I move out. There might be some money left after the driving lesson bills are paid, which I can use as well.
Moving date set to 1. September. Not sure if 5k is enough or not, still have to make a budget.
Just a rough plan.
- Crimson
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- Joined: Fri Apr 02, 2021 3:12 pm
- Name: Brandon
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- Age: 21
- Motto: TAKE ACTION
- Location: Germany
Still going to the gym regularly and bulking, I can see the progress and muscle gains. If I keep it up, I could have some decent before-after pics to show by June.
Also just ran into Basketball Girl at a traffic stop (once again the same traffic stop I first approached her at, go figure lol). Don’t know for sure if she saw me or not, I acted like I was on a phone call. Kinda hurt to see her again, but at this point I’m pretty confident that I can get girls if I just try, so I reminded myself of that (since I literally have evidence, it worked pretty well).
Plus, I’m going to date a lot of girls in the future that are better than her, though I don’t believe that yet.
So yeah, onwards.
Also just ran into Basketball Girl at a traffic stop (once again the same traffic stop I first approached her at, go figure lol). Don’t know for sure if she saw me or not, I acted like I was on a phone call. Kinda hurt to see her again, but at this point I’m pretty confident that I can get girls if I just try, so I reminded myself of that (since I literally have evidence, it worked pretty well).
Plus, I’m going to date a lot of girls in the future that are better than her, though I don’t believe that yet.
So yeah, onwards.
- Crimson
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Alright, sent out one job application.
First step is obviously to get a job so I can start earning and saving money.
First step is obviously to get a job so I can start earning and saving money.
- Crimson
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Sent out another one, let’s go.
- Crimson
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Just sent out another application. One job already got back to me, but it’s in another city near me, so I’ll see if I can get a job that’s closer first.
- komeback_kile
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- Name: Kyle
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- Location: CDMX
Good work man. Jobs and women are both numbers games sometimes (especially when you first start out). I think many of us have had the hopelessness of applying to many jobs, and many of those jobs ignoring us or wasting our time. Last summer, I had to apply to 8 jobs before I got the 8th.
Keep working on it. Don't give up. Action is masculine. We're here for you.
- Crimson
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Yeah man, you got it. It’s definitely a numbers game with jobs, just gotta keep applying. Thankskomeback_kile wrote: ↑Sun Mar 19, 2023 7:03 pmGood work man. Jobs and women are both numbers games sometimes (especially when you first start out). I think many of us have had the hopelessness of applying to many jobs, and many of those jobs ignoring us or wasting our time. Last summer, I had to apply to 8 jobs before I got the 8th.
Keep working on it. Don't give up. Action is masculine. We're here for you.
- MakingAComeback
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- Age: 32
- Motto: POSITIVE SELF TALK
Great period in your life G
Get a job. Save 5k.
Move out.
This whole time, just keep working on sleep. Getting to bed a 10pm is how you can heal your mental health.
The body has natural mechanisms to heal dude. Seriously. At 20, they're functioning optimally.
That matters above all else right now.
If there was anything else, Id tell you - I have over a decade of life exp. than you, 12 years self improvement, and importantly, have been achieving my goals for years now.
Therapy is good.
But your basic biological wellness is the foundation.
Your goas may be as follows:
(1) MONEY
(2) WELLNESS
Fuck all else.
No one shirks the work. I have a lot of work to do on my own mind, my own vibe, which I have a plan for and I think I will crush this
Ravi
Get a job. Save 5k.
Move out.
This whole time, just keep working on sleep. Getting to bed a 10pm is how you can heal your mental health.
The body has natural mechanisms to heal dude. Seriously. At 20, they're functioning optimally.
That matters above all else right now.
If there was anything else, Id tell you - I have over a decade of life exp. than you, 12 years self improvement, and importantly, have been achieving my goals for years now.
Therapy is good.
But your basic biological wellness is the foundation.
Your goas may be as follows:
(1) MONEY
(2) WELLNESS
Fuck all else.
No one shirks the work. I have a lot of work to do on my own mind, my own vibe, which I have a plan for and I think I will crush this
Ravi
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- Crimson
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- Location: Germany
Understood, I’ll do my best.MakingAComeback wrote: ↑Mon Mar 20, 2023 10:54 amGreat period in your life G
Get a job. Save 5k.
Move out.
This whole time, just keep working on sleep. Getting to bed a 10pm is how you can heal your mental health.
The body has natural mechanisms to heal dude. Seriously. At 20, they're functioning optimally.
That matters above all else right now.
If there was anything else, Id tell you - I have over a decade of life exp. than you, 12 years self improvement, and importantly, have been achieving my goals for years now.
Therapy is good.
But your basic biological wellness is the foundation.
Your goas may be as follows:
(1) MONEY
(2) WELLNESS
Fuck all else.
No one shirks the work. I have a lot of work to do on my own mind, my own vibe, which I have a plan for and I think I will crush this
Ravi
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Sent out two more job applications just now, let’s go. Also got a basketball game today, last game of the season. We won the league very dominantly, so we’ll be champions which is pretty cool.
- Crimson
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- Name: Brandon
- Goal: Move out
- Age: 21
- Motto: TAKE ACTION
- Location: Germany
Didn’t have internet for a day, it’s fixed now. I looked in the mirror and asked myself what I want today, what came up was „I want to fuck 100 girls“. This is also what I wrote as the first post in this log, but it feels like I’m switching goals every other week.
When I think about fucking 100 girls I get pretty excited. I don’t even care about having my own apartment per se, it just so happens to be the case that having my own apartment will make getting laid a whole lot easier (Granted I do also want to get away from my parents). I guess I’m just ashamed to admit that that’s what I really want.
When I think about fucking 100 girls I get pretty excited. I don’t even care about having my own apartment per se, it just so happens to be the case that having my own apartment will make getting laid a whole lot easier (Granted I do also want to get away from my parents). I guess I’m just ashamed to admit that that’s what I really want.
- Crimson
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- Joined: Fri Apr 02, 2021 3:12 pm
- Name: Brandon
- Goal: Move out
- Age: 21
- Motto: TAKE ACTION
- Location: Germany
Jokes (9X)= 380 kp
Gym (8x)= 160 kp
Played Basketball (2X)= 100 kp
Home Workout (3X)= 60 kp
Teaching myself CBT= 200 kp
Went to therapy= 20 kp
Calendar= 50 kp
Made a drawing= 20 kp
Storywriting= 20 kp
Went to Dr= 20 kp
Went to the park= 100 kp
Forum contributions (15X)= 300 kp
Conversation with teammate= 40 kp
Songwriting= 70 kp
Focusing on the positive (4X)= 40 kp
Smiled at stranger (3X)= 80 kp
Appreciated birds passing by= 20 kp
Nofap for 1 day= 20 kp
Conversation with old classmate= 40 kp
Looking for a job= 80 kp
Listened to beautiful song= 20 kp
Made myself full breakfast= 20 kp
Opening up to my teachers= 100 kp
Showing up to the driving lessons= 40 kp
(All of that added up is 2.000 kp)
39.000 kp - 2.000 kp= 37.000 kp
New total karmic debt: 37.000 kp
(Lol, I swear I’m not purposely trying to keep the score even like that)
Gym (8x)= 160 kp
Played Basketball (2X)= 100 kp
Home Workout (3X)= 60 kp
Teaching myself CBT= 200 kp
Went to therapy= 20 kp
Calendar= 50 kp
Made a drawing= 20 kp
Storywriting= 20 kp
Went to Dr= 20 kp
Went to the park= 100 kp
Forum contributions (15X)= 300 kp
Conversation with teammate= 40 kp
Songwriting= 70 kp
Focusing on the positive (4X)= 40 kp
Smiled at stranger (3X)= 80 kp
Appreciated birds passing by= 20 kp
Nofap for 1 day= 20 kp
Conversation with old classmate= 40 kp
Looking for a job= 80 kp
Listened to beautiful song= 20 kp
Made myself full breakfast= 20 kp
Opening up to my teachers= 100 kp
Showing up to the driving lessons= 40 kp
(All of that added up is 2.000 kp)
39.000 kp - 2.000 kp= 37.000 kp
New total karmic debt: 37.000 kp
(Lol, I swear I’m not purposely trying to keep the score even like that)
- Crimson
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- Name: Brandon
- Goal: Move out
- Age: 21
- Motto: TAKE ACTION
- Location: Germany
Sent out 5 applications. Wanted to send out 20 but I’m tired. One job answered but it’s Night Shift so that doesn’t work. Either way, good work by me.
- Crimson
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- Name: Brandon
- Goal: Move out
- Age: 21
- Motto: TAKE ACTION
- Location: Germany
Sent out 5 more.
- Crimson
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- Goal: Move out
- Age: 21
- Motto: TAKE ACTION
- Location: Germany
Sent out one application today.