Hey you.
I know you’re feeling pretty fucking shitty right now – and you’ve been feeling shitty for a long time. In fact, maybe you can’t even remember a time when you didn’t feel shitty.
You look around at everyone else and they all seem happy – which only makes you feel worse. Why can’t you be like them? Maybe you’ve long-since given up hope you ever could be like them.
I know life sucks – I’ve fucking been there. I’ve been on the brink of suicide – for years – constantly trying to work up the courage to actually fucking end it… but unable to work up the balls to take that final step. I know how shitty it feels to want to die; to feel that at the very core of your being, a feeling that’s with you 24/7, and is only temporarily dulled by distractions like video games, alcohol, time spent with others (pretending to be happy so you won’t be a burden to them).
I also know it gets better if you make it better. I know there’s a way out – it doesn’t have to end the way you think it will.
I can’t promise to make you feel better in one single article, or one single video, or with one book. I can’t promise you the words on this page will fix you. But I’ve been in your situation before and the one thing that made it better was knowing there was even just a tiny sliver of hope – even though that sliver was fucking tiny.
So all I ask is you go through this list, read and watch everything I link to, and wait just one more week before you end things. Just wait a bit – that’s all I’m asking.
Start with this:
Some of the comments on that video are quite important. Read them.
Then buy this book (if you can’t afford it, email me and I will personally PayPal you the money to buy it):
You Can’t Afford the Luxury of a Negative Thought
Work your way through that – just read a couple pages a day. That book went a hell of a long way to pulling me out of depression and making me feel like maybe, just maybe, there was a way for me to be truly happy.
Then read my thoughts on depression, suicide, hopelessness, feeling like it’s too late for you, failure and trying to reach your goals:
- How I Beat Depression & Learned to be an Optimist (My Story)
- What to do When You Feel Hopeless and Helpless
- My Transformation
- Stop Being a Cunt to Yourself
- Discipline & Willpower Don’t Fucking Matter
- When You’re In a Rut…
- You Are Here Now.
- I Am Always Full of Doubt
- Don’t Worry, You’re Making Progress (Bad Days are Ok.)
If you want step-by-step instructions on improving yourself and turning your life around, start here:
- How to Make Friends
- The Slight Edge (How I’ve Achieved all my Goals)
- How I Lost Weight (77lbs / 35kg)
- Fixing Your Sleep (Sleep is Paramount)
- Improving Your Looks
- How to Start Anything
- Write a Daily Action Plan (Todo List)
- How to Get Strong/Gain Muscle
- Give Yourself Permission to Suck
- How to Get Laid on Tinder
- How to Start Hitting on Girls in Public
- I Can’t Get Laid Because…
I’d encourage you to talk to someone – a friend, a family member, a helpline, a counsellor, someone you trust.
Don’t tackle this shit alone.
Change something – anything – starting right now. Just take one small, tiny, seemingly-insignificant baby step towards fixing your issues. You need to think of suicidal thoughts as a fucking battle – FIGHT them and BEAT them. This is a war you’re raging against your suicidal ideations; you really do need to declare war on them and conquer them.
Most of all, please stick with us. I promise you even if it feels like nobody else gives a shit whether you live or die, someone does.
I do.
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I wont kill myself. Lets fucking go
Good man. Now start small – just one tiny thing every single day, even if it’s just making your bed.
From there, read all the resources here:
https://killyourinnerloser.com/depression/#resources
And start slowly implementing everything there.
I have faith in you.
-Andy
What’s that thing you guys tell people? You don’t want it bad enough? You guys always say that to virgins: You don’t want to lose your virginity bad enough that’s the only reason you are still a virgin?
It was the same deal back when you claim you wanted to kill yourself. You just didn’t want it bad enough. If you did you’d have found a way to do it that required minimum courage. Sedatives for example just make it so that you just go to sleep and never wake up.
I’m sure you know how to acquire a sufficient quantity of vallium or similar to get the job done.
I’ve felt the same way for over a decade now. I don’t have a reason to live but don’t have a great desire to kill myself either. So I fill my time with endless consecutive distractions until time passes by and I can finally die.
Yeah, for sure I didn’t want it bad enough. There was some part of me that wanted to live.
Just like there’s some part of you that wants to live. You’ve had a decade and you haven’t ended things.
“I don’t have a reason to live”
Then why don’t you spend the next 10 years trying to come up with one?
-Andy
The more I read of this blog, the more kind and compassionate writing I find. I was drawn to it initially because of the advice it gives to improve with women. But the more you read, the more you can see Andy’s true colors– and how he genuinely wants to help others in their best– or darkest, moments.
I did an skype session and found him to be kind, helpful, and thoughtful– to the point where he went overtime by 30 minutes just to help as much as he could. I hope this blog takes off in a big way.
Thanks Peter, your kind words really mean a lot. As I talked about in Why I Write for this Site, I’ve been to hell and back myself. If I can save a few people from the pain I went through, I’ll consider it a life very well lived.
-Andy
I feel like I’m absolutely losing it at 21… Never had many friends in the first place (2-4), but after school, the very little I had boiled down to just one, who is just as depressed as me. Seeing other people chilling with their friends, having girlfriends makes me sick to my stomach. After 3 years of some serious depression (not the I-need-attention-kind-of-depression, but rather some serious shit) , I am seriously considering to end it all. I hope I don’t, but there. is. literally. no. hope.
I’m a kissless virgin. I have never been to a bar, a club, etc. My days are spent drinking and doing absolutely nothing. I don’t have instagram or snapchat, let alone a fucking facebook profile picture. I am NOTHING compared to the average person. Being ”average” might seem like a lack of ambitions, but such a life would be heaven to me. All I want is the life of an average Joe. A girlfriend, an active sex life, and a strong circle of close friends that I could do shit with.
TO ANYONE WHO READS THIS: You are probably way higher than me. I want to puke when I see normal people complaining about loneliness, when they literally have 5-7 people that they could text in the middle of the night and they would listen to their shit. A bitchy girlfriend, you say? Fuck, I’d take any girlfriend. Value what you have, you could be like me. A fucking nobody who wants to die. Just remember that.
Mate, everything is fixable – even though you think it isn’t. Even though you think it’s hopeless. All I want you to do is 2 things – 2 really easy, really small things:
You don’t have to do anything else. Just do those 2 things. Don’t tell me why it’ll be hopeless, don’t tell me “Those 2 things won’t help, it’s over for me”. Go do them. Now.
-Andy
I wish I had this article, when I was in my darkest moments. Thank you for writing it, it could save someone.
Thanks mate.